Only one life
Then Eternal Nothingness

Still, Fr. Greeley
I pray to you nevertheless

Thank you for your courage
Thank you for what you said

Thank you for your books
Erin Go Bragh all in my head!

If I have beautiful delusions
But still I don't have you

Is it 37
Or is it 72?

Summer of 69
Winter parlez vous?

Now I drink no wine
But still I pray day 2

         Jesus Who?

Love is when he gives you a part of your soul, that you never knew was missing.

                   - Torquato Tasso

the soft and gentle rain
       the coming nightflight train
               ah! to sleep away the pain ...

                             dreamschemes.

nightwalk
starshine
rabbits

Poe and Dostoevsky
Fits and dreams and schemes

My little lonely life
Is this all that it means?

Today the bus to campus
A little vegetable soup

Too cold, too cold right now
For the outdoor basketball hoop

It's 3:39
In the darkness I'm awake

No excalibur
No Lady of the Lake

Just me here in silence
Where is William Blake?

No regrets, despite regrets
             No apologies
                 forward

Courage in the nighttime
Vigilance in the dark

Enduring vicious insults
Kindness from my friend Mark

Setting up the placements
Prayer and meditation

Remembering the animals
Time for dedication

Father Greeley loved the movies
Truly, so do I

Alex, like me, loves basketball
Oh, how they fly!

Dr. Thomas, he loved Mozart
Prodigious Austrian guy

She does not love me
Precisely why I cry

The world does not come from Love
Not the predatory terror

But the moonlight shines above
I hope my life is not an error

                  Future? Fairer.

Awake in the night again
Palindromic time

Stanley Yelnats and Zero
Cranberry juice with lime

Thinking, can't stop thinking
Will I see again Chicago?

Springsteen with Othello
Harold Bloom with Iago

I'm with Dr. Cohen
He taught me Julius Caesar

I'd like to be a just man
That is how to please her.

Thunder rollin' in
     Sadness too
             her

now she appears as 50
but I knew her at 15

thought of her in windstorm
in the Emerald Isle green

dark hark, lovely face, blue eyes
you shoulda heard just what I seen

passion burns long and gentle
ah! her thighs my sighs between!

I keep seeing 37
Surely it's only chance
Honeymoon in Italy
Honeymoon in France

Mesmerized by Istabul
Tokyo in snow
Risperdol injection
On and on we go

Only fear can defeat life.
Do not be defeated.

Once more into the breach, dear friends
Courage re-repeated

My suffering is finite
Like my life, it too will end

I sense the endless silence
Is the silence my true friend?

                    37

I had to write the poems
The poems come from pain

Please pray for my wife
I'm near La Mancha, Spain

The sadness will last forever
37 years

La Florida my past
La Florida, my dears

Sunt lacrimae rerum
Tears, idle tears

Nebraska is the 37th state
It's capital now is Lincoln

I have never been there
But 37 has me thinkin'

37 is also
The 5th lucky prime

Lincoln is on the 5 dollar bill
FDR is on the dime

I can't do it without making mistakes
One prayer for professors
2 for the Vietnamese

Slowly, anxious, slowly
Walk the cemetery
A goddess on her knees

Chicago deep dish pizza
Mr. Incredible, Mr. Freeze
Batman building building

            Batman. Pretty please.

                 (times like these)

37 keeps appearing in my life
Probably don't mean a thing
But it gets my attention
Lost my wedding ring

Will I die in sleep?
Alone?
In pain?
Roman thing

Death will be Release
Torment finally gone
I hope to sleep in peace
Temple of the Dawn

I read a lot of books
Rode a lot of trains
Once taught with Mike Zook
Never Been to Spain

Music a companion
The guns gotta go
Seattle all alone
Softfall cedar snow

Misery of my marriage
3 beautiful boys
No horse or carriage
She's got the *** toys

Would that she would hold me
Let me cry and cry
Delusions y Confusions
Exoplanet Sky

Extrasolar Water
Pink champagne on ice
South Side of Chicago
Ooo dat girl looked nice

Tired, trepidation
Not a lotta money
Maybe Stranger Than Fiction
Will Ferrell very funny

We are the language animal
I go ramblin' round
Lonely as the rain
Off like a prom gown

Hope amidst despair
In the mud the lotus flower
The Daughters indeed will come
No man knows the hour

                 Reno!

