Bloom bound prairie

shake off these frozen confines

Brace for nothing

The sun stays away

familiar strangers cluster

****** another murmur with your abrasive tongue

Kick a can IF you must

This is a paradise for the broken home hero

Tilted shadows hide an uneasy nostalgia

Tree side muck pond ripple

A stone thrown for the sake of motion

A sigh retired for the sake of gumption

Fanatic ghosts reminisce over dusty diners

Tables like saw dust and lights dulled from a haywire hand

Grease plate pallet

you whisper

"God bless America"

into your headpiece

Indeed?

I think not sir

Dry toast and indifference for the soaking

Truck stop sickly and the road is endless

Rest stop epiphany and the desert screams with concurrence

Falsehood frenzy

our collisions grow more hysterical

grow more contrived

What a combination for the ponder patch

A slice of sanity on a pie full of red light liquidation

A drive by delusion

concrete echoes notions of finality

Spent for the folly

Sprint for the skyline

it keeps receding

I keep pleading

Show me what it means to be nonsense

Show me the theory that keeps us nodding like wire birds

wondering why we lack buoyancy

Wanting perches and obligatory blindness

Break me the way you broke the rest

A smile like satire

A mind like lunacy

Between I find something resembling reason

I bring news from the void

All is not well

I haven't slept in days

I'm high on sunbeams and pondering muted static

This is no place for a sane mind or innocent persuasion

I've never been inspired by peace

so I suppose I should have expected chaos

I never could understand an easy distraction

so I was left with an excessive amount of time

Delusional toys for minds susceptible to malfunction

My only scenery is a cardboard cut out of the cosmos

Oh what bittersweet displays it provokes

A misplaced monster comes knocking

Faceless with a cup of rain for my soul

It has no place in the world so we get along famously

Often times I surrender my curiosity to the ridiculous

I starve it into submission and never stop

I talk hysterically in empty spaces

Dawn dazed and the birds wont stop screaming

life stays sequestered behind plaster and window blinds

A small reprieve from the concrete choked landscapes we traverse so heedlessly

My body is currently in a state of sabotage

No peace for an exhausted ghost

Anatomy wrought with numb mechanics

I laugh for something resembling sanity

My echoes fall behind and that old familiar tick descends

Panic until the ink spills reason even if I'm the only nod

It consumes like sickness and I begin the pace patterns

Understand its all for nothing

Chain smoke until the lungs revoke my right to oxygen

I found stability while begging for an erratic intervention

I found my words provoke more than an easy reaction

Maybe I can perceive a fine tuned world

One that spins rationally

still I see faces unfurl

Smeared with pollution and haphazard expressions

Slow motion vanity for the casual observer

temporary worlds blissfully sidetracked  

I am the stranger that I never intended

In the skies
dead time suspended
Accented by boundless space

Like so many peep holes for a pervert god

In the ground
resilience manifests silently
Repulsive and numerous

Feel them live with toes buried deep

In the minds
world's collide indiscriminately
A far gone remedy

Gazes wander for the pile
glazed and ever paranoid

In the eyes

A life deemed incomprehensible

habitual self loathing

We never stood a chance

I took this ride down to the vacant mind

Hoping I could sit and watch the time

Life left me hysterical you see
Life left me irrational

So I denied my nature
I embraced the strongest emotion
A thing called hate
I've found it exhausting

After all
Hatred stems from fear
I've seen fear in all organisms
Built into a disposition
Like DNA

A fading emotion

Incoherent

Yet pulsing

Hit the highway

A glimpse of heaven in the sun

But no way to climb in

Madness moves selflessly

Never giving thought to it's own exhaustion

A lesson may be learned

Time may protest it's potency

Still

I cannot deny these acutely defined distractions

Whose hysterically sublime patronage only rendered time irrelevant

Nor can I negate notions of fine line fanatics

Whose frenzied flight only solidified a world's absurd rotation

So I excuse myself from this more conventional navigation

Knowing that time spent stagnant can only perpetuate presumption

Knowing that a mind concluded before the void consumes...

