The pain of goodbye
A stab
A strike
An ache

Chicago
Chiraq
ChiTown
Lady of the Lake

Saint Augustine
San Francisco
San Diego
Santa Rosa awake

My chaotic life
Hospitals
Lithium
Meaningless, but not a mistake

                   Nagas Snake

I probably won't ever escape America
But as sure as hell am gonna try
They can have the guns
I want Seattle's sky

My son soon to Stockholm
I reread Life of Pi
Springsteen said that Rome
Is where he'd like to die

       Where, o where for I?

His name is actually Felito
It isn't really Ted
He got it from his mother
At least that's what he said

Growing up in Texas
Such a nerdy, geeky boy
Now a Republican with boots
Dreaming of all he can destroy

Ay Felito! You can't carpet bomb civilians
We'll knock you on your ***
Felito Cruz means "Happy Little Cross"
But Ted, You Shall Not Pass!

Sean Hannity
American insanity

American Catholic hater
Like an ignorant Darth Vader

Trumpfuck found on Fox
Bootlicker of Trump's socks

Send him to the Abyss
Unmourned and unmissed

                 Adios Thanos!

Cardinal Spellman of New York sent Pope Paul VI a Rolls Royce with solid gold door handles.

The perhaps less than idle speculation that Columbus was a Jew.

I admit the deep despair
The Universe does not care.


      But I do.

I admit it
In my daydream
She shows up one night

Unannounced

We speak pure truth.
We remember our youth.
And finally she see's true me.

A powerful wishdream scheme.

But alas! Not likely to be.

Adonis in Atlanta
I too arrive in need

Adonis in Atlanta
I too need a creed

No triumphalism
Everybody bleeds

But respect, true respect
The future yours to seed

Adonis in Atlanta
I too need a creed

Adonis in Atlanta
Where my soul does bleed

Adonis in Atlanta
I speak, but who does heed?

Adonis in Atlanta
I now plant a mustard seed

Adonis in Atlanta
Soul to soul I bleed

Adonis in Atlanta
I too need a creed

Adonis in Atlanta
Endurance like a seed

Adonis in Atlanta
Father’s foes indeed

Adonis in Atlanta
I too need a creed

Adonis in Atlanta
Soul to soul I bleed

Adonis in Atlanta
Be strong and take heed

Adonis in Atlanta
The endless aching need!

Singing Say You, Say Me
Imagining fantasy
Wondering what might be

                      Music
                (and mystery)

adrift in a meaningless world
         Tom Joad (but not the Pearl)
                    sea green seashell swirls

                                 ghostliness.

soul sorrow
    silence
         1

American Cosmic, sky neighborhood  

        anomalous cognition
          could it be? could?   

           media matters and
         synchronicities would


              I continue alone
         overhead is the Good?

Sittin' in the back of the church
Did not attend the Mass
Did not drink the Wine
Studyin' the stained glass

Very few children
Pero, Aeropostale '87
Statue of St. Therese
Talked to Chelsea, Kevin

Hablo Espanyol
Pero solamente un pequito
Me here in Mary's Land
My mother buried in Toledo

Why no female priests?
Where did the children go?
One man come he to justify
One man to Overthrow!

            Yoko yo yo ...

He said he'd like to die in Rome
Eternal City, City at Night
I kinda liked the hospital
Quiet. Answers? No, not quite.

I'm watching Jaws today
Karma? Terror. The beach.
Spielberg is American greatness
In village and in seech

I like Lost in Translation
Solaris. Arrival. Dune.
Like Governor Mario Cuomo
I was born on 15 June

Toured the Vatican once
Beautiful tour guide - she didn't shave
Jesuit Volunteer
Standing on Shakespeare's grave

            True Love (not to blave :)

Ezra Pound on ******:

A saint and a martyr.

at times near the anxious abyss quakin’
    by women less loved, more forsaken
      never too far from the internal achin’
             alas, in hospitals often wakin’

for my boys, a steadier, less anguished life
                      the road not taken.

**** lit.

**** lit.

It's the silence that keeps on drawing me
The silence and the deer

Trappist Abbey in Oregon
Bangkok temple far from here

The beach, but not in summer
Grey skies, misty rain

Unexpectable, she said
The Buddha's female train

         open window pane

Jimmy John's vegetarian sub
    Finnegan's Wake, Irish pubs
        listening to Leonard Cohen
           in the winterwarm bathtub

                         yes.

The Dark Knight, rock ‘n roll
The Dark Night of the soul
Without a woman, I just can’t feel whole...

                Desafortunadamente

...Gandalf, the wizard wise...
The unexpected: means much,
         so much surprise
    
                  hair ties

Hunan vegetable
Coca Cola

Paul Mcartney
Rock n' Rolla

Elle King
Exes and Ohs

Barefoot boy
Sand in his toes

C.D.'s Nose!
(Roxanne knows)

Lina and Doon.
Flaming June.
A Springsteen tune.
To see my sons soon!

Religion, literature, music
Travel on the trains

Open to the Unknown
Green sea, Purple Rain

Open to the Unknown
Exoplanets spin

Near the University
But you have to lose to win

              Poe and Finn!

the terror of history
  musical mystery
         Images

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake in the morning
Without you on my mind

Now you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
For you to walk right in and out of my life?


                         - A Fine Fenzy
                          "Almost Lover"

don't have protocols
encounters my inspiration

strangers on London trains
dreams of destinations

beauty in the twilight
yearning's evocation

memories of her charms
booklooks education

Sacred Scripture clearly teaches that Joshua commanded the sun not the earth to stand still.

Said Martin Luther, dismissing this fool Copernicus

I told Michael Dirda
re: Harold Bloom and Camille Paglia

i.e. Christopher Hitchens

I am very afraid of dying
Please courage at the end
The silence is eternal
Please silence be my friend

                     Amen.

The only excuse for the suffering God allows in the world is that He does not exist.

Said Stendhal

St. Therese of Lisieux knew every word of The Imitation of Christ by heart.

No artist tolerates reality.

          - Albert Camus

No artist tolerates reality.

Said Camus.

Sigmund Freud ran his household in such
a rigidly patriarchal way that his wife was
literally required to place to the toothpaste on his toothbrush each day.

George Hunt SJ
America magazine editor
For SJW I pray
Not the end of the matter

2 outs in the 7th
Chicago's Wrigley Field
Fay Vincent commissioner
Hey batter batter

Ryne Sandberg singles
Runner on second goes
Throw from deep right field
Safe at the plate

I told her. Now she knows.
Say You, Say Me
The One who understands
White Nights delights First Date

                     Aye, Mate

I have internal terror
I know not from where it came

Drives me to despair
And the edge of brain insane

But I haven't given up
I seek the secret flame

The kindness courage place
with the hidden Holy Name

The Pope may judge all
And be judged by no man.

Said Innocent III

After my mom died
Nothing right anymore
Not in Toledo, Ohio
Not in Baltimore

The silence is maternal
It doesn't ever end
O ye sacred silence!
Silence be my friend

                 Amen.