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Andrew Gomez Dec 2023
I ran for my life.
Not knowing the consequences.
Beaten up from the fighting.
I told myself it was self defense.
All I remember is wailing on this person.
I took a step back and paused, then I lunged toward him.
Andrew Gomez Jan 2021
What are the consequences of being free?
An eternity for being at peace?
An eternity to let my mind wonder?
An eternity for self reflection?
If these are just the mere consequences...
I'd take my chances with it.
Andrew Gomez Apr 2020
I have this garden of flowers...
The variety is beautiful...
My sunflower was taken...
Please water it everyday.
Please give it sunlight.
Please nurture it.
I lost my Sunflower. Please help me find her.
Andrew Gomez Sep 2021
It’s been so long that when I dream about you…
All I hear is your voice…
Andrew Gomez Jan 2020
What is freedom...?
You know that first breath you take...
That first stretch for your legs...
That adrenaline rush...
That's freedom...
Andrew Gomez Aug 26
Confide in me and I'll remember your name.
Let's share our love until its intertwined with time.
So, people can tell our story over generations.
Andrew Gomez Nov 2023
My head drifts through these clouds
Being up this high smells like rain
Looking down I see nothing but pain
Seeing my lifeless corpse on the floor
Waiting to be dovoured by the board
Andrew Gomez Aug 23
I watched as death crept around every corner
Waiting to take someone's light
Death figured if it couldn't keep the light
Then why does everyone else have a chance
Slowly but surely the light starts to fade
-
"Such misery I bring before you."
"This turmoil you feel is death."
"It is I who bring closure to these ends."
"Yet no one reigns above me or below me."
"This void of a world you call home is decorated and plagued with too much light."
"It is my job to clean this distained burden and mine alone."
-
Death always follows close to those who burn bright
Look into my eyes and see that death has been around
-
"Your time will come, soon enough."
Andrew Gomez Nov 2020
I walked outside and smelled the air.
That smell of faint rain excited me.
The clouds were grey and gloomy.
There was a little chill in the air.
Droplets started to fall.
One after another.
Soon there was a wall of rain in front of me.
Thats the most relaxed I've ever felt.
Andrew Gomez Jul 2021
"Excuse me?"
"You're the most beautiful woman I've seen."
~
"I mean, you're the most beautiful woman I've ever saw."
~
Of course she laughed at me.
~
"You're laughing at me?"
"I'm sorry I've just never seen someone try so hard."
"Tr-Try so hard?"
~
At this point my mind is racing like I messed up.
~
"Uhm are you not interested?"
"I could leave you alone"
~
"No, I'm intrigued."
"Humans are a magnificent creature."
~
Of course I'm now confused and have this expression on my face.
I start looking around like I'm the only human there.
~
"Uhhh aren't you human as well?'
"Only when I want to be."
"Wha-What are you then?"
"You really want me to show you?"
~
At this point nothing else is going right with my life so why not.
~
"Yes."
~
'Til  this day I'm still blinded by her true beauty.
Andrew Gomez Mar 2023
What does drowning feel like?
It's when your mind is dumping memories and emotions.
It's when you sit there and stare at old pictures.
It's when you sit in the shower for hours letting your thoughts win.
It's when you're letting people in your life that don't deserve to be there.
It's when that message you sent, knowing it still hurts.
It's when every laugh can mask the sadness.
It's when the sun is shining but you're inside all day.
It's when you realize drowning isn't just water.
Andrew Gomez Aug 2021
Memories are just a facade of how you used to be.
Now you’re just a mirage.
Non-existent.
Andrew Gomez Feb 2020
I lay my life down but not with my soul...
I make ready my weapon of choice...
I can fit eleven in the clip and one in the chamber...
This ammo is designed to make you fear for your life...
A hollow point to make your soul vanish...
I pull the trigger and the life has ended...
Andrew Gomez Apr 2021
"I'm ready to love you now."
That ship has past.
I gave you my love.
You weren't ready for that.
~
"I'm sorry but I can't love you."
"Not this time."
"I gave you all my love the first time."
There are some things that change us.
Some things that guide us.
~
"Now it's time for you to handle this by yourself."
"I handled the heartbreak."
~
Andrew Gomez Feb 2021
“Are you okay?”
“No, but I have to be someone’s smile today.”