Is indeed

A mind worth rearranging

You broke the mold in two
and time came for you
No time for strife
or a vengeful right
Gravity on the move

A black hole for you
go ahead
blind your gloom
pick another day
but you'll stay away
you know it's true

You made it out to soon
concrete for your tomb
But you left this space
full of cold and gray
I can still feel you

I Bring nutrition
but your spoons are always black
So you still starve
who am I to judge?
I have my vices as well
just none that sinister

I found you two days later
arrangements unsteady
So I line them up to ease confusion
still you claim no perception feels whole

I found you one week later
nobody knew your name
But the eyes said freak
Indifferent walls built out of habit

I claimed this body was mine
We came from the same sandbox you see

I lift you up
but your eyes lack recognition
Strangers say leave it be
he doesn't belong to you
Smartphones capture pain
surely one million hits by tuesday

I look on in horror

No words to comprehend such brutality

Grabbing your soul I take you away from all this

Knowing now your need for escape

But I am unable to understand the need for obtaining it so destructively

I saw your face first

The same familiar stranger on a red light backdrop

My mind breaks when I realise you've been dead for a decade

A molecular concentration takes flight

screaming

"No more please"

Seizures like septic

this ringing has no rhythm

Ear full of static

I've been here before

but under a much different skyline

Gravity was too efficient

My skull lacked the proper buoyancy for a concrete introduction

I eat dirt and mingle with the microscopic

My mind searches for a reason

but it's only momentary

The curtain falls and I forget breathing

WAKE UP!

The void came like a seamless integration

A barbed tube for a veins intrusion

A legal stupor out of time

The bag claimed life juice

The white suits claimed hydration

Mouths curved skyward like so much obligatory optimism

Although

Their eyes suggest my body sits in shambles

I see...

I lay sheet strapped and completely surrounded

The jaws move like monsters

Words spoken like rusted mechanics

So scripted and so sick

No graces rooted in humor

Oh how I felt the *****

My addled antics have no place on this floor

...I was only one level away from the fun house

My face falls into laughter because it's all so serious

Sand dial urgency now

The world says they never needed this kind of strange anyway

Still

I hope I can stay

My face fell for these scenes perpetually  persuaded by silence

No room for articulation inside these pin drop prisms

The graces pool for a better freak show

Their only crime was observing

So we strain for serendipity misconstrued

Surely this banter is beautiful and destined for comfort

Surely we know the why inside this want

Never admitting these conditions only cover my human in a filmy flattering

So often I trip over shocked expressions

Painted with numbed creatures

Patchwork anatomy with free fall tendencies

As if disappointment was concrete recently spilled

limbs in stagnant stances

I no longer linger here

The noise was nonsense with a hysterical hindsight

Thumbs out for stranger company

The family units blur inside tin and fume

Exhaust pipe cough and these hands clench cold

Tube stuck finger muck cancelled glances

Beg for a reason in a harsh dawn display

Blue pipes run black and they forget forgetting

Move on small mishap
This mind remains unhinged

Stay still time specked sky
You may inspire a rooftop excursion

Beam me a better vacation I was never meant for everything

Sand paper benches and tile shine syndrome

Vanity is irrelevant here

I fear broken recollections and punctures so I perch with grassy knolls

Its consistency is that of Easter baskets

Surely this is man made ground

I tell this to my shadow and it sighs with excuses

Maybe you were never real and this pulse was inspired by limbo

Maybe I'm not really here

These masks slipped from my shelf and the sounds don't make sense

Polluted precision

the calling card of mankind

Stained structures and hazmat huddles

Cluttered minds with no jurisdiction

Face mask population
black stained the blue

What was once considered unexcused is now exceptional

It slips by like a sickness

while we binge watch the bully called Hollywood

while we smear another signature on a rented luxury

Who can ever just be when so many things say why?

The natural ability for adaptation leaves room for neglect

shrugged shoulders and disconnection

We fight for air in this crowded garden

metal florals with the concrete cloves

smiles fall and we feel the weight of full corners

A slow ride may reassemble a notion of purpose

tree smoke with a tree top tincture

Still

the speed demon decides the generation

It's all so hilarious
it's all so serious
It's all so human

We made the conversation for a passerby

Each one more ridiculous than the last

We neglected nutrition with haste

But we swallowed the lies of enlightenment

I needed a moment to compose myself

But the restroom was full of powder and human exchange

I laugh at this mad display
basking in this show of human excess

My tent is folded
never did construct it
Someone stole my poles
hippie sabotage

Strippers slowly swinging
holes in the forest
Eyes in the tree tops

Run up a hill
to avoid an old pains inquiries
At the top I meet a man
he pulls me aside
Trying to explain his condition

"My boy my shoes went nomadic I am aware of the irony!"