Perhaps just apophenia
All these 37s

I do not know a Xenia
Don't know if there's a heaven

I do know Pythagoras
His mystic numerology

What is transmigration
When 7 follows 3?

37 percent
Birthday night

Is it mystery
Or is it fright?

Any hope
For things to work out right?

Meister Eckhart
Mystic flight

Cam Cam I am
My true delight

If you tell me
There is no mystical mystery
In this world of suffering and sin

I will say:
You might be right.
But then I see clues again.

                  
             The game is afoot.    
                Shall we begin?

Shakyamuni Buddha
The original Woke man
Patientia
Just do the best I can

Way out in the wilderness
A cold coyote calls
Patientia
All Walls Fall

South from Seattle
San Francisco Zen
North to Vancouver
3710

East to Taipei
Confucian temple tests
Her hands in my hair
My hands on her ******* ...

Young in California
Sun, fog, snow
Tidal pools in Monterrey
Round and round we go

Silence. Only Silence.
San Francisco Zen
Movies, meditation
3710

She holds me in the harbor
We sleep perchance to dream
Toledo, not Ann Arbor
Rabbi Nahman's silent scream

Do I die in Bangkok?
Do I die in secret Spain?
Fox Theater in Detroit
Snow. Night Train Lane.

             yo espero ...

Young in California
Sun, fog, snow
Tidal pools in Monterrey
Round and round we go

Silence. Only Silence.
San Francisco Zen
Movies, meditation
3710

She holds me in the harbor
We sleep perchance to dream
Toledo, not Ann Arbor
Rabbi Nahman's silent scream

Do I die in Bangkok?
Do I die in secret Spain?
Fox Theater in Detroit
Snow. Night Train Lane.

             yo espero ...

Proclivities, progress
Regress, try again
Silences, yearning
Yearning for a friend

               3710

I think I was called or destined or needing
To be a writer
Un Escritor
Gracias, Senyor

Alex and I in Chicago
Ping pong
Anthony, Chuck, Kevin
Amos 3:7

Chicago River goes green
I teach Things Not Seen
Maybe a sacred Queen
Bert be home Blyleven

                3711

It's gonna have to be posthumous
Emily
Markson
Melville
Vincent's Green Eyes

Frodo
Legolas
Amber
Oxford
Gandalf the Wise

1937
Guernica
The Hobbit
The Cost of Discipleship
Als Ick Kan

             (I still tries)

The cruelty of the female mind
Spiteful, vindictive, mean
South Side of Chicago
I read things not seen

Irish Eyes are Smiling
Mine are gold and green
All That Jazz
Mr. Ben Vereen

                 3717

Oxford's twilight beauty
Tokyo in the rain
Taipei 101
Mass shooting in Maine

I'd like another country
Sweden was very nice
Maybe Asia again
Live on mango and sticky rice

Tired, solitary
The Batman funeral scene
Mr. David Markson
Rothko blue and green

                3717

Standin' on Highway 61
Wonderin' what to do
Along comes a spider
Sees you George W.

Northbound 35
Hotel room for 2
A little chana masala
Ever ancient, Ever new

Route 66
Me and my Darlene
Gonna get my kicks
Rothko blue and green

95 south
Soon St. Augustine
Satellite Beach
Do you see what I mean?

                 3717

American women:
Divorce, ****, abortion, money

Kate Mckinnon:
Very funny

George W. Lies
Texas ****

Irish bars
Taco trucks

Asian eyes
Things Not Seen

Her eyes blue
My eyes green

       3717

I can't find her
She doesn't exist
The long road of despair

American racists
Pretzel twists
Blue eyes but black hair

I like my green couch
And the mountain mist
Angels unaware?

Emily Dickinson
All alone
Amherst. Writing. Rare.

                373

Emily. Emily. 373
I wish. I wait. I meditate
Please say a prayer for me
         Synchronicity

I can't find her
She doesn't exist
The long road of despair

American racists
Pretzel twists
Blue eyes but black hair

I like my green couch
And the mountain mist
Angels unaware?

