Ridiculous, I know
What else can I do?

My shirt is Irish green
The sky is twilight blue

Obsessions and confessions
Another world to view

Can I find the Way?
Will I break on through?

                If I flew
      Would you come too?

Unstable, unsteady, combustible
I can feel it swirl inside
You'll need a good companion
For this part of the ride

The anxiety is spiky
At the point it gets real scary
Quiet little apartment
Help me ordinary

To sleep perchance to dream
To dream of other worlds
Susan Darlene
Exoplanets twirl

              Colorado!

The American intelligentsia
Currently corrupt

No real resistance
Merely fluttering up

A kind of moronic farce
This society of money

But I do like SNL
Kate Mckinnon - She's funny!

Kafka's review by his employers at the insurance company in Prague:

Superior administrative talent.

So maybe this is a kind of diary
6 or 7 or 8 years of my life
Un Escritor
Obsessions

Gracias, Dear Reader
I appreciate your attention
I'm often lonely as the rain
Isolation frightens

But I do like solitude
Is this a contradiction?
I don't think so
Alone but not alone

I fear for the future
Politics portends
I like bullet trains
Peter Parker. Uncle Ben.

             Visions. And then ...

I fear annihilation
yet still I travel on

yearning and time turning
the goal perhaps anon.

beware, they say, the quiet man
who watches at dusk and dawn

words that strike like lightning
karma chameleon

Life is a kind of torment
Rarely, rarely at ease
Please for my sons
Happiness, hope


      Prayers for the Pope

He's at the movies with friends
Which makes me smile awhile
I don't tell him how it ends
I don't sail upon De Nile

I'm in the hospital again
Atheist male nurse
Notices my religious obsessions
And my education

Hospitals are boring
Pace the floor, adjust the meds
UFos, what are those?
Interstellar Aviation?

Richard Dreyfus bipolar
Had a Close Encounter
Synchronicity
In my meditations

Charlotte
Ms. Pascal
Rachel
Distant Destinations

He also sang.

but there is no healthy perfection
with that we too are rotten

yet still we venture forth
hoping not to be forgotten

we do the best we can
leave the rest to our friends and God

then for 1001 nights
we listen entranced to Scheherezade

                                         Arabian Nights!

I've been to the mountains and to the sea
I hope that the gods go easy with me
Me too, Bob
7273

Christmas coming soon
December 25
Still ain't got you
But happy to be alive

You in the black dress
DC metro near
I didn't speak your beauty truth
Too much repression. To much fear.

But I tell you now
So someone at last can hear
You looked like a vision
You are dear to me, my dear

           Whisper in my ear

                      Appear.

I've been to the mountains and to the sea
I hope that the gods go easy with me
Me too, Bob
7273

Christmas coming soon
December 25
Still ain't got you
But happy to be alive

You in the black dress
DC metro near
I didn't speak your beauty truth
Too much repression. To much fear.

But I tell you now
So someone at last can hear
You looked like a vision
You are dear to me, my dear

           Whisper in my ear

                      Appear.

Step by day by slow
Troubles come and go
Solamente yo
Chuck Berry's Kokomo

The little way xie xie
Watch my children play
Forever and a day
Mother Mary May

No I can't control her
Lord Shiva bipolar roller
If I could I would console her
Joan Jett should rock n' roller

A little ocean motion
Quietly devotion
Brian Katz kept coachin'
Music is love potion

           Verdi Cries!

abundant extraterrestrial water
her father a priest, she his daughter

do you think she will remember
what my little letter taught her?

The terror I felt at 14
Was the terror of the truth
I will die and be forgotten
Like my long lost love of youth

I hate American politics
Love many American movies
Germany interests me
So does Istanbul

Ivan Karamazov
Is against this world, not God
Wants to return his ticket
Have trod have trod have trod

I love the Asian rains
Ride the bullet trains
Can't free her from my brain
Am shy but not aloof

               Mr. Markson
    Opens the Door to the Roof

Ms. Meek. Sigh. Geek.