I say sir we are all mad currently

Enjoy the breather because dawn is coming

I make my exit because I see him eyeing my sneakers

Paddle boats?

Climb aboard says a spun out pirate

Indeed indeed

He had a plastic saber as a sword

and a marshmallow gun at his side

How he got it past security I will never know

When I ask him this he said he came by waterway

and that this paddle boat was made for excursions

A wild man with five wild women wave at me from the center dock

but I am much too shy for ******

Music now
bring out the rhythm
make room for the rage sticks
I hate them so

Make it to the center
I'm not sure of what yet
But I'll figure it out
maybe

Sleep was never my friend or enemy

But 48 hours without reprieve makes any soul stumble

Walking to kick lethargy I came across my childhood

It asked me where I've gone

Time took me away from you I say
Earlier than most
But such is life I suppose

We nod at nostalgia and part ways
both a little emptier
Rain shatters self pity
it left as fast as it came
Such is the prairie way

I found a puddle unusually clear deep inside a cities pollution

Reflection contradicts feeling
I suppose that was inevitable
Cannot deny ones nature

Crouching down to avoid reason
My knees crack loudly
reminding me of a 100 lives lived
Well worn past my 25 years

My skies turned abstract when dawn came

Pink and orange backdrop for this shadow

Moving over for a passing obstruction

I watch it swallow human excess
No flesh in sight for it's momentum
This is indeed skynet

I come home because walls keep out madness

In here only mine distracts
A dangerous illusion I know
But it's all I currently posses

The nature of the mind is wandering and wondering

Occasionally moments come and solidify the trajectories

Minor distraction with the concrete life clusters

We remain stagnant in these swells
Momentarily modest and content

but soon another trajectory comes

Tenacious and full of sublime intention

Another cluster consumes

We spin dizzy and smile like slap stick

We stumble into artificial antics
If one stops we may crumble

Another episode expelled

We leave these remnants for discovery

Never giving thought for a soul communicating compromise

Time goes and the conclusions are never as good as it's momentum

With a bandits tenacity we scream for more

Knowledge lost and won in life's absurd rotation

We attempt at a world concise and absent of complicating

With skies like a sandbox
Blue rims and tan spread

With a garden fully weaved

No **** or wandered root found

You may sigh for these scenes now abstract and animalistic

Perception is key when the colors blend and tree's retreat into seed

A sun rises still

Expressing it's discomfort with a rain storm spewing sanctuary

Please wash away these notions of godly intervention

Please stop this mind that refuses to move past the green light

All these rooms are the same

faces like factory precision eager on the assembly line

whitewashed and anxious for another distraction

Brains hum like fluorescents

Ear drums straining for subtle symphonies strung through a malfunction system

but clarity remains locked inside a key hole perspective

Images stutter into collisions and what is time anyway?

Strung out for a shout and we weave new sickness into salvation

Caught your god gasping for the masks that slip when a sky swoons from exhaustion

Skeletal sequence and the wall steals another shadow

A crumbling facade wrought with gunpowder stenches

A hollow charade begging for reason

Accommodate the mazes left floundering inside ****** magistrates

Who would wake a giant when we can't even ignite the sun?

suits strut carrying heads full of holes

Cozy with wholesome vices and wives derived from cellulite

Some of us remain fringe stuck while negating proper liquidation

Accidentally existing while consuming the prerequisites for confusion

Why do you all gather just to shatter?

Grip another frame and nod to the banter

Your eyes stay vacant in faces like plaster

Lines for lunacy and the jaws move faster

Dawn dazed youth distracted by a sunbeam

Speak about nothing but stay smug when the lights gleam

Laugh for the alien with a sober reaction

What we lack in conviction we make up in traction

We only speak sense to a casual observer

Black light goddess with the vanity fervor

in these spaces full of frenzied freaks

The highs scream predatory and the time sings bleak

Do you know where the time goes
when your mind is a no show?

