Gratitude funlight.

         Sanuk Di.

I was honest about my fantasies
Honest about my sins
But life just tick tocks on
Ultimately, no one wins

1:21 p.m.
Palindromic time
Tacos vegetarianos
Cranberry juice with lime

I miss the Asian rains
Miss Taipei 101
Miss teaching at Sage Ridge
Miss my youngest son

               Miss fun.

1:21
Tomorrow never knows

Days of dailiness
Monks in mountain snows

But I am not a monk
On and on it goes

Secrets come from Charlotte
I wonder who she shows?

Not knowing is fun
It's now 1:21

I like palindromes
Once I went to Rome

I came on quite strong
36 years is long

I wonder if her mind
Seek and ye shall find?

            Seek blind?

a suffering, struggling sinner
      always a beginner
lately loser more than winner...

                 in need of help

I'm educated
But not enough

Father Greeley believed Jesus was not humble.
He was tough.

Talkin' Chi Town
Call my bluff

American philosophy
Mostly fluff

But American music
The Right Stuff!

Awake at 12:16
Hotel room in quiet
I miss Ireland
Miss Bangkok's bustle too

Yes, I taught the tweens
But now it's solitude
Driving alone for hours
Doo Wah Diddy Doo

Cell phone changed my life
My son plays basketball
My girlfriend liked bananas
Twilight yearning blue

Protection for my wife
3 days in Vienna
All aglow in snow
The best that I can do

     Before I too am through

A little too excited to sleep
Not sure the reason why

Something bothering me
Ravens solo fly

I like City of Ember
I like Life of Pi

Johnny Cash in September
In this month he did die

             Cambrian Cai

12:21 a.m.
I like Palindromes

Giordano Bruno
Statue still in Rome

If aliens exist
Stately pleasure dome

Trump I did resist
In Ireland far from home

          Erin Go Bragh!

12:21
That was a good dream!

If wishes could come true
Things not as they seem

Solitude is blue
At Springsteen shows I scream

The 80s Boston Celtics
Still my lucky team

               Fairy tales
               Irish green

She tells me America is a Republic
Not a democracy
She's ridin' the Crazy Train
Facebook is a good place
To watch Americans go insane

I have written the professors
But I am not one myself
Can't give no lectures
Road to Heaven
Red Pine on my shelf

1 is the loneliest number
It's now 12:21
Palindromes
Calls to Rome
When my Day is Done

   Please protect my sons!

12:21
I like those palindromes
Cliff Pickover in Taipei
Weird Al in North Carolina

Madam I'm Adam
Californ I A
All roads lead to Rome
Road to Heaven in China

Leaving Liverpool
Saw Paul McCartney in Baltimore
Took a bus to Belfast
Train to Copenhagen

Ah! Satan seed Natasha
Hey Now! Everlast
4444
Racist Ronald Reagan

            Hannah!

44 percent, 12:21
Stanley Yelnats, Dad

Times we were together
Best times I ever had

Stockholm cycling happy
Sunday silent sad

Viva San Francisco!
Sweet Sir Galahad

Don Quixote? Good mad!

we live and we die
we know not why

I sing along with Bob
or at least I try

Ah! Socrates
tonight I sigh

unknowing indeed
on my bed I lie

exoplanets above
strange starry sky

dragon riders
also fly

kiss my sons
before I die

Irish grandma
my wife is Thai

krop kun kop
farewell. Goodbye.

Takin' down stupid prayers
My phone 37 percent

Foolish priests puttin' on airs
Hurricane came and went

When prayer comes from the heart
It's about others not self

Keep her calm amidst the Storm
Keep his books upon the shelf

                       Stealth.

Awake at night, Asleep in day
But I don't live vampire

I am, however, bipolar
And I'm mesmerized by fire

Shakyamuni he was very wise
Spoke deep truth about desire

I remember storming Asian rains
And I know George W. was a liar.

