shoes tap and kick softly to an undetectable melody
the slightest sensations seem to be overwhelming
a moving hair,
a twinge of numbness,
ah, there’s the familiar *****.
looking down to my hands, the bud blooms
and cascades down my thumb.
it's revolting..
..but i can't stop
the obsession that plagues my life
someday i fear it will be too controlling
and that i will succumb to its demands,
but for now, i’ll just watch
too scared to reach out,
too scared of change.

That night you cried for me my dear,
A day I never thought could happen
Your single tear seemed to carry the weight of the world

And I thought I could never be more grateful
To be held as if I could disappear
At a moment's notice

i can't help but exhale
when the frigid air fills my mouth.
my teeth are in numbing pain
as the taste of you leaves my lips
and swallowing feels like an impossible task

before long,
i can't feel you, i can't see you
anymore
and everything just aches;
but it's expected.

i just wonder how much more
of this i can take