Nicotine from a thoughtful fiend
circles under it's eyes saying go go go

We shoot the skies to ease the final flights of bodies made for free fall

No thought for there distant cries knowing it was only souls on recall

I was brought into this world by way of time capsule

I refused entry knowing the light was too bright for adaptation

So they tore me from my best and pulled me into the cold

Crying for those warm roots

They washed and clothed me in earthly attire

Years goes by

Pictures captured
fed and dusted
Promise for the future

Life played a game
one where nothing is as it seems
Those dreams become reality
but it still leaves holes unfilled

Introduced to chemical imbalance by way of hysteria

I know my tragedies are nothing special

Nobody makes it to the other side unscathed

Recycle a soul and hope for brighter days

People hurt and cast aside
nerves pinched and walls built
Fleeting attention for the outsider product of the speed generation

A quarter century comes

Recluse by confusion
observer by design

Oh you people

Pull down the earth and let it burn for the next fifteen minutes of fame

Boredom consumed the planet
that is a terrifying notion

We spark up the beggar
wrench and teeth amusement
A Lincoln for pay
and YouTube bound

I no longer see the faces
only ripples of regret
Timelines stack the accusations
child innocents no longer

These chemical reactions become more sinister

Dodge a train while looking for the next ******

These screens seem too grow more nefarious

Breaking down the obscene for easy transportation

Rides through time but I stay stationary

Small finds relieve the angst  
but these pains still resonate

Joint stiff from stagnant confines
and this sky bends from abuse

But a ***** of salvation is created

I climb fast hoping for an easy endeavor

I doubt anyone ever makes it to the bottom

I am an advocate for strange...

My mechanics are blissfully malfunctioning inside an accidental existence..

Everything is hilarious and nothing makes sense

T.V personas injecting membrane memos like its a vaccination for reality

Reassembling minds like factory precision eager on the assembly line

A convenient god for your more hysterical notions

A high priced fallacy for your comfort

Sometimes we mingle in the middle
Striving for the prize of nearly existing
-Christopher

My apologies

I never was a very good human

I use to know the best ways to waste silence

Climb into the sun and dive for time and place

True thoughts prevailed and distract an eager mind

Smile like slapstick and form a new foundation

I suppose we could lose ourselves in these sublime moments

Some tools left for mending
some words left for reaction
Anxiety properly positioned

Misplaced an ego
artificial in it's hold

Lost and fumbled
Temporarily found

Some creatures can't be helped

Claimed this body as your own

went to work with your indifferent sabotage

I slowly shattered with each new head space

Broke me down for spare parts

mumbling a need for mending holes self inflicted

I watch myself in shambles
patchwork for your dark corners

Suggestions are plastered
new breeds are rendered

Remember those days

shots called by sanity

Boring yet stable

safe yet


Maddening?

I look under the street
monsters dwell in unknown spaces
Fabrications of lost logic

I look toward the sky
see my forecast
Cloudy with a chance of church steeples

Dodge the pigeons
They congregate for what?

Concrete serves no comfort or nutrition

Just killing time with winged optimism

A *** at the L station said he stole a dead man's shoes

Awkward conversation with a badge

"How do you explain you didn't **** him?" he cries

"I only wanted his sneakers!"

His agitation was real

"No crime here officer"

Nodding my confusion I opted for a taxi

Yellow relief on a side street
Says hop in for a fee
A driver of Islam
Signs of apprehension

What a mixed up world we dwell in

When one stranger fears another

I say do not fear sir
I'm not one of them
We bleed the same
We need the same
I love you unconditionally

Made it to a house full of blues
Rhythm inside a sweat box
Feel at home in a freaks embrace
What's normalcy anyway?

Hotel rooms for crowding
Glass surfaces for smudging
Unknown mass distributes anxiety
Watch that fiend I say
He will steal your sanity

Fluids swapped for regret
Dawn dazed and depressed
Blinds don't hinder sunlight
or it's numbing exposure

Take a walk through a city I love
Faces flood forward
Peace in it's tide
I join the flow
Making my way
I see a new future looming into view
No time like the present

Inside this mind once spoken for

I surrender my will to despondency

My reality laughs

offering up souls full of toys for misappropriation

Now I slide down to the vacant side

hoping to sit and watch the time

I know this place well

kicking rocks into the void

I grow weary waiting for impact

Life left me jaded by noble fiends

hate and spite for consumption

I've found it exhausting

after all

Hatred stems from fear

and I am terrified.....truly

Not only by the lack of pause reflected on so many faces

or by a societies unwavering commitment for disconnection

More so this notion I find in these quiet moments

When the eyes remain stationary

contemplating another boomerang trajectory

It's simply this

I've seen fear in all organisms

built into a disposition like DNA

My actions can no longer be defined
As I dance across the catwalks of my mind

I dare not let myself slip

Gazing down I see a faded clown waving back at me

Mouthing words that sound so absurd coming from a painted expression

''Descend so I can ascertain your motives'' it cried

Climbing down I see it's merely my reflections sense of humour and I screamed

''Suspend my silence for the sake of nonsense I suppose you have that
right!''

