She wished me abundant joy
But I am a depressive
My letter and my boys
Are my soul confessive
I'd like to have a purpose
But life is drift and roll
No way to stop the time
Or make the fragments whole
Fame comes to some
They become a name
Others know the Silent night
Know not why they came
I'm tired and I'm lonely
I miss my darling sons
Life is suffering
Shakyamuni, I'm not yet done