Sick and suffering
But trying to help

Sunlight today
Miso soup with kelp

            Sunlight!

54 and forming
54 and falling
Dublin. Stockholm. Bangkok.
DC. London Calling

I like Korean food
Spend much time alone
Little lonely life
Little black cell phone

Decades of depression
Manic in the Night
1 blue teardrop
2 green lights

Please Patientia
Slowly. No big deal.
God is the hope
The hope that is not real

           Aquamarine. Evergreen. Teal.

My friend Bob is a Unitarian
As was my Grandaddy Brown
As is my cousin Natalie
Take a look around

I too believe in oneness
I do, Ave Maria
2 beautiful women
I would like to be ya

             Oneness
                 3 ya.

1 friend. 2 brothers.
3 sons. No mother.

Roaring traffic's zoom.
Silent lonely room.

When I die: whom?

1230
Not 1600
Some things I won't understand

Bon Scott's Australia
Playin' in a Rockin' Band

Help me know thyself
Help my little town

What was lost is hidden
What was tossed is found

          Offensive Rebounds!

I'm 1230
Not 1600
So there will be things
I do not understand

Greetings and Salutations
Hopes and fears
Laughter and tears
And a rockin' band

Please trust
Patientia
Courage
Footprints in the sand

                        And ...

2 hearts
better than 1

Bruce and Clarence
get the job done

Beach Boys
fun fun fun

yo no daughters
pero 3 sons

bilocating nun?

Born to Run

I've seen the Gorgon
She's definitely female
****** Dentata
Snakes in her hair

Life is mostly boring
Drift. Drift toward death.
Eating and sleeping
Mostly unaware

      Happiness? Rare.

They got the honors
But i got the songs

Courage please to the end
When I'm late along

Mr. Markson does inspire!
So does Harry Wong

Somewhere with my sons
Where we all belong

              Amen.

12:34
Who could ask for anything more?

Me.

I implore.

Please open the Divine door!

Grateful for the rain
           Grateful

         Good night.

Only in dreams can we be free
Mr. Keating is right

Only in dreams with Wendy
Susan lovely in white

I am awake again
12:34 at night

Reality, not a dream
Little cell phone light

                Zeit.

12:37
Thinking of Madonna

Crazy for You in school
72 names I wanna

I went to Italy
On my honeymoon

La Isla Bonita
And lovely Flaming June

Singing Like a Prayer
Such a beautiful tune

12:37
Time to walk on home

Honeymoon in Paris
Honeymoon in Rome

Now it's separation
I long on my own

12:37
Pythagorean prone

12:37
thinking of Bruce

Pillar of Fire
Israelites on the loose

Rattlesnake freeway
Poet's promised land

Bon Scott's Australia
Hook horns in hand

Driving I sing
With the E street Band

I ain't a boy
No, I'm a man

Slowly but surely
I discover my plan

Moby **** kebab house
Family Iran

Still the whale sails
For the whole human clan

Gotta catch me first
To put my head in a noose

The chase is in Space
No wild goose

It's true I'm sick and suffering
I'm grateful for those prayers

It's also true their country is cruel
And they are ignorant, unawares

I still have need to fight
To be one who dares

But now I'm tired, little light
Courage to those who cares

I like beauty
But I am not an aesthete
On the Lookout for the good
In everyone I meet

Aging is loneliness
Gonna take off in my car
But nowhere to go
If you follow that Star

Fatherhood is gratitude
Please give them loyal friends
The Silence is forever
The rest is just pretends

             Silence sends ...

12:37
i wake and call my son

ordinary day
to fight oblivion

poems in the mail
a little bit bizarre

dead men tell no tales
how right, how right you are

A keeper of love's flame
Silent in the night
The mystery of names
My Mr. Spock kite

I went to Copenhagen
Light in the little hotel
Abraham and Isaac
Abraham and Ishmael

President Abraham Lincoln
Married to Mary Todd
Taipei 101
Like 101 I'm odd

           Go Tigers!