Startled by my outburst I watch myself begin to crack and falter

I panic knowing this is no place for a showdown

I fall at my feet and hysterically shatter for stability

Gathering up my pieces I mumble my motives

''How dare you disturb the cleanliness I have brought to this madness''

Putting them in my pocket I make my way back to normalcy

Strapped in for another gizmo gobbled

This ones chemical complexion suggest strange times indeed

here we go again for midnight thirty

Familiar madness for these familiar strangers

Faces plastered with nonsense expression

A cosmic joke for these perpetual purveyors

A timeline choked for these mindful destroyers

Pills for the meat and it goes down empty

Calm and canned we feel the assembly line

Rubber traction and the mismatched membranes

Artificial sweetener for propulsion and I feel my cancer

Can we have a moment of silence for the speed demon?

He left as fast as he came

Holding no compromise or puzzles left for decoding

Productive in his vices with hysteria popped pupils

His tooth and claw method dug a primitive prison

Make some noise for these peaked characters

They play getaways well until corners consume jolly

Don't disturb what needs rearranging

it's original mess was my blue print for clarity

this clutter had a purpose but life caught its prize

Swift justice for the seeker

He lacked a library code so box car children ran his brain

Don't mistake this hindsight for enlightenment

Confusion can slip the noose and run circles in unkempt head space

Watch these scenes collapse from excess

they always do

Laugh with the rest on ***** crusted memory

Watch the cracks split from abuse

sometimes we can't help the momentum

Watch the sun retreat to shade as if overwhelmed by its own creations

What a sight for wide eyes

Purpose finally catches up with time and casts it aside

Claiming it has no need for manmade contraptions

Sky pieces swing by corners
finally unhinged
They fall and dent the earth
no longer able to deny space

People dodge the danger
frantically scratching lottery tickets

Not knowing the lines were dead and this week's numbers irrelevant

Inside structures of brick and grime
eyes stray from boxed realities

Outside streets and avenues crooked
footsteps falter and grow silent
Unsure of the path taken

A shriek in the distance

Chaos
The final spotlight
forced transparency for the masses
Makeshift personalities betray their creators
Vanity cast aside with haste
but never disgust

Wavelengths solidify
once invisible
now oh so relevant
Fear spreads fast and abrupt
gravity bows out
physics waves goodbye
fall through the holes
No safety net left for mending

Where does my mind slip when my head tips from habit?

When does the time skip and reveal gold watches tenaciously ticking?

Humans lost in conditions that may be DNA inclined

Casually projected with a fingerprint manifested for clarity on the fly

You see we all lose time with formal fictions for the sake of momentary highs

Sometimes they cross and we find the cost is frenzied f*cks for forgetting

Then into the world that never needed so many institutions

I watched those mouths claim purity while plucking a sidewalk bloom

Trivial for some but then again I never knew traditional company

Dead white in the cold clutch and I never heard the sighs

They knew the cost for slow motion gods and the tides slowly lost reason

Another casualty in a war for reality between mind and vulnerable eye

What an absurd rotation

What an exhausting flirtation

When obscurity speaks a lie

"Are you even listening?''

Window perception
Eyes on the horizon
Sunburst chaos
Tin foil clouds
Hang them by a string

''There's something seriously wrong with you''

An abrupt intrusion
Sky high demon
Make the mark
Make the grade
Conspiring a tragedy
No salvation here

''I think he checked out''

A stop on the way
A vacant mind for exploring
Touch the walls
Monstrous obstruction
Tiptoe around it

''But look he's still here''

Weary eyes on the dial
Point them true
Jaw breaks free
Voice box on the move

''What did he say?''

