Swift little spider
trapped by ***** bath walls
Helplessly scrambles against the edges
in a fatigue attempt at escape

In comes a giant
proportions of that of a titan
And even with size on his side
he cannot bare comfort with its presence

Filling a glass of water
drained above its clueless head
The innocent spider slides down
towards its inescapable peril

But to the giants surprise
the critter skitters along
Fighting furiously against the tides
desperately attempting to escape

Its miraculous escape
does more than just surprise
It summons irritation
and a fraction of concern

Another glass is filled
and yet another is flung
Without fail the tiny warrior
continues to battle against the odds

Glasses and glasses fly
the endless river within the air
And in all failed attempts
the arachnid continues to fight

Exhausted from the effort
a larger bucket is obtained
Flooding the entire plain
and ensuring the fighters death

It's within a sigh of relief
that realization is born
That the giant had grown so distracted by its fear
that it had not observed

The reason for the continuous efforts
the motive to never give up
Was discovered in one single glance
upon the baby left untouched

The tiny creature
left all alone
An orphan
to a world so cruel

The fault was never theirs
it was in our fear
Causing violent actions and assumptions
without observing the surroundings

All that spider wanted
was to protect its child
Not to harm anyone
but to bring their offspring to safety

Such a foul ******
for piece of mind
With opened eyes
I see that
we are the monsters.

Vicious shades of beauty
painted perfectly upon sheets
Leave eyes immobilized
Glowing radiantly
from head to feet

For they know what they want
their glances gaze true
Eyes glued upon beauty
undeniably
they desire you

For the sight is merely a taste
it is not the end of the amazement, do not fear
To experience all forms of beauty
onward to this maiden
one must be near

As two bodies connect
and a mood shift does start
Lost in the perfection of her eyes
Feeling nothing more
than the beating of a heart

As for her beauty,
mere words cannot describe
And within the epicenter of perfection
and kindness
to one conclusion I have arrive

That you must be an angel
with a body and heart too fine
Dropped from heaven, to this cruel world
I can't question why
but I am more than grateful,
that you are mine

What is one more,
just another sleepless night
With the vague touch of familiarity
into my sanity you bite

Beloved bed upon who I lay
rest body but not sight
Ask for one moon of forgiveness
or ask if free breath may be right

For just a simple exchange
a wink of sleep I fight
Even in those few moments
my dreams now raised to a new height

Forgive myself I cannot
continuing as lost souls their blight
Rolling back and forth
in my bed as winded kite

Your words roam in my mind
what you said holds so tight
But I beg of you
that one tormentless night you might

For it is darkness I seek
but you only provide white
Not knowing what can be done
to escape the inevitable and forth coming light

It never feels
how it used to
how it was meant to
how we wanted it

I died to let you go
killing myself over and over in your absence

but your return
did nothing more than **** my suffering

You have freed me from your torment
but in it's place left an emptiness

for I used to know what I wanted
but now I am truly left with nothing

Crystal drops
and unified faith
Heated motions frozen
at the hand of love's wraith

We walk these streets
while this city sleeps
Unaware of all its flaws
and countless disfunctions

This is our time
Let us burn this city down
And laugh
as their walls cry
and bleed

In the awakening inferno
We rip the sky into the earth
As the chaos unfolds
Upon the holy and unholy alike

The heavens will open
and tear us apart
As we try to remember
who we once were

Their eyes now opened
They too cannot sleep
The mindless zombies
now too walk the street

Struggling to get up
out of that caring bed which I lie
Pulling on some clothes
while wiping the sleep from my eye

Such a horrible morning
have to admit I feel like ****
Can't make the slightest conversation
unable to eat the slightest bit

And of course today had to be the day
in which my luck turned around
Waiting for the elevator
on the level ground

As a beautiful girl stands beside me
who I had never met before
Seems that we were both
heading to the third floor

And as we went up
I honestly couldn't find anything to say
The lift raised in silence
I just didn't have the energy today

If only I had slept earlier
then perhaps the moment could have been saved
I will remember this always
and never ever again forget to shave

