Here's one for the gamers
dungeon dwellers, competitors and casual players
Whether they're at home or at a friend,
footballers, car racers or dragon slayers

To the world that looks down on us
for those who's hobbies least appeal
Just because they don't understand the reason
or share the passion we feel

Gamers like acheivements
each to their own
Whether its to vanquish the opposition
build, or break their enemies throne

Is that so different
perhaps they spend a lot of time at home
But isn't playing online with their friends
a little better than just sitting alone on ones phone?

The world of gaming has evolved
and adapted so much
It's a common to see a mother aligning fruit
or a child with a flapping duck

And is it such a bad thing
if the players are actually having fun
It may not be making them better
but I can think of many worse things they could have done

They say games encourage violence
but these people are some of the kindest I've ever seen
Theft, ****** and street racing
would it not be better if these things were only done behind a computer screen?

For many, its more than just a game
and can lead to some desperation
But people need to know the limits
and play in moderation

For some
it's to do things they wouldn't normally do or say on a daily basis
A couch potato wanting to explore the world
avoid boredom, keep their mind from stasis

To feel the breeze of a challenge
drive a fast car or
sword-fight,
maybe even do some parkour

Whether they want to skydive
or skate over a hill
To be able to do something dangerous
without having to sign a medical bill

We all have our reasons
some play casually while others play to vent
E-gaming has become so popular
now hosting world tournaments and many gaming event

This is how we are
so please let us be
Our motives are like captured birds
are we are just setting them free

Whether you want to be a princess
or guardian of a banana tree
You can do whatever you want
just follow your dream

People will always be different
this is just another sub-culture; like fans of a band
But we are the gamers
and by this title proudly we stand

As battle rages
fight with what you choose
But don't underestimate the capability
of the man with nothing to lose

Razor sharp teeth
swiftly through my neck they glide
For a dark night like this
there is no use in hide

For they will find you
no matter where you confine
The moon is at full size
and the stars have align

Hiding in you closet
an eye you stick for them you peek
to catch a glimpse of the shadows
that for you faultlessly seek

For you fright
and curse below your breath
Their hearing abnormal, but what they want
is more than simply your death

Moments still
seem to go on eternal
****** are these souls
with objectives infernal

As hidden teeth sink in from behind,
With no plea or chance of dispute
Heartless creatures of the under
have recently gained a new recruit

And as fear fades
and hate them you might
But with skin pale and fang sharp
You are destined to roam the night

Lost within the process
of opening my mind
As the doors open
leave everything else in shadow
Collapse to the floor
the corpses
of hopes
held up by
desolate fears

My eyes grow wider
but tire with each day
As I seek forgiveness
in the lost remains
Regret,
weighs heavily
on this worn soul
Tearing deeper,
feeling satisfaction
and despair
in the discovery
of unanswered questions

Baring and spawning
more doubt
than there was fore

Now address I,
To whom
it may concern.
That I ought
to admit
that
I've become
afraid
of all that I have learned

If i was to retake my actions
am I to expect no reaction?
If I was to live a lie
is to allow my current reality to die
Happiness may not be all of which I relies
but I need the comfort this position provides
I wouldn't want to live in some perfect life
with the ideal 2.5 children and fair wife
I may not like my choices of the past
but I know this hardship won't forever last
The results of our decisions you can see have rosen
not perfect, but it is what I have chosen.

A burning sunset
Waving trees
The sky cries
but let nothing dampen the mood
This world, my existence
has been replaced
by the warmth
of you in my arms

Piercing your eardrums
Cower in fear as you hear
the deafening howl of a hellhound
Echoing of deathbrought crying
and screaming of banshees
Body burned from the inside
incineration by the infernal flames
burning from the black flames of hell
While being immobilized by
the cold lifeless kiss from death

Pain?

None come close
to that feeling
when you find out
that your loved one
loves someone else

Perhaps
what was lost
was never meant to be found

And after all my efforts
to forget
Here, now,
you stand before me

No longer
do I desire you
more than I do to exist
No longer
do I need you
to be with happy with my every decision

Heaven before me,
yet I remain untouched.
Considering
what I know to be inconsiderable.
Soaking in the moment
thinking of the potential
Smiling,
and then walking away.

Sating my broken desire
on this innocent moment of insanity.