Explain my affliction
Explain my condition
Reconstructed logic
Reasonable madness

''He's speaking nonsense''

Sighs for the lifetime
Sighs for this timeline
Silence for these strangers
Keeping this reality

You mimic a monstrosity
Your disposition runs like ink

These ticks become habitual
These prisons become virtual
These masks become complete

Images designated for dissection

New found suits for dissenting

Legends in lethargy and memory high hysterics

Neatly astute for the sake of navigation

They mingle like limbo inside brickwork bunkers

The embodiment of human discernment

Madness makes moves

I see the eyes reassemble for nonsense

You steal my time for a story we have already forgotten

I brace because my jaws are acutely inclined for folly

I try to resemble accommodation but fall short like the gods intended

I hear their laughter

but its my own obscure orchestration

Yours are not mine but I shatter with the rest

My favorite parasite
My favorite sanctuary

I love you all inside this room soaked sickly

Indifferent and discarded

Now and again we find the time for creation

Spring loaded sky stuck symptoms

Trampoline tactics for these less buoyant patrons

We figure the fabrications come complete

Declare another dysfunction
Society breaks the hesitant

Hold the moments hostage like so much decoration

Happier times splattered while a perfect storm swells

Satirical strings attached for an elusive heaven

I now know the we that became you

I've done strange things for the sake of rings spun around solar systems

Myself I seek for a silent leap into a fantastic fracture

No world need convince me that these cracks completed spill serendipity

I separate them neatly when they start breathing scenes best left for a blind patronage

Perhaps your malfunction is a product of something more sinister

A human condition decides on renditions torn from a black white horror show

Freezer burn for our nutrition when the world insists on absurdists amplified

Our sincerity is matched only by electricity extinguished for better imagining

Ghosts consider our progression like hindsight heros

Decadent glee when a plastic choked sea swoons from hurricane hijinks

Paranoid pirates tuck treasure into garbage heap grottos the size of Texas

No map for a wealths navigation

Buried beneath distraction contraptions and know how hardware

No connection like the steadfast junctions that perpetuate envy

Skies cease their indifferent observation and decide on surrender

A wooden giant crumbles while the modern slowly assembles

The vanity runs like storm stained dancers

pooling politely for easy consumption

Scoop the slips and magnify some misconceptions

Sometimes normalcy negates these more formidable formalities

Inside this mind once spoken for
I give my will to despondency

My reality laughs

Pointing to a hole full of toys at my disposable

Some better than others
But all serving a purpose

Organic in nature when deconstructed

they make for terrifying hybrids when I decide on creation

Picking up the gears and flesh I made the mistake of tossing aside conviction

Before logic caught up with motion I had constructed a truly terrifying chemistry

Savage in design it extended a make believe salvation for this nonsense I cloaked myself in

But in this new world of transparency truth is for the birds and purity is walked over with indifference

Doctors say he had a black spot on his brain

Black hole?
pirate past?
DMT excess?

Acute exhaustion came calling
we only have one vessel
It shattered some time ago

I feel rapid fire rattle my skull space

The rusty executioner says well here we go again

Half naked in a puddle
giggle into a rain cloud
Collapse
roll with muddied grace
Scream for everyone and everything

Busy minded and disembodied
float the circle
Watch them live
lungs rise and collapse
Over and over
organic machinery
So simple and so necessary

Reflex for lightning
I've seen the aftermath
split limbs onto broken backs
I'm no super hero
lift until gravity obeys

East side complex
paint so new
it smells of progress

Slacks and ties waddle by

Eyes glazed by coffee ground and paid vacation

I mumble into their bubbles

"Who am I to judge another's happiness?"

"I suppose I have been too human in my observation"

"Leave now before it spills onto your nice paint"

I run away laughing
I love an inside joke

Beautiful brick and iron work
but the sign says no thank you

Squeals of joy from a bird cage
but a parrots neck stays broken

A sponge for the sinister
wipe away their foreboding

Cleanliness inside madness makes for a reasonable crutch

Do I make ground for nutrition or for construction?

The permit office succumbs to hysterics

So I lack a proper paper trail

But I have a bag of soul and a ***** of soil

I have every intention of populating without the red tape

These mouths need nutrition

They burn wide from consumption

All I need is a root
All I need is sound
All I need is a little more time

There once was a mind fully defined

it's wiring now wrought with exposure

Time always comes hysterically inclined

disrupting these dispositions claiming composure

Is this your mind?
I found it elsewhere
Where are you going?
That paths leads nowhere

I feel compelled to say...

