If there would be a “delete yourself option”. Then I would delete myself
Permanently.
I am very tired of all this.
No one hear my voice. No one wants to understand me. I wish someday will come… when everyone will wants to hear my voice , what I always want to say it… maybe that day that time would be too late. That I would not there, ever after 
I wish... That day come soon 

Sunday
8:45 pm
22/11/15

Everyone has their needs. But needs does not mean.. About money or things they want to. Needs I something called UNDERSTANDING… between whom we love the most and wants to be happy with them. That is my parents... And no one could be more than that “your child”, does not want that thing which we tell you to buy or that is not a love which been brought through money...
We just want is TRUST, LOVE, SPEND TIME WITH ME TO TALK, UNDERSTANDING, BELIEVE, if I listens to you.. I too deserved that... You should too must hear my voice that what I want to say! What I want to do.. What is my wishes! What is I wants! At least talked with me just for 2-5 minutes..! But u do not have time for me.. to talked with me.. No time to hear my words too.. EVERYTHING HAS TO DO BY FORCE. !! I hate it… I wish someday... U would understand it dad-mom...
Baas hope that... It wouldn’t be so late.. That u both would lost your daughter forever 

Saturday
21 nov 2015

Zindagi ka har khwaab pure **…
Wo zaruri nahi hota,
Khwaishein hai.. bahut saare.. humarae dil me,
Jo toote khwaab jaise.

Adure khwaab … adure khwaishein jaise,
Jo kabhi kisi ke liye maye ne nahi raheta,
Or shayed mere liye bhi nahi…
Ya dar ne humko rokh rakha hai.
Janjiron ne humko baandh rakhi hai…
Jaane kya pata hum kabhi janjiron se nikal payenge bhi ya nahi…!

Kahete hai waqt hum sabko badal deti hai,
Shayed hume bhi…!
Kya hum kabhi humare toote khwaab…
Khwaishiyon ko puri kar bhi payenge bhi…
Ye fhir… sab aduree hi rahe jayegi…
Ye toh waqt hi humko batayega..!

Friday
01:49pm
6 nov 2015

Aaj fhir yaad aayi teri,
Mushkuraa ke dil boli,
Bahut saari baatein rahe gayi thi humari…
Aapse.. kahena tha …
jo humesha- humesha ke liye rahe gayi aduri!

Khwaab jo souchaa tho,
Woh aab kabhi puri na ** sakki,
Kitni baatein thi kaheni ki… tumko,
Par aduri khwaab jaise meet gaye, dil se sab!

Jaise raith(sand) pe likhe woye jo baatein…
Ek hawa ke jhoke(air blow) se mit gaye… sab!

Khaas woh pal phir se aata,
Par shayed humne kafi der kar di,
Wapaas aane me…
tumko aapna ne me…!

Tuesday
7:57 pm
15/3/2016

Woh jaa chuka hai…
Laakh koshish kar lunn,
Woh na rukha…
Woh  nahi rukega.. aab kabhi
Kitna bhi usse yaad kar lunn..
Woh jaa chukka hai..!

Woh na aab kabhi ageyega
Rutha jo hai mujhse bahut,
Shayed nafrat bhi aab,
pahele se zaida karne laga hai…
woh jaa chukka hai…!

Haan maine koshish ki hai ussko,
Bahut bhulane ki… par sab bhul jaati ***,
Shivayen uss ke…
2 saal ** gayen inn baton ko yaad kar ke,
Ki kabhi na kabhi aa hi jayegaa woh!

Woh yaadein jo chah kar bhi,
Kabhi bhulne hi nahi diya.
Jaane kya pata… ye pyaar hi tha
Yaa fhir ekh sapnaa…
Woh jaa chukka hai!

Friday
12:22 pm
6 Nov 2015

Agar suraj ki keerne..
Tapti dhup mujh pe de,
Toh jhor se degiye ga…
Kisi ko ye naah toh pata chalegi .. ki hum naraz ya gusse hai bahut!

Agar baarish ** toh..
** jaane digiye ga,
Kisi ko ye na pata chal paaye … ki hum roh rahen hai!

Agar pathte zhareee,
Toh zhar jaane digiye ga..
Kisi toh naa pata kar paaye..
Ki hum aandarse bekhaare huye patho jaise bikhaa rahen h!

Agar thadi ki mausam me thaand de,
Toh bahut khub se digiye ga..
Kisi ko ye naah pata chale..
Ki hum saihum ya daar rahen h..
Andaar aandar se!

Ye mausam hai..
kuch mere zindagi ki tarah…
or humare zindagi ki tarah..
jo hum bayaan toh karte h..
par bahut kaam…
kyuki hume samaj ne wala koi nahi hota!

Ye jab hoti hai.. ya aati hai, jhoor se caati…
Or agar naah aate toh, na hi sahi,..
Par jab aati h…
toh puri zinadgi badal kar rakh deti hai.. !
trying to enjoying the life better :) :)