Tears and ashes
just another life sold
Suffer shall the innocent
left out in the cold
Shift the blame on me
public's mind they shall mold
How dare you judge me
when your hands are covered in gold

How I love you
But I hate you so much
How I feel when I see your smile
and the look on your face when you blush
makes my my mind go fuzzy
and my blood rapidly rush

I couldn't possibly live without you
Without I'd surely die
But knowing I can no longer be with you
always forces me to cry
Time again and again myself I hurt
but I always seem to try

It feels as if you came from a dream
Body so perfect, face as surreal
But the heart of a devil
Honestly what's the deal?
You act so innocent, flirting away
Why do this, you know my heart you steal

No matter how many times I'm told
I still dish it out on a tray
Watching you trample all over me
knowing how much you me betray
And after all I know so well
I still can't seem to look away

You tied this noose around my neck
And don't you ever forget
As you never dripped a drop of sweat
Or showed any sign of regret
Acting as if you were never any threat
Whispering deathless words below your breathe
Constantly reminding me how great it was with Seth
Your trap was finally set
To have me more addictive to you than ****
Guess you are going to win your bet
No longer will you have to me address
Now that you have me begging for sudden death

Within the starlight gaze
grow shrooms below
lightly decorating
the silent grove
filling a place of beauty
with a touch of mystery
and gently covering the dirt

Scarlet petals cover the grove
Swallowed by the cold night breeze
In the midst of the silence
Heard only the sound of dripping
As silent movements are held
Beneath the starlit sky
Fearful tears
Bring new born wounds

A shattered heart
Drenched in beauty
Tries to forgive the unforgivable
And accept what is done
As one becomes two
And two become one

Staring into her manipulative eyes
is as if to climb into my own hearse
For I have surrendered myself
and become victim to her curse

A hooded figure
walks the night
Walking in shadows
keeping out of sight

The road he travels
walked on by all
Heartbreak and tragedy
not hearing mercy's call

The darkness he walks in
hides but his face
Not the tears or thoughts
or the memories he tries to erase

Blankets of shadow
cover arms crying with the mark
But everything is okay
as long as he remains in the dark

Forgive me for remembering
what should not be remembered
Forgive me for questioning
what should not be questioned
Forgive me for apprehending
what should not be apprehended
Forgive me for persisting
what should not be persisted

Forgive me for pretending
what should not be pretended
Forgive me for enjoying
what should not be enjoyed
Forgive me for hurting
what should not be hurt
Forgive me for aiding
what should not be aid

Forgive me for trying
what should not be tried
Forgive me for fighting
what should not be fought
Forgive me for letting go
what should not be let go
Forgive me for thinking
what should not be thought

Forgive me for starting
what should not have started
Forgive me for ending
what should not have ended
Forgive me for breaking
what should not have been broken
Forgive me for forgetting
what should not have been forgotten

A perfect rose
turned to a withering flower
Youth and effort
depleting by the hour
What once was fun
has now become sour
And in compassion's absence
so has hope devour

"Just kidding"
a simple harmful joke being said.
Not seeing what follows
with the child crying under their bed

An insult
followed by a punch thrown
Those bruises are nothing
compared to when he gets home

Unincluded and unwanted
love left amissed
Better ways to deal with the pain
now holding scars on his wrists

Relations destroyed
life in complete dismay
A blood pile covers the floor
beside a suicide letter lay

Sleeping mornings
and backward time
Wealthiest of wealthy
hold not a single dime

Falling sunsets
and saddened sand
Broken completeness
within withered hands

Eery births
and cheered funerals
Hollow footsteps
and lost potential

Blind stares
and empty breath
Bloodied love
and gold-rusted death

I think I might
secretly love attention
But have no idea
how to accept it

The night's cold wind
blows gently across my face
carefully pushing my hair into vision
With an assertive finger
I put it back in place
out of the way

and question
what I did
to deserve this

The death of friendship
allows negativity to seer
Watch your back naive hypocrite
that closed door is the birthplace of fear

Caught in the blaze
Burning in the apocalyptic fire
Scorching in the moment
Words escape me
And turn to ethers
Burning before they were born
The pit of my stomach
Encages the answer I seek
But those winged faeries
Stand with me but dont speak
Held back by fear
Trapped behind trembling lips
And unnecessary doubt
Burning me
but not letting the warmth in

Murmur of ancestors
preconceptions we are taught
Even when the truth is all around us
still in shadows we shall walk

Light drips
on a gothic dark portrait
Bringing sour warmth
to a lonely dark night

Over the screams of silence
lay the burdens of truth
Upon the bodies which lay
beside shrines forgotten

Purity within darkness
grows sadder each moment
Manifesting what was
into what now is lost

Empty glares
forget their owners
As the world spins
into a meaningless collage

Misery approaches
in her post-angelic dress
Bringing fear and compassion
to those left to rest

Forgiveness and Understanding
will never make themselves present
In the rusted hearts of those
left hidden and forgotten

The morbid painting
drenched in the blood of its owners
Rests easy
in the legacy of those passed

