The night sky fills with her eyes...
A sparkle here, a sparkle there...
Nothing can dismiss her light...
Her voice produces comets so bright...
You could look up all night and never get tired...
If I had a camera to capture every moment with you, I would need an eternity...
When asked about the stars at night I point towards the heavens above...
To show that you will forever be my light...during the darkest times

I can't wait for that first gust of crisp cold air.
To stand outside and embrace nature.
I can already hear the crackling of the firewood.
Followed by music and laughter from around
Smores are being made
Crunching sounds are followed shortly there after
The hint of rain is in the air
This is fall

There's not enough hate in the world to describe myself
I hate myself so much I create haste for that affect
The embodiment of hate is just my name
Go and seek shelter for my name brings chaos
It drives fear into my heart and prosper in others
To use and abuse me in their life

It's funny that timing is everything.
Who's to say this isn't the first time.
We've probably met in many different lifetimes.
I've probably searched all my life for you.
What others told me was a waste of time I ignored them.
The only time I had was to find you.
I searched far and wide.
I was in many different regions.
My love for the search was endless.
I'd hop dimensions just to see you once again.
Not only this lifetime but in others.
What else is there to you but a mystery.
How do I know that you'll take me.
I've seen myself many times but I'm never with you.
How many times do I have to travel to just see you once.
There's a possibility that in one time you're mine.
Until I find that one spot where you're at.
I'll keep searching until I fall over and wither away.
When I see my God I'll beg to send me back just to look for you.
And see what really lies beneath that mystery.
Until then, this journey is still on schedule.

I remember everything before the fall
How I swayed in the air
How I have seen many nights and days
How I've seen many seasons come and go
I remember it all before the fall
Then one day it all changed when
I was no longer needed
I remember the sensation when I was dropped
All I could think of is how to get my way back
The fall felt like a million years but in mere
Seconds I was on the ground
Ready to begin anew

Lights in the night sky remind me of you
How far away they are but still so beautiful
They burn bright just like your smile
Continue to be bright until that's all they
Talk about at night
Even after your smile has faded away
Display that confidence that you once had

I wish I was told by someone
That pain never ends
I wish I was told that love begins
I wish I told that we fall in the end
To alleviate this pain from under
So I can become stronger in life
Just to be turned into a puddle
Now that I'm here where to begin
To start somewhere new
And begin this journey once more
To find you in life and start again
I will look endlessly for you
Til this lifetime is over and then start again

No matter what the nature looks like
Its still really beautiful
The wind is damaging but also feels like freedom
The rain causes floods that are wrathful
But at the same time the rain
Feels so good against my skin
With each pitter patter it reminds
With each distinct sound that follows
Big drops little drops and small drops
All contain a way to bring life to this world
So when you ask about how I feel about you
I will tell you the same answer over and over
There's nothing that will change my mind from now until its over
I know I'm not a strong communicator but give me time
Things will change and I will learn how to be better for you
Change my mindset and set me free from this world to join yours

I would go to hell and back for that love again.
I would go to hell and back for that peace that I once had.
I would go back to that mind set that I had when I had you.
That love means a whole lot when it's genuine.
Now I am back to being lonely with no love.
Your name stains my teeth.
It leaves a foul taste on my lips.
But that love was to bliss to not conquer.
Only if it was for a brief time.
Every king needs to fall at least once.

I've written poems for people who've just thrown them away.
I've written poems when I was going through hard times.
I've written poems when there was nothing else to do.
I've written poems that have gone past peoples heads.
I've written poems that have not been good.
I've written and written and written.
When will it be my turn?

What is holding you back?
That feeling of fear or being rejected?
Is it that little voice in your head that tells you otherwise?
Or could it be that your parents have told you so?
OR did you hear it from a stranger?
Did you dream about it when you were at your lowest?
Did you learn to harness that energy?
How long did it take for you to actually believe it?
How many times were you hurt by words?
Before you realized that they were just words?
If you are still stuck in this place that is okay.!
From what I hear people are still searching for their way out.
Some have found their way like no other has before.
That is something to be extremely satisfied of!
In the end if you can't fiind your way out.
Ask for help.
Sometimes thats all we need.

I ran for my life.
Not knowing the consequences.
Beaten up from the fighting.
I told myself it was self defense.
All I remember is wailing on this person.
I took a step back and paused, then I lunged toward him.

My head drifts through these clouds
Being up this high smells like rain
Looking down I see nothing but pain
Seeing my lifeless corpse on the floor
Waiting to be dovoured by the board

Lets be honest, it has its' up's and down's
Irrate people all around
Fighting fiercly against time
End all suffering for a dime

I lay in my bed at night in terror and fear
Not because of the dark but because of my dreams
I see your silhouette like a daze from a mirage
I have your smile memorized
They way your lips look
The way your eyes fill up with joy
Oh to be in terror and fear
Not because of the dark but because of my dreams

The friendship we built was dummy
It turned into something funny
It was lustful for me
It was tasteful to you
The bounty was full
I drank your soul
You emptied my mind
Til we meet again
Our trail will intertwine

What does drowning feel like?
It's when your mind is dumping memories and emotions.
It's when you sit there and stare at old pictures.
It's when you sit in the shower for hours letting your thoughts win.
It's when you're letting people in your life that don't deserve to be there.
It's when that message you sent, knowing it still hurts.
It's when every laugh can mask the sadness.
It's when the sun is shining but you're inside all day.
It's when you realize drowning isn't just water.

Here I am again, writing my thoughts.
If there was only a way to fly in the clouds.
Never to be seen again or found.
It is less likely to be true.
There is only one place I'd rather be.
Between the plains of reality and dreaming.
Where I could see you.

Now that I have your attention, I could really use your help.
I have this friend who needs this motivation daily.
He is always falling to his own sub-conscious.
That voice in his head is not who that man is.
When you see him, please tell me.
I haven't seen him in a long time.
That shine in his eye...
Has dissipated.

I can feel your hands around my soul
I fell to my knees knowing that I'm not good for you
Help me rise where I can be the man you once saw in me
Water me so you can help me grow
Plant the soil in my life and watch me from a distance
I will find my way back to you again as if I was never gone
Just wait and see what I have in store for you
You have nothing to lose but life itself
I want to be there for you all the way but I'm afraid of slipping
Once I fall, I want you to flip it over and trim me all the way down
That so when I grow, I won't be overbearing down to the roots

“When did it happen last?”
~The last time I looked into her eyes…
It felt like getting stuck in a trap.
I miss the hugs and her saying my name.
“Did you hear me?”
~that’s all I could think about right now”
“What? Yeah I did. Sorry, I was thinking of someone.”
~her voice is what I crave at the moment.

Wipe these tears away from my cheek.
The softness from your hands make me wither.
I know they have been on someone else.
But the touch of them is all I want right now.

There are days that are fast.
There are days that are slow.
Today is one of those days.
Which ever you feel.
Please let someone know.

I'm high off your love.
I'm high off your ecstasy.
You make my heart dance.
To the point of no return.
I've never felt this before.
It's like a thousand suns.
You got me shining.
Just like my elementary trophy.
I never wanna be sober.
When you produce my high.

You were my dream…
Until you turned into my nightmare…
You were so warm…
Until you grew cold…
You said things to make me happy…
Until the truth came pouring out…