**** with me baby
Let's play your twisted little games
And watch us fall to the floor
Let's erase everything
Destroy my world
and I will gladly destroy yours too
I hope you're ready love
because it's time to burn

In heartbreak season
sought I an exception
to which I dare not bring despair

For in her absence
my reflection is missing,
without who I could not bare

As I am a shadow
left out in the sun
hoping not to bring you a scare

And burning within the inferno
I'd let your hand go
scorch your hand, I would never dare

Hidden in the moonlight
lie all cast in shadow
while you shine as bright as a flare

Listen,
just try to hear the beat
Of a heart so tired from breaking
Butchered and beaten
stabbed and walked on
So many times have I fell
yet this broken heart craves more
It may take the beating
but it does not see the tears
But being hurt
is better than being alone it cries
In moments of depression
even to myself my heart lies
It no longer is able to see it
but I would like something true
Before I hand it over
tell me why I should give it to you

My dear
please
I urge you to stop
While I love that you try
to show weight the door
and while I'm happy to see you motivated
this obsession
is beginning to hurt you

and
I care more
about your happiness
than how you look

No matter what happens,
or how you look.
I will always be here for you.

You will always be beautiful.

Young hearts
mold together under mistle arc
The beginning is always perfect
initial love always feels stark

As time progresses
and they lay in park
Just like the dogs around
they too begin to bark

To each other become weary
no longer holding that precious spark
They grow tired of each others company
and push their love into the dark

When friendships wither
and abruptly come to end
One thing I'm sure of
is that I'll never leave you dear friend

Smiles and rainbows
Within the epicenter of joy
A state of overwhelming happiness
that nothing could possibly destroy

The thought of being with her
Such images could not be dispatched
With her face in mind
that of beauty unmatched

But this warm sensation
now holds a tinge of frost
And for this evening of perfection
soon hope shall be lost

For he approaches
with no fear in mind
Only confidence to be shown
no doubt to be left behind

But as they meet
concern begins to grow
As the happiness that was on his face
on hers does not show

And the love drunk boy
is now painfully sober
In two simple words he is crushed
when hearing "it's over"

How I'm dying to speak to you
but I dare not say a word
My reasons may be a little coward
but I swear beyond it's looks,
it is more complex

Unforgotten
distant memories
And mind-torn scars
Leave me in absolute awe,
devastation and regret

For in my absence
I sense that
we both have grown
grown happier
and further apart

And while I miss you
and would love to hear your voice
I fear to hurt
what you have tried so hard to create
How you tried so hard
to escape how things were with me

And if you have
grown into your own new
happy little world
then who am I
to push inside and damage it
To create doubt
and uncertainty
To show you a ****** love
and half truths

And while it hurts inside
as if a blade is run through my chest
each time I consider picking up the phone
and calling you,
to hear that beautiful voice one more time
But resist I shall,
be strong I will,
for I care too much about you
to dare tear apart your life again
or even let the thought of me scratch it

Please forgive me
but when you call
I shall not answer
when you text
I won't reply
even if you knock at my door
I won't be home
because you are better off without me
and I am better off without you
to leave our perfect dream behind
and begin our own incompletable lives

For your selfish actions
lay I with you the blame
while feeling guilty in knowing
that in your position
I would have done the same

Cry out your eyes
Scream all you can
Get lost in another world
far from reality you ran

Rip open your sleeves
Question whether you are sane
We all need our own way
to deal with the pain

Thank you for being there
to know that you don't pretend
And listening to me you do contend
happy am I to call you a friend

Thank you for being there
your able to give without ask in return
From you I and many could learn
feels like life for the best has turn

Thank you for being there
without you couldn't possibly go on
Helped me out when all had gone wrong
making me feel as if there is somewhere I belong

Thank you for being there
without I most surely would break
For not taking my words as fake
for proving to me that I wasn't a mistake

Clear Ice Shard
marked with the blood of woe
Sins have been conducted
and are visible in the snow

Trail on the path
footsteps in the snow covered mud
A body is being dragged
and follows tracks of blood