Andrew Gomez Jul 16
There's not enough hate in the world to describe myself
I hate myself so much I create haste for that affect
The embodiment of hate is just my name
Go and seek shelter for my name brings chaos
It drives fear into my heart and prosper in others
To use and abuse me in their life
Andrew Gomez Oct 2020
I wanna drown my sorrows
Into tomorrow
So that I can live for today
Because yesterday was pain and regret
Andrew Gomez Feb 2021
“How are you doing today?”
“I’m doing good.”
-
“Did you believe me?”
“Yes I did.”
-
Andrew Gomez Dec 2019
How easy was it for you to leave that special person?
You said you understand pain, yet you cause it.
Does pain from other people satisfy your hunger?
So much that you hunger for more?
Your appetite is full of ego with an appetizer of pain.
Pain is what you cause, yet you inflict it on yourself.
Does the sight of your own pain feed that hunger?
If so, why do it to other people?
Make them feel as if they caused you the pain.
To turn the tables and said that they did it.
Your hunger for pain is effortless.
It feels that empty void of what you call a heart.
Your soul is that of a black hole.
Empty, dark and lonely.
When you meet someone with light, you feed on it.
**** the light right out of them until all that's left is darkness.
Emptiness, darkness and loneliness....
It feels that empty void of what you call a heart.
Andrew Gomez Jan 24
I would go to hell and back for that love again.
I would go to hell and back for that peace that I once had.
I would go back to that mind set that I had when I had you.
That love means a whole lot when it's genuine.
Now I am back to being lonely with no love.
Your name stains my teeth.
It leaves a foul taste on my lips.
But that love was to bliss to not conquer.
Only if it was for a brief time.
Every king needs to fall at least once.
Andrew Gomez Jan 2020
These tears falling down my face are for you...
To not feel you in my arms causes pain more than you can imagine...
I know that you're no longer suffering from your pain...
You walked everyday, carrying that pain...
Smiling like theres no tomorrow...
You would cook, clean, dance, joke and at the end of the day relax...
I miss seeing you able to sleep on that couch in your favorite spot...
Feet kicked up and mouth open...
I miss it when you call my name...
I miss your voice.
I can still hear it through our hallways...
It echoes in my heart and soul...
I miss you dad...
Andrew Gomez Feb 2021
“How far are you willing to go?”
Someone asked me once.

“To the end of the world I suppose.”
Was my answer.

That’s what I’ve been doing since.
Andrew Gomez Oct 2020
I've deleted all our pictures.
I've burned all our memories.
Yet I still can't escape what has been etched.
Forever into my brain.
Andrew Gomez Feb 2021
“Tell me. Was it worth it?”
“In the end? No it wasn’t. Would I do it again?”
“Yes. In a heartbeat.”
“Why?”
“It’s for someone special.”
Andrew Gomez Oct 2020
I should have walked away from you.
I knew it was ending when you said we were drifting apart.
I could have saved myself from this hurt.
That one night I had my chance.
I should have just got up and left.
Walked until my feet bled.
Maybe then my feelings would've died for you.
Now I'm just choking my life away.
Little by little.
Day by day.
Month by month.
My healing time is ******.
Andrew Gomez Jun 15
It's funny that timing is everything.
Who's to say this isn't the first time.
We've probably met in many different lifetimes.
I've probably searched all my life for you.
What others told me was a waste of time I ignored them.
The only time I had was to find you.
I searched far and wide.
I was in many different regions.
My love for the search was endless.
I'd hop dimensions just to see you once again.
Not only this lifetime but in others.
What else is there to you but a mystery.
How do I know that you'll take me.
I've seen myself many times but I'm never with you.
How many times do I have to travel to just see you once.
There's a possibility that in one time you're mine.
Until I find that one spot where you're at.
I'll keep searching until I fall over and wither away.
When I see my God I'll beg to send me back just to look for you.
And see what really lies beneath that mystery.
Until then, this journey is still on schedule.
Andrew Gomez Jun 2021
I love your hips.
I love your dips.
I love your stretch marks.
I love your stomach.
I’ll never make you feel less.
I’ll always make you feel more.
Andrew Gomez Jan 2020
I'm sorry that I wanted to be with you...
I'm sorry that I'm not like your exes...
I'm sorry I wanted to be better than that...
