My desperate wish for meaning
           And significance
               my illusions

                     Sigh...

I am very afraid of dying
Please courage at the end
The silence is eternal
Please silence be my friend

                     Amen.

......... Fr. Greeley .........
yellow dog Democrat
             Chicago

Black smoke, big blue sky
                just sitting
                   looking

My insignificance.
My sincerity.

                hope

My mind is full of quotations
David Markson forever!
Sacramento Mark
Sacramento Heather

I'm tired, often tired
Disability
Diabetes. Gout. Bipolar.
Please protect my 3

Grateful for small victories
Analogies. Connections.
Grateful for my troubled life
Grateful quietly, no perfection

I like so many movies
For instance, Galaxy Quest
I'll die and be forgotten
Still - to do my best.

                      Amen.

The graveyards are full
Of indispensable people
I just stay inside
Quietly wait

Life is Absurd
Yo soy un theonerd
2 prayers for Cam
2 prayers for Cate

     please destiny not fate

The years fly quickly by
Soon I too am dead
All alone in my house
Quiet upon my bed

Talk to my son tonight
Protect him from nameless dread
Beyond here lies nothin'
Nothin' done and nothin' said

Dylan in Orlando
St. Augustine and DC
Jimmy Reed indeed
In Dublin meant to be

                  In DC we.

There's not much you can do about evil
He said
And these years now
Have proved him right

Trump rises
America falls
I sense I sense I sense
The coming Night

                Gatsby's green light

I like the mist in the mountains
Like the ocean's roar
Kamakura snow
Inner Harbor, Baltimore

I hope I rest in peace
Please protect my 3
I stay inside and sleep
Waken quietly

Politics is an Abyss
George W. Lies
Chicago in the winter
I tries I tries I tries

Gratitude for soup
Gratitude for books
My oldest is 18 now
He drives, he works, he cooks

                    El futuro!

So I drove down from Seattle
To sit in silence
And meditate
At the San Francisco Zen Center

I like both of those cities
Misty fog
Asian food
Hope

                           Patience please.

It's hard to deal with insignificance
                      Silences
                           Yo!

I'm no one important
No great philosopher
An amateur poet
A bipolar dad

Life is Absurd
America is Ignorance
55 and falling
Sweet Sir Galahad

Sleep late and long
Troubled
Lonely
Sad.

Saw Bladerunner 2049 in Bangkok
Motorcycle taxis in the rain
Tokyo to Kyoto
Speeding bullet train

Grateful for my sons
Silence in the night
Star Trek: Into Darkness
My Mr. Spock kite

America is Ignorance
London in the mist
Beautiful French Cathedrals
One man he resist!

Quiet little libraries
America goes down
Into Great Silence
Can you hear the sound?

I liked living in Sweden
Stockholm is quite pretty
Mr. David Markson
Alone in New York City

Fatherhood is gratitude
The Republican Party is a racist Abyss
Trumpfucks on the rise
******* times like this

I sleep late and long
Sometimes frightening dreams
Once I was a point guard
Still play for my team

3 days in Vienna
All that beautiful snow
Have I written some good poems?
No way to truly know

                       Yo espero.

I'm death obsessed
I wish I wasn't
But it haunts me
I feel it bearing down

Something good before I die
Something helpful
Gracious
Thai

                    Aye! Aye! Aye!

I'm conflicted about everything
Try to carry on
55 and falling
I miss Gamla Stan

Moby **** kabobs
Miso soup and rice
South side of Chicago
Ooo dat girl looked nice!

My life may well be meaningless
Albert Camus and the Absurd
Mr. William Shakespeare
The play, the song, the word

I pray I die before my sons
America goes down
In Dublin meant to be
When Love Comes to Town

         Hey Yeaya Yeah Yeah!

Someday (may it be soon)
Trump will be dead
And future historians
Will look back and proclaim
The shame of the Americans.

In the Chinese tradition
You can get the Masters Degree
In a monastery
But if you want the PhD in spirituality
You have to go live alone in the mountains.

