All the aspects of my heart,
         Got taken apart.
Chambers and valves
         Whispering
"Time heals all wounds."
This sick routine of
Wanting, Longing
stripped me to the bone.
I am my own tired shadow,
Losing every battle
To an outcome,
  Obvious
  to all but my love
still peddling it's hope
Cheap and unwanted.
Your ghost by my side
    Tarnishing my hand
With little fingers.
Dreaming of you every night,
                       Only to wake alone.

Thick is the darkness--
Sunward, O, sunward!
Rough is the highway--
Onward, still onward!

Dawn harbours surely
East of the shadows.
Facing us somewhere
Spread the sweet meadows.

Upward and forward!
Time will restore us:
Light is above us,
Rest is before us.

Sleep
my abandon,
Where I run with wolves
in the forest.
Where I am King and nothing.
In slumber
free from torment
At peace
Until the dawn.
I see oblivion
when I close my eyes.
If I know happiness
It is there,
Godly
Among the nothingness.
Hoping to remain.

I wish that it was over.
These days drag slowly
Searching for reason
Justification.
A simple promise,
meaning
No matter how trivial,
So long as it's genuine
Warm like toast.
But there's nothing,
Just the meaningless actions we're locked into.
Kicking against the ******
Unable to stand the pain,
Nobody can see
This sickening distance.
Growing
This isolation.
I wish that it was over,
One last breath
I won't fight.

Words purposefully sent
      Will cruelly dangle, stillborn
in this night air
      They are echoes
struggling
                              against a current of denial
      falling short
      among
the corpses of the living
the laughter
Empty Trajectories
                    doomed
              never to be heard,
Just whispered
in the back of my skull.

Never give
Never breathe
Never love
Never leave
Never scream
Never ache
Never fly
Never hope
Never hurry
Never cry
Never worry
And you will never die.

Is it worse
to hope or
know that
hope is hopeless?