While specters remain restless
The distant sound of tears crashing
Gently drowns that
of a glass heart shattering

Dare I sleep
when I fear to dream
Everything I wanted
slipping away at the seams
Try not to get lost in it
As true as it seems
That face isn't real
even if for you the smile gleams

You may want to run away
and hide there forever
Just give up
and quietly surrender
Fading out
as her beauty begins to render
To sacrifice it all
once again to feel love so tender

And in that moment
time and space stretched
the ground below became uneven
tearing open and pulling me down
the sadist shadows
laughing and beckoning me
even the trees screamed and cried
the sun fled beneath its silken counterparts
as the world began to shift
and reality began to fade
the emptiness found
as the sky began to bruise
to my destruction
in my acknowledgement
that I don't belong with you

My spirit is chained down
A caged monster
Unable to break free
From the prison I built
In blind attempts to flee

Imprisoned
by my coward'ness
A slave to my fears
In the darkest of nights
The shadows hide my tears

Victim to my own crimes
Truths which I can't deny
For as much as I push my demons away
At the end, on them I rely

Nights hold no compassion
Lay I,
Tortured by what is done
Within the courtyard of my mind
Countless laps I run

My heart may once have been fire
But those flames have surely perished
In the ashes of those ill-spoken
Rest true hearts
Beside those who are broken

Even in pure unforgiving silence
Torment is never far from sight
Eluding heartly conversations
But in my arms at the end of the night

Thoughts are
slaughtered by lost memories
My mind owns no rest
Enslaved to my demons
causing a vacancy in my chest

personally I have nothing against him
his reckless ways of going without a care
why she loves him
is something i couldn't possibly comprehend
for I know him not
but he is all i stand against
perfection by his side
but he continues to resent
care not for him
but for her sake I fear.
a girl of such beauty
forever cast in tear

for he doesn't even notice
if he did he just doesn't care
what could she ever do
to recieve this despair

and helplessly here i stand
with motive but no action
i'd love to save the princess
but i am no hero
she wants him
and i am but an observer
treated as if i have no shade
but knowing i would never hurt her
what id do for her to notice me
and no longer hurt further.
for the grip he holds over
seems like her hearts ******

and helplessly here i stand
all i do is pages worden
but as i try to help her
standing in her way i seem a burden

My bed feels so much bigger
The nights feel so much colder
The countless drops soldier
When I'm without you

My lectures feel so much lighter
The days feel so much drier
My mind soars higher
When I'm without you

My dreams grow so much darker
Fears now so much larger
I wonder why I even bother
When I'm without you

My eyes feel so much sharper
Desires float so much further
Heart couldn't break any faster
When I'm without you

Self indulged in rage-infested thought
Remain I my last resort
Dreams of cheer and plans we lay
Foolishly thinking we would come to that day

For then we thought we would ever last
Not to shatter to pieces in'a sudden blast
Talking on how we would name our children
Deep inside I feel as if I hav't **** them

Left alone in a sleepless night
Nothing but guilt, spil't left and right
For one who had such a clear conscience
To a mind of pain and other worthless nonsense

Dare I wish I you never met
Or hope you find a cruel death
For my mind has no place to lie
Filled with graves of the dreams you let die

As I lay here alone
Unable to sleep
My comfortable bed
Brings no peace to my mind
I lay paralyzed
Alone
with my thoughts

And as the hours flee
Lay my mind and I
Beside each other, imprisoned
I am trapped

There is nothing I can do
But lay helplessly
As I fight to escape these visions
Who force themselves in
And bring my mind no rest

These tormented memories
Hear not my sorrow
and will not accept my forgiveness
My fears remain restless
And tear at my mind
Until i can take no more
And in my utter desperation
They hear not my cries
They accept nothing
For the burdens of times passed
I can not rid this curse
Forever I lay uneasy
Cowering in my own fear
Crawling before the darkness
Which once promised to lift me up

I would pray for forgiveness
But within this darkness there is no light
How could I even consider that they would forgive me
When I can't even forgive myself
This helplessness
It is eternal

i beg of you
please help me

I'm not perfect
I won't deny that
But I'll never back down from a fight
not even a tiny spat

I've made mistakes
lots, and I'm aware
I can no longer sleep at night
I'm overflowing with fear

I have some trust issues
because of what the past has done to me
I'm broken, just an incomplete kid
Struggling to decide on who to be

And in the darkness I loom
Because the light hurts so much more
When I look for comfort
I'm always just shown the score

For sleep evades me
and misery my best friend
But death keeps his distance
torturing me till the end

Reality is a realm
in which nothing is real
Tempts you with happiness
then takes it before you feel

Belonging is a myth
a memory that seems so far away
I can't help but think
that perhaps I was dreaming that day

