why why why
me it's always me

I'll be the bad guy

sorry I hate holding the knife

I have the blood on my hands

I'm the villain

hurts to be the killer

before the story ends

what are your last words

I think it's time to accept it

I don't want to grow up anymore

I don't to be older
now I'm old

I can see the dark circles under my eyes
sleeping more than I should

I still feel so tired

I drown everyday
choking on the air we breathe

I know we're not little kids anymore

nothing feels enough
I have everything and nothing

don't hate me for missing the old days
thinking about the years leading up to all of this

I know I must grow up
all alone without help

I'm scared and excited

I think I can see something new in my eyes

driving around
sun down

I'm out
feels like I was hiding nothing

I wonder
how things will go

for now
I will sleep

my guardian angel close by
somedays it's okay to just be fine

the time has come

I have everything I want

now I can't close my eyes

I can't see anything in front of me

all these changing colors

falling with the leaves

what if days feel like a blur

will I forget everything we do

are we ever together

I hope you're happy

the time is coming

I feel ripped apart

I can breathe

so satisfied

so content

I need to retrace my steps

how did I get here

if the old me is listening

please hear me

maybe when I was younger

that's all I say

are you ready to know the real me

so tired of lying and changing myself

maybe when I was younger

that's all I can say now

\/\ cut my tongue off today
I stabbed my eyes too

I look so good on the outside
why don't you look inside \/\