Into the frozen forest
and far out of sight
Further the capter drags you
in the darkest of night

Past the rugged shrubs
and on beyond the snowy rocks
Besides a smoking campfire
does he the body drops

Ponder and wonder
to what will now follow
Bring he forth a trunk
contents which are hollow

And in this cold night
motionless the body cannot speak
But frighten the capter
as he hears a vile screech

As the crows surround
gazing upon the ****** pile
Attracted they are
to a stench so vile

Words muttered
and a blunt knife
Searing through a body
that recently contained life

In the cold night
his catch no longer warm
Torn and shredded into pieces
As winds turn to storm

Nails black and red
blood soaked skin
A unshaven beard
and the smell of gin

Bones fill the ground
and mark the den of the beast
As another is consumed
and you have become part of the cannibals feast

Two of a pair
Always seen side by side
Even in rough times
The other was always along for the ride

But as time passed
And things became rotten
Those close little memories
Like each other were forgotten

And it wasn't long
before each other they couldn't stand
Another awkward encounter
He wasn't even willing to take my hand

And now my old brother
Watch as I slam your face into the mud
You can't get out of this, *******
it was written in blood

Regardless of the season
No matter the reason
I'll always remain by your side

For all time and existance
No matter the distance
Never let your feelings hide


Anything you have to say
I'll always be here
Even if I can't help
I'll always lend an ear

For the friendship we hold
is more than they could ever see
I'll always be here for you
as I know you would be for me

Angel with broken wings
i beg you be brave
For as useless as I am
help you i shall save

For you see not of such beauty
and hate who you are
Try convince you otherwise
but all that is returned are scar

That perfect hair
and those beautiful eyes
Self inflicted wounds
and filled with manifesting lies

Don't listen to them
just try find yourself
You are more than them
more than just another book on the shelf

And I don't care how long it takes
till this for you I prove
I shall you protect
and your wounds try soothe

Maybe I can't help
but then I will die trying
Because I cannot just sit around
when an angel is crying

Torn flesh
chest shredded
Your knife has found its mark
and brutally defiled
my broken heart

I'm sorry
I can't be
I'm not what you wanted
I can't be that
I'm not willing to destroy myself any more
I will never be him

A tender kiss
a blade in my back
Whispering confessions
as the sharpened nails retract
Temporary satisfaction
allows our misery distract

It wasn't meant to be this way
I don't know what to do
It was meant to be perfect
I cried with soaked remorse
It was meant to be worth the sacrifice
I knew it wasn't

These expectations
Our hopes were just lies
We gave up living
For our broken dream
Lost our freedom
In the hopes to be free
So easily did we fall
to find something true
I faintly remember
a time
when
i loved you

A blissful aroma
in a field of gray
Scattered ashes beside
a path battered with dismay

Many are brought
but few return
Their stories are taught
while few do learn

Within the jungle
lay many a beast
Which only to a larger
are found a feast

For our confidence
betrays us, leads us astray
We can't see the knife behind us
while forcing a smile onto display

In the attempts of others lessen
with self-thought cunning reave
Find ourselves caught
in the webs we ourselves had weave

Comparing towers of coin
while'st flinging the blame
As we are drowning in holy water
and others are shining within flame

Sleepless nights
Left by a new reason
And my heart has changed
With the season

My arms are cold
It lacks our friction
I miss you so much
My beautiful new addiction

I cannot forget
the time which we held
Years went passed
as together our hearts did meld

Remembering
always brings back a tinge of fear
But I can not let you go
my other half, you were beauty dear

She was perfection
and I'll never forget the time we had
I loved her always
even at the times she was mad

But I cannot forgive myself
for letting her go
Losing her
feels as a knife has struck a deep blow

Ignore me she shall
she'll try me forget
But even if two years have passed
still nothing I regret

For I'd do anything to be with her
anything to be part of her plan
But the bed I once laid in
is now shared with another man

Misery
dressed up in her favorite shade
Curled to perfection
and drowning within raw unexposed beauty

How my mind loves to surprise me
Ripping away at my hopes, while
flirting with happiness
and ticking away at my sanity