******* world
******* people


      wanhope

just a few words
  until, unheard
       futility

It's only gonna get worse
The American Sliiiiiiide
        Into the Abyss

American Despair
Alas, I have it too

The loss of those who care
Nothing we can do

The mythology
Isn't true

So blue
So blue

Depression is a *****
I wish I could switch

              53

Depression my whole adult life
Panic fears
Horrible marriage
Pain on rain on train

         American Abyss

The cruelty of
The American Empire
And the American President
And, alas, the American people.

Some corruption in me
Alas! Proclivities
Try to do the best I can
Please baby baby please

I liked the traveling
Saw the Asian rain
Time tick tocks
Slow going solo pain

              In vain

watching, waiting, wishing
I sit alone:  they’ve gone fishing
          the utter shallowness

              of American life.

lonely as a cloud, clothes of cotton
      philo- Sophia during times quite rotten

                frail. foolish. fumbling. finite.

                                Forgotten.

The imaginative life is fun
But often doesn't touch

Alas, poor Yorick, alas!
Alas! I think too much

I wish that she would hold me
But her caresses for another

So I sleep alone
Naked under covers

          No lovers.

dos tacos vegetarianos
   yo quietly sitting



Goooooooaaaaaaaaaaal!

I took Existentialism at 19
First told of The Plague

Fascism is a foolish thing
Certain in this world so vague

The French language sounds so
                   beautiful
   The cathedrals astonish too

I know that life is often Absurd
   But I wish joy to be with you

               Monsieur Camus

Albert Camus
Now we have Plague too

Fascism
With an American twist

I rebel; therefore, we exist.

When I was 19 years old
I did not want to be told
Life is Meaningless
And the only real question
Is the question of suicide

But I still do like Albert Camus
Rebellion against the Absurd
Unde Malum? Unheard.
By France allured.

Now I'm 53
The Absurd took chunks of me
Had to let her see
Fatherhood? Oui.Oui. Oui.

Harrisonburg is far from Algeria
Paris far from Satellite Beach
Like Simone Weil
I tried to teach

                Trappist 1!

in love we disappear
Montreal's Leonard Cohen

late along in London
singin', ringin', knowin'

I've seen London too
stayed the Stansted Inn

Medieval women Muslim mystics
I discuss with my new friend

                   Nadia
Mohammed, Khadija and the poets
         Peace be unto them.

Schizophrenic women
Frightening indeed
Carefully cremation
A pal's last need to heed

Ave Maria
Gotham dark and rain
Hagia Sophia
I ride the Downbound Train

SauRon Desantis
Florida to fight back
Harvard, Yale, Catholic
Helped to destroy Iraq

Rainy Night in Georgia
Hotlanta, Adonis Creed
He sees the Saguaro Cactus
I plant a mustard seed


         Silently we proceed.

Don't go directly at it
Wait. Let it come to you.
Help me dailiness
Help my hidden 2

The drama in my mind
But my life so ordinary
Silent monk in Bangkok
Asian eyes Mother Mary

Sometimes fear and trembling
Much I cannot see
I pass the ball to Alex
Tupac, Inca, 3

        God bless the Dead

College professors who vote for Trump
America the Ignorant
All Walls Fall
All Empires too

Sky deep blue tonight
Clouds
Me barefoot
How about you?

Barefoot in the grass
The beauty of her ***
Calvert House Mass
Ping pong pew

Keep Alex forward
Loyola loyalty
Upon the cosmic Sea
2072

               mu

Will Durant's amusingly unworldly statement that a particular woman was "too beautiful to be a lesbian".

Tucson train, San Francisco again
    Mexico music may maintain
     desert highway, driving rain ...


                    endless pain
               yet can’t complain

Says Cornel West.

Petri dishes
I laugh

No quid pro quo
I take a bath

Washington Post
Aftermath

Democracy dies
Cut in half