Man, that was a scary dream awakening takes time happens in Florida too Desantis is a racist Harvard Yale Iraq Catholic trumpfucks they might think they understand bipolar because they hire psychiatrists but they don't really know psychiatrists are like everything else some good some bad some arrogant some caring Dr Frenkel is a good man but he fears Cornel West especially if he criticizes Israel I went to a wedding in Tel Aviv danced with Lee Tal's cousins the Palestinians are oppressed many Americans hate and fear Muslims Jesus slips away I still say xie xie down goes down to day live to fight, another play. My my hey hey...

Talkin' bout the Midnight Rambler
Everybody gotta go
It's 3 a.m. and I'm awake
Did you see me jump the Garden Wall?

Watched Midnight Special twice
**** Jagger unrecognized in a Charlotte bar
I'm shy, geeky, lonely, bookish, quiet, nerdy
Am I really a shining star?

Talkin' bout the Midnight Rambler
See him at the Rock n' Roll show
Scary, explosive dreams last night
Everybody gotta go

                          Well.
                      Well Well

I give thanks for Andy
Helps me through the days

Keeps me calm and focused
At times my fears allays

Today I walk again
Winter sun above

12:37
The wish for winter love.

Gratitude resists despair
Good things still exist

The virus rages in the air
The doctors do resist

My life is true confusing
Chaos and endurance

Even when I'm losing
I think of past assurance

Just do your best, come what may
Do your best and wait

Patience is the way
Marksonian meditate.

12500 poems
Is it anything more than play?

I write now in the night
I sleep then in the day

For so long I was a reader
Travelled in Taipei

Sometimes I think I need her
But this night no Xie Xie.

Consciousness fades to sleep
Gratitude for sons
Taipei 101
Tonight quite far away

I wonder what she thinks
May not ever know
Kamakura snow
Dawn goes down to day

Her gentle beauty
And she can also fight
She reminds me of my mother
JMU xie xie

Took a risk
Took several
Open books
Mother Mary May

            Play.

I've had my share of delusions
Some good, some bad, some ******
This impassive world
I leave my shirt untucked

Joseph Conrad in high school
Dylan Thomas too
I was in Warsaw once
London Eye to view

Will I get to Seattle?
Will we repeal Amendment 2?
Will the boys throw my ashes?
Will America magazine review?

Darkness falls again
The time is 1:29
September When It Comes
World of Strange Design

               Red Red Wine

Today he turns 13
And I am distant far

When I wish for him
I wish upon a star

Carolina blue
Pokemon where you are

Brownies for dessert
Cary Irish bar

              Hope!

Miserable Marriage
     Beautiful boys
         Endurance

Sonya and Cody
Daily life
Please protect my children
From my wife

Help her too
I don't know how
Point guard play
Deep Thai bow

Fading sun
A bit of peace
Italy
Ancient Greece

America
Basketball
Point guard play
Peace be with y'all

          Hope!

Don't wanna be a critic
An American or a soldier

It ain't gonna happen
But, yes, I'd like to hold her

When I was in Stockholm
I read in coffee shops

When I was in Georgetown
Poems I did drop

Ferry boats are fun
Have you seen Bainbridge Island?

Oh! my youngest one
Keep on, Keep on smilin'!

1:31
Still awake am I

One day I'll leave America again
But maybe only when I die

                  Hey hey, My my.

1337
Petrarch to Avignon

2037
Will I linger on?

  Night. Or Dawn?

13500 poems
Why o why o why?

Because i have to get it out
Before i have to die

Many nights alone
Many times i cry

I hope she sees indeed agrees
He was one to try

I set my sights salvation
Stupid thing to do
Now I'm only lonely
Souped up 72

Got a little money
It won't last too long
La Florida is sunny
George W. was wrong

America is ugly
But Charleston is nice
Dante and Beatrice
He only saw her twice

I was born too late
We face annihilation
If I could I surely would
Educate my nation

       Probably cremation