Shamans are wounded healers
I see them in my dreams
Nobody important
I play for my team

Once I was a point guard
Mike, Steve, and Hutch
Buddhist meditation
Silences and such

I lay on my bed
Dreaming of the Deep
Good things come to those who wait
Those who wake and sleep

One Dark Knight
Chicago in travail
3 prayers for the Divinity School
Does true love prevail?

                           Sail!

Just to do the best I can
With the little time I have left
Take care of my sons
Children are a gift

America goes down
All empires fall
Took the train from London
River Eden, Wetheral

I like books and movies
I've been to monasteries
In Dublin meant to be
Heard the tales of Irish fairies

Won ton soup tonight
Gracias xie xie
Daoists in the mountains
Silent is the Way

blooming, buzzing diversity
is this world an illusion?
try to find some peace
amidst all the confusion

haven't been to India yet
but India came to me
celebrated Holi in Charlotte
my neighbors joyfully

California Coast
walk along the beach
silent obscurity
no longer do I teach

marriage didn't work
so I live alone
all these little poems
on my little black cell phone

                   Rome!

I'm desperate for attention
Lonely as the rain
Is my life meaningless?
I ride the Downbound Train

The Republican Party is an Abyss
Libraries quietly
My marriage has long collapsed
Please protect my 3

Shakespeare in Staunton
Exit 222
Julius Caesar in Reno
Susan Meek not Sue

I hope I die quietly
Adios amigos
Disappear forever
Give my best to Reno

                  Ole!

The United States is racist hate
I stay inside and sleep
My green couch is comfy
Dreaming of the Deep

Might reread Moby ****
And a history of Iraq
I miss my sleeping sons
I listen to Back in Black

The Catholic Church is ...
Reno in my mind
55 and falling
I hope you treat me kind

3 prayers for Mexicans
Gracias, Senyor
A little Aztec dancing
4044

          Inner Harbor, Baltimore

According to Red Pine

Everyone's a philosopher
Don't amount to much
Satellite Beach, Florida
Mike, Steve, and Hutch

Humility is good
But I have a need to battle
San Francisco Zen
Snowfall in Seattle

Daoists in the mountains
Silent is the Way
Boring daily life
Good food. Si xie xie.

Edgar Allen Poet
Richmond in my car
Raindrops on the river
Exoplanet star

                   So far!

depressive by temperament
            55 and falling
                     hope!

The American Darkness is all around
Ignorance ain't bliss
One man caught on a barbed wire fence
One man he resist!

Vienna in the snow
Bangkok in the rain
I'll never ever know
DC metro train

I'd like a different country
Gorillas in the mist
Softfall cedar snow
The plot begins to twist

Not much I can do
Evil on the rise
Sleep perchance to dream
Cut you down to size

                I tries.

The sadness comes seeping through
Humanity is cruel
I'm fond of little Reno
I miss Sage Ridge School

55 and falling
Drifting toward the end
The silence is eternal
Silence be my friend

Vegetarian tacos
Postcards in the mail
Sleep. Grateful sleep.
Does true love prevail?

America the Ignorant
In Dublin meant to be
Comes a Rattle and Hum
Xie xie. Xie xie ni.

                   Si.

Si, David Markson.

According to Anonymous

....Rick Steves....
American nice
       Luther

According to Robert Louis Stevenson

I have to cope with insignificance
I'm not important, just lonely
My little life
My obsessions

                      sleep

According to my (Turkish) psychiatrist.

Coleridge. Poe. Lowell.

mystic on a mountain
prophet in the town
shaman in the city
not a man of much renown

the Dao is always silent
won ton soup and tea
San Francisco Zen
Mother Mary Let it Be

stars above and shining
moonlight in Seattle
postcards in the mail
Anonymous does battle

                 slowly

Said David Tracy

Serious as a heart attack
              patience
             resistance

fears and doubts
       listening
  The Unknown

Gandhi. Romero. King.
     religion. politics.
               sing