A glimpse at your scene
Leaves a shell worth breaking
A moment in your mind
Leaves a hole worth making
Deny your creator
This fate lacks clarity
Stop the climb
This world lacks a reality
I stole your time
Hoping to stop your progression
I gave you mine
Hoping to avoid a misconception

Know that its only reality
That demands your attention
Know its only society
That demands your affection

Here

Collect your mind
Complete and confused
Push it back in place
Pray its not refused

You must understand

I no longer recognize your faces

Please forgive me...

I never was a very good human

However

You may find comfort in the following confusion

You see

When I find myself in the mirror

I too am greeted by a familiar stranger

This crowded room may consume
But this body may not betray
Constrict my motion for a moment
But vacant eyes have nothing to say

Misplaced my mind for amusement
Hoping to pass the time
Replaced my lie with atonement
Hoping to pass the crime

I walk past the rewind statements
No answer for the sighs
I hear them ask about my health
Knowing full well they despise

"I hear you write?"
"I hear you fight?"
"I hear you died back in 2009?"
"How about a breather?"
"How about this weather?"
"Whatever happened to your mind?"

I mouth words for mercy sake

"Excuse me but do you have the time? You see I have this meeting with sanity and I'm already late"

Brains shake negative
Slow motion disapproval
Make my exit...
Overwhelmed by the colors
I forgot my shade

These holes I dig
I fear become mandatory
When I attempt
to make sense of the rest

I'm leaving this planet
An alien that was never intended
Finally contacts it's mothership

The shapes and sounds here no longer make sense to me
I'm not certain they ever did
Denial was my first encounter in this place
Information was my undoing
Curiosity makes for madness

But where logic should be
sits a sponge soaked and bloated
No way to understand it's origins

The oxygen here tastes of metal
I breathed in not knowing it's toxicity

The tree's grow smaller every year
breaking under the weight of progress

No clear explanation for this "God" you all speak of
But so many eyes grow deluded when hearing it's name

Intergalactic flight seems only logical

I say so long you tragic race

I will always remember your depraved dances and hysterical collisions

I will do my utmost to forget the monsters you call beautiful

Peace

Abstract antics make this mess seem sensible

I often wonder if this madness is self inflicted

I often scold myself for being so self absorbed

Still

I smile for disorder

even those distracted by a contrived mediocrity

shake loose the ridiculous

Who else besides the mad could traverse such an irrational world?

Practice makes it humble
Precision makes it extraordinary

My circle never stays stationary and confusion remains reclusive

Solidified by a life spent in limbo

Silenced by a jaw made mute with awe

They said my theory proved reckless and I except such a judgment

Why must I make these stable scenes shrink into obscurity?

Chance encounters of the chemically inclined

A sandbox youth I once knew

Stumbled into my space while shopping for citrus

He ask me when I lost my mind

I ask him what is time?

His reaction invited nothing

expressionless like saintly statuary

A self proclaimed speaker of jury junctions

Casually clustered for ones dismissal

A city full of strangers
designed for display

Buttons like diamonds
boots like an empty echo

Tube trance propulsion

shoulders crowded and snug

Ignore the madman arguing with nobody

Imagine what is said between his pauses

Fill the spaces left for disconnection

A smile for your stupor

I know it's an easy remedy for approval

I know some are more susceptible for the stumble

lacking the proper bulwark for such old world hysterics

Leave this one be

let him try his luck with despondency

Surely a fine tuned cynicism was his undoing?

I filled this room with books and madness

Peaches and potatoes fuel my hysteria

My walls scream of crime and lost word play

Paint peels for moments like these

all the artist ran for Canada

The news suggest chaotic times ahead

The sanity service did a clean sweep

So this space may fill with normalcy once again

But conventional contraptions make me panic

So I spit madness into the sink
it pools at the bottom
Metallic and delicious

My ant farm fell into a state of disrepair

Little lives snuffed out by my latest episode

My plants still shine green
only because I fear for oxygen

I glued my fridge closed after one too many whisky drinks

But I have a back up so I'm not sure of my current state

I hide the vices knowing there is more
always more

I trip across rooftops

Chain smoking to displace the sting

Avoiding the moon I once took for granted

I've seen tides shift
I've seen moon fueled strange
I love a freak nation

My neighbors all think I'm crazy

I don't mind because I hate welcome casserole

I am an ambassador for insanity and I take that responsibility seriously

Still

I may be the sanest creature on the block

But only I know that....