Madness?
To which do you address?
Countless blessings lay unwanted
Torn from one thought to another

Emptiness remains, always.
To experience, never to forget
Burning eternally within
infinite faces lay without name

We each have our moment
within the sour beam of light
and with this absolute clarity
see us more about them than ourselves

Forgive me, oh mistake-less brothers
banish all my foul sins
Keep me from the water
and shower me in flame

For I am a believer
that everything has a consequence
But why are you to decide
who possesses the gleaming innocence

Fear once covered me
and sheltered me like a blanket
How it held me down
but protected me from the colds of the storm

With the two lights of my life
in endless conflict
For guidance, I can't help
but look towards the shadow

Those of glory
and those within light
Those of moonshine
and those out of sight
Those with memories
and those with none
Those who hide
and those who fear what's done

Those who cry
and those who weep
Those who break hearts
and those who sleep
Those that lie
and those of truth
Those who break
and those who soothe

Those who construct
and those who destroy
Those who are real
and those who are decoy
Those who mix
and those who curd
Those who can speak
and those who can't be heard

You open your mouth
and more inside me dies
Your reasons, your excuses
I'm getting ******* sick of your lies

You tell me how he is like a brother
nothing more than just a friend
While sharing jokes behind my back
but hear nothing I shall pretend

Going out you say,
but wont tell me where
Deep down I know and fear
but buried I will remain in this despair

For I fear to lose you
my feelings have grown to you like rust
But after all the things you do
do you really expect to hold my trust?

To call this a relationship
would be an utter disgrace
How am I supposed to care for you
when you ******* lie to my face?

When inspiration dries
and compassion has expired
I am left crying
and bent on my knees
Not for my current misery
but for my realization
And while I may love you
I know it is more than true
That you are beautiful, baby
but you are not the one

I prefer to walk in the dark
Thinking that I will not need to fear
what I am not able to see
But to surround yourself in darkness
is to walk blind
And while you may be surrounded
by both compassion and torment
You will neither absorb nor fear
what is out of sight
And I'm sorry to say
that being a shadow
does not provide you with immunity
And does not mean
that what you cannot see
will not hurt you

Waiting to hear from you
Every second I think of you is as if a shard was pushed into my stomach
I feel as if I need to try forget you
But a part of me doesn't want to give up
Times are cold and I can't help but feel alone
I can only hope you don't feel the same
I want you to want me
But not to suffer like this
I hope you are happy
And that you never stop smiling
I miss you

Walking side by side
holding what I thought a mutual respect
I have nothing against you
and you've never given me reason to

You would always give me a bump when I needed you
or kept clear out of my way

Never have I felt to doubt you
or put you in a bad light
While you kept your distance
I was always grateful you kept me in your sight

Hollow but sweet Misfortune
I'm afraid I too have arrived at your boat
And while I walk with his lies
my dear Friendship, slips a knife in Love's throat

Oh, you're new here
Let me show you around
This here is the room of heartbreak
And that's where you will break down

You'll need to register at the office
Pick up a few new issues and perhaps some pills
Let your eyes gray a little
And leave behind your social skills

Now don't look at me with such distrust
I know this may sound absurd
This phase is a little complicated
And perhaps a little disturbed

No need to be confused
Many have gone through the same
It's just a matter of time before you forget yourself
And can't remember your own name

And on the right side
you will find your new room
Left within the previous stains
perhaps now it is white, but that's never how it remains

This may be going fast
But you'll get the hang of it quick
If insanity doesn't get you first
And you try tear down this room brick by brick

Fear will befriend you
And try grab you while you sleep
It will turn all happiness against you
The sadist ******* just wants you to weep

And now that you're all acquainted
This is your new home
Take your medication, and don't trust anyone
Remember, you're now on your own

This will have to conclude our tour
At reception please leave all of your hopes
Welcome to Misery
I'll gladly show you the ropes

Oh glorious leader
king of noble birth
Wouldn't even walk upon
those burned within his greed's hearth

Stands so tall,
above all mortal men
While holding the darkness within
larger than those of ten