I'm sorry that I show so much emotion...
I'm sorry that I fell for you...
I'm sorry that I ask all these questions...
I'm sorry I couldn't be the person you wanted me to be...
I'm sorry that you feel the way you do...
I'm sorry for ending this journey...
I'm sorry for ending your suffering...
I'm sorry for ending your pain...
I'm sorry I couldn't be in your future...
I'm sorry I was in your present...
I'm sorry that I even exist...
I'm sorry because you wanted me to be...
I'm sorry because I loved you...
I'm sorry because I cared for you...
I'm sorry I did right by you...
I'm sorry I caught feelings for you...
I'm sorry I'm not enough for you...
I'm sorry I want attention all the time...
I'm sorry you met my family...
I'm sorry that you slept in the same bed with me...
I'm sorry we shared memories with each other...
If I could take it all back I would...
I'm sorry I met you...
I'm sorry I was less of a person...
I'm sorry I treated you right...
I'm sorry I helped you...
I'm sorry I pushed you..
I'm sorry I wanted you to do better...
I'm sorry I wanted to see you succeed...
I'm sorry for all the promises I made...
I'm sorry for just being me...
I'm sorry we won't be together...
I'm sorry we won't make any more memories...
I'm sorry that I took my life...
I'm sorry...
Andrew Gomez Aug 2022
Now that I have your attention, I could really use your help.
I have this friend who needs this motivation daily.
He is always falling to his own sub-conscious.
That voice in his head is not who that man is.
When you see him, please tell me.
I haven't seen him in a long time.
That shine in his eye...
Has dissipated.
Andrew Gomez Aug 2022
I can feel your hands around my soul
I fell to my knees knowing that I'm not good for you
Help me rise where I can be the man you once saw in me
Water me so you can help me grow
Plant the soil in my life and watch me from a distance
I will find my way back to you again as if I was never gone
Just wait and see what I have in store for you
You have nothing to lose but life itself
I want to be there for you all the way but I'm afraid of slipping
Once I fall, I want you to flip it over and trim me all the way down
That so when I grow, I won't be overbearing down to the roots
Andrew Gomez Apr 2020
I stare at the sunset...
I see that haze of orange, red and yellow...
I see your figure outlined...
I see your curly hair...
I hear your laugh...
I hear your voice...
I see you walking toward me...
You disappear...
Mirages never last long...
You only see what you want...
Andrew Gomez Jun 15
Now I'm truly alone.
Your voice is just but an echo.
Bouncing around my mind.
Trying to find a way out.
But that's what's keeping my memory alive.
You're the reason my heart beats.
I am truly alone.
Yet your name is powerful enough to keep me existing.
Andrew Gomez Apr 2021
We are really never set free.
That word just comes and go's.
To be truly free is something we desire.
That's all.
Andrew Gomez Apr 2021
You got me like I got you.
I never see myself with another person.
Just bring your love and I’ll bring mine.
Let’s go for the high miles.
We’ll make our own mingle high club.
Test the reigns of our relationship.
Build our mental health back to what it was.
You got me like I got you.
Now let’s set the table for two.
Wine for the both of us.
Trust in before us.
Andrew Gomez Apr 2022
“When did it happen last?”
~The last time I looked into her eyes…
It felt like getting stuck in a trap.
I miss the hugs and her saying my name.
“Did you hear me?”
~that’s all I could think about right now”
“What? Yeah I did. Sorry, I was thinking of someone.”
~her voice is what I crave at the moment.
Andrew Gomez Apr 2021
“Hey. I know you don’t want me anymore but I just wanted to reach out to you.”
“It’s funny because I had a dream about you.”
“With us being together and what not.”
“You called me by my nickname.”
“Oh I missed that so much.”
~
You know what to do.
Don’t even try it.
It’s not worth it.
Andrew Gomez Mar 2021
“It used to be us.”
“Yeah but it’s just me now.”
~
“Why.”
“Because you walked out,
when I wouldn’t have.”
~
“That’s not fair!”
“You’re right.
I was at a disadvantage.”
~
“You knew all along,
yet you did what you did.”
Andrew Gomez Nov 2023
Lets be honest, it has its' up's and down's
Irrate people all around
Fighting fiercly against time
End all suffering for a dime
Andrew Gomez Aug 2020
What are the cheat codes to life.