For when you live in hell
it is rather hard not to burn
To turn psychotic
and give the others a turn

But let temptation rest
and lay my weapon down
I'll accept your torment
yet you still question my frown

But dreams I may hold
as distant as they seem
For individual accomplishments
the leader of my own team

For this world may push me down
don't think I won't try
I may not have wings
but that doesn't mean I can't fly

Sip on his poison
lay your defenses waste
Pour down his toxin
Overwhelmed by the taste

You don't know why you do it
But now you are in his grasp
Foolishly signing the contract
Without seeing what's behind the mask

Young beauty
offers her heart without a clue
Unaware of the devious intentions
His affection always untrue

In the devils den
The clueless girl smiles
Among the scent of others unloved
He another beauty defiles

The orange leaves
fall again
Showing to all
that yet another has come to end

Landing in the pond below
only to float away
Experiences and past shades
no longer that color today

Shoved along
with a winded blast
Never expecting such warmth
to long last

Light fading behind horizon
day coming to end
Disjointed from tree t'last
no longer can pretend

But one thing lay
beyond the corner
Although distant from 't
can no longer harm her

To lay still
a decomposing corpse
Living on to fade away
a life of such remorse

As to dust it crumples
no longer tree view
Silently alone
as fresh leaves grow anew

Fight for your life
Tear down your walls
Walk all over your problems
As every crumbling brick falls
Contending every insecurity
The endless battle mauls
Each day it continues
The same tiring brawls
Battered and beaten
Everyone covered in sores
Hurt and defeated
Dropping down on all fours
Laying motionless; defeated
While your insecurities still crawls

Hidden beauty
Dressed in shadow
With you
happiness too does weep

Chipped diamond
reflection unseen
lost in the emptiness
of her own doubt

Crying angel
wither no more
cast the tears away
let your true beauty show

Disguised perfection
let that deceptive mirror
lie no more
and let true colors shine


For it isn't when we look
that we find beauty
It is hidden
to be found by others

Show me those fake smiles
allow me them all consume
Fill me up with your empty happiness
or allow the despair to resume

Staring at the carnage
emotions left to dry
Cavities and loose bearings
lost in the vacancy of the night sky

Lost but never alone
beneath their shadows I hide
In the heaven of happiness
but that love I am denied

Presence as solid as fear
and soul whittled and torn
Scared to even breath
footsteps covered and life forlorn

I know there is a shadow
I know its watching over me
Watches me while I'm working
Watches me when I sleep

I never get a moment
of privacy or peace
Its just lurking over
Waiting for me to grant it release

How to banish this demon
How to set it free
I'd like to be alone now
I'd like to hear my plea

Suppose it is ironic
that I want to be alone
When the reason for its presence
is that I am on my own

But how I want my freedom
But how I want to scream
As this is my follower
As this is my dream

In the morning daybreak
I would want it directly see
For all my fears, insecurities
will allow this shadow to consume me

A cold winters day
staring thoughtlessly out of a clear window
watching as the rain drops carelessly
onto the soaked brickwork below
without a single thought
I close my eyes
for no particular reason
and listen to the rain
hearing the drops
feeling them as if they landed on my bare skin
the cold freezing all doubt within me
and leaving me desolate
but not unhappy

accepting
that like the rain
everything
is cold
but in its own way
beautiful

Sleepless nights
and dreams in shadow
Rolling over and over
forever lost in battle
Trying to open sleep's door
but someone has removed the handle
Memories of a *****
covered by golden mantle

Sitting side by side
happiness not felt for a desolate while
As hand creeps around shoulder
causing silent giggle and nervous smile

A sigh of relief
as her head against him lean
Heart beating and eyes closing
feeling that what cannot be seen

Both unsure
from the pasts pain that has been dealt
But both eased
as the presence of the other is felt

And as the moments fade
laying there with nothing in their sight
They lay comfortably motionless
as day rapidly turns to night

For they are both nervous
that the wrong message they might send
So they quietly lay there against each other
begging for the day to never end

Closing her eyes
all she can feel is pain
Living in a broken life
nothing left to gain
They couldn't possibly understand
they just question if she is sane
All she wants is to be cared for
not money nor fame
The way they treat her
such as an animal untame
For she did not want to be this way
and herself she will blame
For the things they say to her
she will never be the same
Shred is her skin and heart
no longer this world want remain

drenched in a blanket of flames
burning in the unforgiving immolation of disappointment
I reach out into the vacant space before me
through the embers I see scorching eyes
held in place by their own blistering inferno
imprisoned by the flames which hold them within
crying out as all which was cold within me burns
those eyes of compassion, love and jealousy
watch as the fire engulfs me completely