Your mind is a warzone.
Your soul fights for you.
It sends the strongest thing to battle the mind.
Remember to focus.
For you are not weak.
You are strong.
You will come home (soul)dier.

If you invited me would you tell your friends?
Would you tell them it was pretend?
Will I be one of those skeletons you hide in the closet?
Do they know you wanted this?
Do I play into your fantasy?
Do you and I sneak off into the night under the moon?
So we can look into each other’s eyes and fall in love again?
Or is that just the fantasy part you were after?
This is a cruel game you play.
But it takes two to play and I'm in.

I can talk to you.
I’m just not ready to see you face to face.
It will bring back memories.

You were there during the darkest times
Now I gotta sit back and watch you progress with a different mind.
I miss holding your hand and listening to your favorite band.
Now I gotta learn how to face the bend of my will so I can be complete without you so my heart can be still.
My eyes shift so many times I swear I had a gearbox occupying my brain.
I’m drifting so far away I can barely keep my eyes open so I just lay and focus on the pain.
I had pedal to the metal and realized I was on E.
I wasn’t even moving it was my mind playing tricks on me.

One more time hugging you.
One more time holding your hand.
One more time laughing with each other.
One more time laying next to you.
One more time staring into your eyes.
One more time cuddling.
One more time being goofy.
One more time with just you.

I want our bodies entwined with one another.
Our heart beats in sync.
Locked eyes with each other’s.
Soul against soul.
Eat from the forbidden fruit again.
Make me do crazy things for you.
Keep my lust high.
Keep my mind going and wandering.

I'm tired of sitting here waiting.
For the day that I become someone.
When I'm already someone.
The night time sky calls to me.
I can feel the intuition of my calling.
Something that requires more of me.
I can feel it in my SOUL.
I'll reach out for it.
Just know that I will become what I want to be.
Not what other people think/want me to be.
I'll set an adventure so high that I won't come down.
The altitude I'm heading is on a different level.
I guess this is how Famous people feel.
They strive for that excellence and greatness.
I Will do so much because I am CAPABLE.
So are you!
Follow what YOU DESIRE!!
Not what other people think is good for you.
Just be TRUE and be YOU.
The only thing that stands in the way is you.
Go forth and take point to your life.
It'll be WORTH it.
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The past stays the past.
There is no future with something from the past.
It didn’t work out for a reason in the past.
The past is just time folding in on itself.
So whatever you’re holding onto, just let it go.
The future will not hold your past because it already happened.
That’s why it’s a memory.
Eventually memories fade.
Just like your past.
Put it to rest.
I’ll do the same with mine.

You got me like I got you.
I never see myself with another person.
Just bring your love and I’ll bring mine.
Let’s go for the high miles.
We’ll make our own mingle high club.
Test the reigns of our relationship.
Build our mental health back to what it was.
You got me like I got you.
Now let’s set the table for two.
Wine for the both of us.
Trust in before us.

“Who are you?”

“Could you answer that?”

“I'm nobody.”

“I answer to everyone.”

“I'm that little voice in your head.” 

“Some people call me a conscience...”

“I'm just simply you.”

“Are you proud of me..”
“More than you would ever know.”
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It was all a dream about you.
Woke up crying
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“I’m here for you.”
“Thanks.”

I see you at the top of these stairs. Waiting...
Hands behind your back and a smile on your face.
I try to run up the stairs but I go no where.
Every step I take it’s like there’s another to keep me from you...
I keep trying and trying but all I seem to get is further away...
So far that all I see is the silhouette of your body...
I sat on these stairs and cried...
Cried until I felt a hand on my shoulder...
It was you...
You said “Come on, it’s time to go.”
You looked at me with those honey brown eyes and smiled...
You asked “How far are you willing to go?”
I answered. “To the end of the world.”

What are we going to do?
We aren’t meant for each other but yet we stick together like glue.
I peel off this layer and somehow it comes back later.
People scream at me and tell me we’re no good for each other but you know I’m tougher.
I can take the hits.
That’s when I just wanna disappear into the mist.
Going away hopefully I’ll be missed.
Now all I want is one more kiss.
To tell the tale how we separated.
Yet dead men can’t talk.
Especially if he’s in the Dead Sea.

What are the consequences of being free?
An eternity for being at peace?
An eternity to let my mind wonder?
An eternity for self reflection?
If these are just the mere consequences...
I'd take my chances with it.

My reality is trapped in a bottle.
I take out my glass and pour.
A shot is what I need.
Nothing more.

The new year rings in my ear.
Its the start of something new.
Something so fresh that comes from you.
Spread positivity and love.
For the day starts and ends with you.
On this day we begin anew.

Will you accept my apology.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I dug a grave for your feelings.
I packed you away and hid you in an empty space.
Til this day it rattles my mind.
I chained you down when you should have been free.
Now look.
Ready to spread your wings like a beautiful butterfly.
I'm sorry.

I watch the sunrise warm the sky.
I see trails of light break off in every direction.
It looks like a beautiful painting brought to life.

The sunset is so beautiful.
Just like you.
I can compare the two.
And it would be flawless.