Can I get an extra man?
How many points do I need?
Can I make the leader board?
Can I be #1?
Do I get to put my initials?
Will I have a ghost?
Take my place and wipe my memory.
Claim my spot and be at the top.
You have to be good at it.
Otherwise life will always win.
Andrew Gomez Jan 2020
What is this coldness I'm feeling...?
The last shutter of my breath drawing from my lungs...
The light fades away from me...
It came like a thief in the night...
So sudden but yet unexpected...
Its only goal is to steal what you hold dear...
Death is on the loose and picking victims...
Andrew Gomez Dec 2019
Hugging and kissing in the rain is so passionate
It doesn't matter how long you're there with your loved one
Staring at each other is what you live for in that moment
Looking at each other like y'all met for the first time
Spacing out your surroundings like they don't exist
The only thing that matters is you, her and emotions
Caressing her cheek and looking in those brown eyes is all you have time for
Not leaving each other guessing whether your love is worthy or not
You and her are there for a reason, so make it count
The rain has its own time it goes by for you and her
A moment in the rain with a loved one can last a lifetime
For both loved ones that is all that matters to them
Feeling the rain drops on their heads and face make this moment worth it
Smiling and leaning into each other is the best for both
That moment they both kiss, the world no longer exist
As they pull apart from each other the words escape their mouth
"I love you."
Andrew Gomez Jun 9
I wish I was told by someone
That pain never ends
I wish I was told that love begins
I wish I told that we fall in the end
To alleviate this pain from under
So I can become stronger in life
Just to be turned into a puddle
Now that I'm here where to begin
To start somewhere new
And begin this journey once more
To find you in life and start again
I will look endlessly for you
Til this lifetime is over and then start again
Andrew Gomez Oct 2020
In my universe it doesn't matter how many galaxies there are.
It doesn't matter how many stars I have.
You are my cosmos.
You are my galaxy.
You are my star.
I would travel billions of light years just to reach you.
Just so I can feel your heat radiate on my skin.
Andrew Gomez Feb 2020
You remind me everyday why I fell in love with you...
1.You listen to me
2.You care for me
3.You're BEAUTIFUL
4.You make me smile
5.You make me HAPPY
6.Your presence calms me
7.Your hugs are oh so warm
8.Your touch makes me feel magical
9.You remind me I can do this
10.You bring peace to my negative mind
11.You calm this wound up storm in my heart
This is just the beginning amor...
The list is endless like my love I have for you...
Andrew Gomez Sep 2020
I lost one of my best friends.
I lost the woman I loved.
Its okay though.
Peace.
Andrew Gomez Apr 2020
I stare at the stars and wonder...
They are scattered like my thoughts...
Surrounded by darkness...
Yet have light of their own...
A star showed me something I did not see...
You make your own light...
When surrounded by darkness...
Andrew Gomez Aug 2020
I don't believe in love anymore.
I'm hurting and it doesn't even matter.
My soul has left my body and I feel nothing.
It went into that dark abyss.
Love is not what I thought it would be.
It chewed me up and spit me back out.
That line to hell seems a bit shorter now.
I would rather die than to be in love again.
I was a good guy.
Now I'm just a guy that feels horrible all the time.
Pay to play. Just so you can lose.
Andrew Gomez Feb 2021
I tasted your lips...
It reminded me of caramel...
So sweet and tasty...
I stared into your honey brown eyes...
So beautiful...
Andrew Gomez May 2021
They say your pupils dilate when you look at someone you love.
So I stood in front of a mirror.
Love yourself. "Be TRUE. Be YOU"
Andrew Gomez Oct 2020
At times like this I wish I could fill this void.
But during times like this all I can do is think of you.
You were once my binding for my heart.
You kept everything structured.
Once you pulled the pin, everything just fell.
Back into this abyss that feeds on my pain.
It's like feeding myself poison little by little.
Expecting to build an immunity to it.
Just to turn around and find out I'm dying faster than normal.
I can't remember that last time that I actually genuinely smiled.
Believe it or not I'm actually running out of fake smiles.
I've tried shopping around for them but I couldn't find any.
I looked up how to be happy again on my browser and you popped up.
I cleared my cache and cookies in hopes of it being a joke but you were still there.
Next to the word happy.
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