Shine in the sunlight
burning from the truths light
Born to roam back alleys
where even the shadows blight

For the evil you see
isn't one to fear
It's those which are hidden
and common ears can't hear

For no sound is more valued
than the sound of a coin drop
As they push another competitor down
on their path to the top

Their greed unmatched
Hearts blaring impure
As if there was an unknown force
the dollar being their lure

Men of these kind
care not, but rub it in our face
As the hungry become hungrier,
they purchase yet another porcelain vase

Oh but you modern demons
hearts blackened to the core
Love to give us a little taste
and then rip it from us, as we desire more

And yet now you question my loyalty?
Try hide my truth without sound
I shan't be happy
till each and everyone of you lays on the ground

Because the truth is all around them
and they love their ignorant lies
Buried in them,
happily blinded till the gold dies

Why not listen to reason
or listen to what I have to say
But ignore me they shall
until their dying day

And to this cause I abandon
like a dog that can no longer be trained
For you were born into selfishness
truly can't be blamed

Run your mouth forever
continue spewing more lies untrue
But know that sooner I'd have my legs break
than bow before you

From deep below your throat
It would seem your words appear
Provoking more than pain
with a tinge more of fear

It seems every time you open your mouth
All those words broken
Cut me like razor blades
Every sharpened word spoken

But listen on
this torture I must endevour
Unlike my fresh wounds
These scars will last forever

And as every piercing word
echos through and destroys my mind
every shred of hope, respect
and confidence I may ever find

But know you what you say
is for yourself protect
Not realizing that your words
will give me nights of sleeplessness

And even though we are foolish
and still rather young
For the toxic things you say to me
I hope you choke on your own tongue

Look down on me
Point, laugh or stare
Just because of the way I dress
or the length of my hair

Why don't you just make a joke
See if I ******* care
I'll beat the **** out of you
say it to my face if you dare

These scars contain meaning
not because of trash like you
Mention them one more time
and I'll give you a few

I think it's time you back up
and back in your seat you sit
For I may not be the strongest
but I won't take nobodies ****

And I swear if you push me
that you will regret
I'll have you begging for your life
before I even begin to sweat

Contest and you'll see
I'll put the trash in the bin
I may be a loser
but in this I will win

Glaring at the pain-inspiring screen
Trying to come to terms with what I see
Motionlessly soaking in
As my mind tries to deceive itself
while filling itself with doubt, regret
and remorse

The tears begin to gather
and stream down the valley of my face
Dampening my shirt
and shattering my heart
Failing to breath
I am unable to look anywhere else
Staring uncontrollably
and trying to come up with some explanation

I see it before me
but am not able to accept it

Why did this happen
What did I do to deserve this

Hours later
Laying in my bed
Unable to sleep
Cannot shake the image
of what was seen on that feed

Just a short break

Her face
besides that of another man
Has done nothing more
than obliterate my heart
and ability to put my faith in anyone

A segment of a relation
which at times has happiness brought
But too each side has felt
the cold touch of her breath
and the question she poses
as warmth fades with comfort
and true feelings hide behind doubt

I never imagined that it was possible
that one could be in the presence of an angel
and feel so *****
For I am covered and dripping
in not my insecurities
but ours both

And in my suffering
I weep for two

For I lay beside a fading star
who's beauty is becoming hard to see

Who assures me I am loved
and tries to iron out our distress
But we will both remain tormented
with Misery as my mistress

You say that things will be better now
that we can go back to how things were
Smiling I say nothing
I wish I could believe you

But I know
things will never
be the same

A man so hollow
who had let go of his dream
Awoke each day to a world
which had nothing left to share

A world
exploding with
what seemed similar to happiness
a distant feeling

But as time passed
he realized that
he could be brought brief moments
of joy
but still remained empty

What was lacking
was purpose

After years of observation
these tired eyes found an odd sight
an angel with wings broken
and a heart shattered at the core

This mystical creature
of such immense beauty
laying cold and alone
stained with blood and tears