Emily Dickinson
All alone
Amherst. Writing. Rare.

                373

America is Ignorance
Ignorance with too many guns
Remember Kevin Johnson?
He played for the Phoenix Suns

Europe is more beautiful
Stockholm by the Sea
When I leave Berlin
3733

Sandor Marai in San Diego
The General so quiet
George W. Lies
No way to deny it

My place is little lonely
She doesn't call or write
Potato skins - no bacon
Cranberry juice with Sprite

              Nashville Night

The ****** Dentata
Is not a tale of castration anxiety
It's a real experience
Woman as man eater

Devouring Mother

The Thai temple was quiet at night
Old monk's eyes closed
Women in Tai Chi

I was barefoot
Krop Kun Kop
Pax vobiscum, Pi li

Ave Maria
Tuk Tuks in the rain
My sons in Muay Thai
Thailand, Land of the Free

                   Patiently

He says creativity is making mistakes
Art is knowing which ones to keep
Shiver in ecstasy
Roll 'em and read 'em and weep

First discovered in Taipei
God be good to Sandy
Delicious won ton soup
Hi Chew grape cherry candy

People from New Zealand
Megan and Gary and Mel
Maori girl whale rider
A little like Ishmael

I never rode a whale
But I cycled the Baltic Sea
If I die at night
What will become of me?

                3733

I don't believe in American
Success stories
What they want is money
I read Moby ****

Beauty Baltic Sea
Asian destiny
3733
Come quick! Come quick!

              Often sick

So the hope is Wounded Healer
The fear is sick sick sick
In one hand City of Ember
In the other Moby ****

Gerard Manley Hopkins
Jesus - Make it quick!
Young adult novels
Science fiction flicks

              3736

All religions create right wing fanatics
Slowly guacamole
Endurance
Solitude

Ancient monasteries
Quiet libraries
Hot baths
Susan in the ****

Hath the rain a father?
Mr. David Markson
Gonna reread Moby ****
Musical interlude

USPS
t.d.w.
3737
family feud

The torment and the fever dream
Men who shake, Women who scream
I'm alone but play for my team

                  Episcopaliens!

3737, I think of Madame Curie
Unsure if I have become
What I was supposed to be

I went to Mass in Poland
The Buddha had his Bodhi tree

I try to do the best I can
With this little poetry

Good luck, we surely need it:
If you are a reader
Please read David Markson for
                        me

           What did he see?

Ok not to exist
Will I be received?
Future, the future Miss
Bangkok be retrieved

         All Hallow's Eve

37:37
    how much time remains

still remember Satellite
    with lonely lifelong pain

so hard to accept
     that all our love's in vain

the Man of La Mancha
     and La Mancha means "the stain"

no purity, no real security
     we ride that downbound train

kindness to our hider riders
     ain't gonna pass this way again

I admit, long term reader,
I wonder what, if anything,
Is gonna get through

I want the Impossible
The Different. The Unknown.
The Unknowable Who

I love movies
I watch mostly at home now
Reno Rendezvous

In my solitude
In her seeking
In her eyes of blue

          Chicago. Bangkok. Seattle U.

                         37372

when America is no more
the sinking sun has set

what will the future remember?
and what will they forget?

the foreign wars and violence
will be seen as horror story

not freedom, not democracy
not George W. or the Donald in glory

the racism and greed
will also be cast down

no future folk will wish
to renew that in their town

the lack of decency
or respect for others

will also go the way
which cannot be recovered

so what then will they recall
these people of 3739?

maybe Small is Beautiful
And Seattle is so fine!

Taxi from Boston to Amherst
               White Dress
                      373

The hardest corruption to resist
Is the corruption in myself
Frustrations. Frustrations.
Siena cathedral in light

Minority Report
Dune 2 is coming
Santa Rosa, California
Puzzling plight. Puzzling plight.

Trappist 1 exoplanets
Extrasolar water
At times coincidence
Sleeping late and long

Buddhamind in Bangkok
Som tam. Yellow curry.
a little trust, much worry
Bryan Adams song

      gathering throng