If you have a voice and message it will surely articulate itself

Its in those muted moments when we doubt it exists

But writing is not some phase for the souls left suspended by a mad world

nor is it a passing craze for the ones who know chaos resides in quiet spaces

for the ones whose momentum is acutely inclined for folly

for the ones who deconstruct like a tortured time bomb

You all know who you are

It is simply the only way we can make sense of life's absurd rotation

Its the only way we can calm these hums that crowd our heads

The ones with ticks like panic seeping

The ones who lay sleepless with strange scenes and exhausted distractions

forgetting to breathe until the ink spills reason

We know sometimes our minds go where the body cannot follow

With no way to accommodate these abrupt transitions into impeccable storms

We interpret how we fall and do our best at stability

We stumble into renditions of frantic omissions

Constructing voids and fine tuning self destruction

Writing keeps us sane

but will surely be our undoing

So smile for the gift of justified obscurity

Sigh for the myth that claims all pain is accounted for

Find a balance and do your best to negate the banshee

This has been a message from one addled poet to the rest

I've seen your pain and hope you refrain from despondency

The world needs you now more than ever

PLEASE

Never stop writing

I only write well when I'm a mess

Knowing this I spit on a fine line

My neighbor thinks I write very bad poetry all the time

I don't argue because it very well may be true

Meanwhile

Burned by my upstairs nuisance

He promised a case of red bull

But only delivered a stereo with no knobs

I would be angry but he is saner than I most days

So I sell the stereo to a deaf bird for nutrition

But my ramen packets break dry and maggot filled

So I eat cancer and drink the sun instead

my pens are all gone

They ran away when I started pacing

most things do

Preparation is key on nights like these

Fall weather comes and I breathed easy

But now my climbing tree's are dying
and my shoes fail in spades

I met a creature who said my words were strange

I laugh because what is normal?
I never did fully know

So that time tested debate unfolds with mouths clenched from use

I offered peace in the way of grape juice but gave myself vitamin c poisoning

So I ***** into the rabbit hole
no home left for that metaphor

I never really saw what all the fuss was about

good night

Excuse me

I am a sickly structure with an abstract affliction

I only see in madness

I only came here because I need an excuse for existing

A low day for this brain box

But what constitutes normalcy?

Fine lines for strutting and a head full of holes

I never know what it needs

I found domiciles consumed by powder rockets and fuzzy fiends  

full of cosmic jokes and silver wrapped trinkets

full of window taps and shattered reflections

Plastic plateaus circled by virtual vultures

Capturing memory and chemical persuasions

Pocket tucked and indifferent for the sake of an easy dispersement

Disassembled depravity reassembled for hilarity

A fine insect coating for the main stream

Cancelled glances accompany hysterical stances

what an exhausting display of vanity

Smile for the ghosts who need the most

Smile for the muted mechanics and static responses

I left my plots behind

they are now victims of consumption

scavengers of extravagance

ravaging the proper somewhere over my shoulder

A distant echo now

I want to tear it all down

Skies like lunacy

Earth like excess

between these scenes

Lies a distracted remedy for a nonsensical trajectory

No oxygen left that hasn't been spoken for

Breathe in another song and exhale the sorrow

It is not mine

nor is it yours

We are intruders in an otherwise flawless formality

Distant sighs under spotlight saturation

I've seen stranger souls shrug in defeat

Another jaw made slack by an unhinged notion

Puzzled by such purity in obscurity

how can one do it justice?

Sometimes

I feel as if there is something truly profound about love and hate

Both numbing in their exhaustion and best reserved for a proper patron

Both humbling in the fallout

The generations are numerous in this conviction for folly

Other times I feel its merely chemicals reacting in a hungry skull

Navigating lonesome anatomy into collisions for the sake of a secondary pulse


Still

A shortcut in my quiet moments...

When I discard my bulwark and realize I only thrive in seclusion

Is it lethargy or lunacy when I reject connection?

A tick of panic in my crowded moments...

When shoulders mingle in spaces fully saturated with gizmos and vain distraction

How potent is creation?

F*ck away the time and we may call it heaven

****** into chaos and we weave new homes for hurting

The scenes we preconceive are never as fantastic as the actual trajectory

When we come faceless and wanting

we may find time to ponder a perfect rotation

But once the whirlpool winks we can barely grasp the remnants of imaginary