With my rusted arms
I swooped her up
and supplied her with any warmth
I could possibly give
in my desperation to ease the pain
and try tend to her wounded heart

And in my occupation
of tending to her
I felt that emptiness whittle away
slowly and gently chipping
at the abyss within me

Months passed
and I can't begin to describe
the joy felt when she smiles
and while the marks never disappear
behind the smiles
they begin to fade

Good times,
there are a few now it would be seem
The painful thoughts and break downs
never seem far away

I'm trying
and it is tearing me apart
The attention required,
the countless nights of sleeplessness
over trying to comfort her.
But while it rips at me
I will never stop

For hearing the laugh
or seeing that beautiful smile
makes every moment worthwhile
It makes it worth living in this horrid world
this game with unfair rules and unbalanced sides
with players that would rather watch everyone else fall to their knees

..but this world can't be that bad
if it was the birth of you


I had no idea how to react
when I heard you say
"If it wasn't for you
I'd be probably be gone
long ago"

With this
I realized
my need to keep going
to keep pushing through every day
because now
I have found
my purpose

My dear
I know you might not think that this is right
That I don't mean to give you a fright
Or into your conscience bite
While often we may have fight
This is not for guilt to create or for you spite
But I remember the times when we were tight
Before you couldn't stand me in your sight
And with me smile or laugh you might
In memory your face was always bright
And within the darkness you were always the light
Unfortunately these good times have faded and blight
And with my best wishes that this for you I write
You will always be in my heart, but I shall not be coming home tonight

It's funny how much I missed you
And then years later when I was given another chance
I laughed at it
I couldn't seem to understand why I wanted this
So I neglected it
And not long after
We ceased

A month later
I've come to miss her again
And 'realize' what a fool I was
to let what I always wanted
to slip away between my fingers

Such an odd feeling.

I think I simply crave
what I know I can no longer have

I wake up, as if it's any other day
Trying to remember what it was last night
which I heard you say
and while it feels the same, it's different
I sense that perhaps
today is a special day

So I jump out of bed,
with a sleepy smile
remaining on my face intact
Thoughts of you
beside half awake dreams
as I my memories recollect

Ah, what a glorious day
a wonderful reminder
of what we share
Of that first day I saw you
that perfect smile
and that beautiful hair

I'm reminded of the day
in which we each other
have confess
To each other love
and how we wish
to be together address

And it may surprise me
that since then
six months have past
With the amount
of happiness you give me,
I hope we shall always last

My dear angel
if happiness were a form of currency
no doubt I'd be rich
I only that you could be here
and that we have many more
anniversaries wish

A man so hollow
who had let go of his dream
Awoke each day to a world
which had nothing left to share

A world
exploding with
what seemed similar to happiness
a distant feeling

But as time passed
he realized that
he could be brought brief moments
of joy
but still remained empty

What was lacking
was purpose

After years of observation
these tired eyes found an odd sight
an angel with wings broken
and a heart shattered at the core

This mystical creature
of such immense beauty
laying cold and alone
stained with blood and tears

With my rusted arms
I swooped her up
and supplied her with any warmth
I could possibly give
in my desperation to ease the pain
and try tend to her wounded heart

And in my occupation
of tending to her
I felt that emptiness whittle away
slowly and gently chipping
at the abyss within me

Months passed
and I can't begin to describe
the joy felt when she smiles
and while the marks never disappear
behind the smiles
they begin to fade

Good times,
there are a few now it would be seem
The painful thoughts and break downs
never seem far away

I'm trying
and it is tearing me apart
The attention required,
the countless nights of sleeplessness
over trying to comfort her.
But while it rips at me
I will never stop

For hearing the laugh
or seeing that beautiful smile
makes every moment worthwhile
It makes it worth living in this horrid world
this game with unfair rules and unbalanced sides
with players that would rather watch everyone else fall to their knees

..but this world can't be that bad
if it was the birth of you


I had no idea how to react
when I heard you say
If it wasn't for you
I'd be probably be gone
long ago

With this
I realized
my need to keep going
to keep pushing through every day
because now
I have found
my purpose