I would go to hell and back for that love again.
I would go to hell and back for that peace that I once had.
I would go back to that mind set that I had when I had you.
That love means a whole lot when it's genuine.
Now I am back to being lonely with no love.
Your name stains my teeth.
It leaves a foul taste on my lips.
But that love was to bliss to not conquer.
Only if it was for a brief time.
Every king needs to fall at least once.

I've written poems for people who've just thrown them away.
I've written poems when I was going through hard times.
I've written poems when there was nothing else to do.
I've written poems that have gone past peoples heads.
I've written poems that have not been good.
I've written and written and written.
When will it be my turn?

What is holding you back?
That feeling of fear or being rejected?
Is it that little voice in your head that tells you otherwise?
Or could it be that your parents have told you so?
OR did you hear it from a stranger?
Did you dream about it when you were at your lowest?
Did you learn to harness that energy?
How long did it take for you to actually believe it?
How many times were you hurt by words?
Before you realized that they were just words?
If you are still stuck in this place that is okay.!
From what I hear people are still searching for their way out.
Some have found their way like no other has before.
That is something to be extremely satisfied of!
In the end if you can't fiind your way out.
Ask for help.
Sometimes thats all we need.

I ran for my life.
Not knowing the consequences.
Beaten up from the fighting.
I told myself it was self defense.
All I remember is wailing on this person.
I took a step back and paused, then I lunged toward him.

My head drifts through these clouds
Being up this high smells like rain
Looking down I see nothing but pain
Seeing my lifeless corpse on the floor
Waiting to be dovoured by the board

Lets be honest, it has its' up's and down's
Irrate people all around
Fighting fiercly against time
End all suffering for a dime

I lay in my bed at night in terror and fear
Not because of the dark but because of my dreams
I see your silhouette like a daze from a mirage
I have your smile memorized
They way your lips look
The way your eyes fill up with joy
Oh to be in terror and fear
Not because of the dark but because of my dreams

The friendship we built was dummy
It turned into something funny
It was lustful for me
It was tasteful to you
The bounty was full
I drank your soul
You emptied my mind
Til we meet again
Our trail will intertwine

What does drowning feel like?
It's when your mind is dumping memories and emotions.
It's when you sit there and stare at old pictures.
It's when you sit in the shower for hours letting your thoughts win.
It's when you're letting people in your life that don't deserve to be there.
It's when that message you sent, knowing it still hurts.
It's when every laugh can mask the sadness.
It's when the sun is shining but you're inside all day.
It's when you realize drowning isn't just water.

Here I am again, writing my thoughts.
If there was only a way to fly in the clouds.
Never to be seen again or found.
It is less likely to be true.
There is only one place I'd rather be.
Between the plains of reality and dreaming.
Where I could see you.

Now that I have your attention, I could really use your help.
I have this friend who needs this motivation daily.
He is always falling to his own sub-conscious.
That voice in his head is not who that man is.
When you see him, please tell me.
I haven't seen him in a long time.
That shine in his eye...
Has dissipated.

I can feel your hands around my soul
I fell to my knees knowing that I'm not good for you
Help me rise where I can be the man you once saw in me
Water me so you can help me grow
Plant the soil in my life and watch me from a distance
I will find my way back to you again as if I was never gone
Just wait and see what I have in store for you
You have nothing to lose but life itself
I want to be there for you all the way but I'm afraid of slipping
Once I fall, I want you to flip it over and trim me all the way down
That so when I grow, I won't be overbearing down to the roots

“When did it happen last?”
~The last time I looked into her eyes…
It felt like getting stuck in a trap.
I miss the hugs and her saying my name.
“Did you hear me?”
~that’s all I could think about right now”
“What? Yeah I did. Sorry, I was thinking of someone.”
~her voice is what I crave at the moment.

Wipe these tears away from my cheek.
The softness from your hands make me wither.
I know they have been on someone else.
But the touch of them is all I want right now.

There are days that are fast.
There are days that are slow.
Today is one of those days.
Which ever you feel.
Please let someone know.

I'm high off your love.
I'm high off your ecstasy.
You make my heart dance.
To the point of no return.
I've never felt this before.
It's like a thousand suns.
You got me shining.
Just like my elementary trophy.
I never wanna be sober.
When you produce my high.

You were my dream…
Until you turned into my nightmare…
You were so warm…
Until you grew cold…
You said things to make me happy…
Until the truth came pouring out…

Your mind is a warzone.
Your soul fights for you.
It sends the strongest thing to battle the mind.
Remember to focus.
For you are not weak.
You are strong.
You will come home (soul)dier.

If you invited me would you tell your friends?
Would you tell them it was pretend?
Will I be one of those skeletons you hide in the closet?
Do they know you wanted this?
Do I play into your fantasy?
Do you and I sneak off into the night under the moon?
So we can look into each other’s eyes and fall in love again?
Or is that just the fantasy part you were after?
This is a cruel game you play.
But it takes two to play and I'm in.

I can talk to you.
I’m just not ready to see you face to face.
It will bring back memories.

You were there during the darkest times
Now I gotta sit back and watch you progress with a different mind.
I miss holding your hand and listening to your favorite band.
Now I gotta learn how to face the bend of my will so I can be complete without you so my heart can be still.
My eyes shift so many times I swear I had a gearbox occupying my brain.
I’m drifting so far away I can barely keep my eyes open so I just lay and focus on the pain.
I had pedal to the metal and realized I was on E.
I wasn’t even moving it was my mind playing tricks on me.

One more time hugging you.
One more time holding your hand.
One more time laughing with each other.
One more time laying next to you.
One more time staring into your eyes.
One more time cuddling.
One more time being goofy.
One more time with just you.

I want our bodies entwined with one another.
Our heart beats in sync.
Locked eyes with each other’s.
Soul against soul.
Eat from the forbidden fruit again.
Make me do crazy things for you.
Keep my lust high.
Keep my mind going and wandering.

I'm tired of sitting here waiting.
For the day that I become someone.
When I'm already someone.
The night time sky calls to me.
I can feel the intuition of my calling.
Something that requires more of me.
I can feel it in my SOUL.
I'll reach out for it.
Just know that I will become what I want to be.
Not what other people think/want me to be.
I'll set an adventure so high that I won't come down.
The altitude I'm heading is on a different level.
I guess this is how Famous people feel.
They strive for that excellence and greatness.
I Will do so much because I am CAPABLE.
So are you!
Follow what YOU DESIRE!!
Not what other people think is good for you.
Just be TRUE and be YOU.
The only thing that stands in the way is you.
Go forth and take point to your life.
It'll be WORTH it.
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The past stays the past.
There is no future with something from the past.
It didn’t work out for a reason in the past.
The past is just time folding in on itself.
So whatever you’re holding onto, just let it go.
The future will not hold your past because it already happened.
That’s why it’s a memory.
Eventually memories fade.
Just like your past.
Put it to rest.
I’ll do the same with mine.

You got me like I got you.
I never see myself with another person.
Just bring your love and I’ll bring mine.
Let’s go for the high miles.
We’ll make our own mingle high club.
Test the reigns of our relationship.
Build our mental health back to what it was.
You got me like I got you.
Now let’s set the table for two.
Wine for the both of us.
Trust in before us.

“Who are you?”

“Could you answer that?”

“I'm nobody.”

“I answer to everyone.”

“I'm that little voice in your head.” 

“Some people call me a conscience...”

“I'm just simply you.”