I fume, I bare wolf teeth
I snarl and I ******* growl
I hate what you did to me
But look at me now

I shake inside ****** at you
It really bugs me
I am not over being ******* at you
Block party continues

I hate what you did to me
I remember all the promises you made to me
I hate that you lied to me
But look at me now

I am going on, becoming new
I do not wilt in a corner due some lack of you
I hate the hole you left in me
But look at me now..stronger..than thee

Not like the last one.
No counting sunsets til it is dissolved.
No kids are involved.
Never thought this would happen.
Not until another I found him tappin.
No destroying me.
No lies or tricks work now
Never going to forgive him.
Not regretting all I have learned.
No diamonds to be returned.
No gifts given with sentiment within them.
Never gave so much emotion
Not given it back.

Tech drives me insane
I want to rock but the chair squawks like old chains
I have been yapped at more than twice
No more boogie in the chair cause the sound ain't nice
How would I know I have headphones on
My ears hear only nine!
How can I hold still?
I want to rock cause that is how I chill
but my every move disturbs you
you ******* negative **** you

Think- wow that was awesome
Feel- I feel so good
Think- I hope he ...
Feel-worthlessness
Think- he probably thinks I am too much
Feel-not good enough
Think-why I am never good enough
Feel-hurt and alone - rejected
Think- I am being rejected
Think- we were so good together
Feel- why would I feel alone worthless and hurt after such a great experience?
FEEL- what I experienced was awesome.  I loved every moment of it, every sound every feel and every move, every look.

I feel that what I think ends up messing up what I feel.
I think perhaps I should just let feelings sit without trying to categorize them too fast.
Every morning I wake up with a bunch of feelings, a lot of thoughts and I try to work them out through written word/poetry.  Most of the time I have no idea what I am going to write about.  I simply open a NEW POEM window and start expressing how I feel, what I think.
This morning I want to separate the two.  Because what I feel has little to do with what I think- I-We make it over complicated.  What I feel gets muddied up by what I think.  What I feel without thinking is pure-PURE and good.  I only taint it by adding thoughts-ATTACHMENTS- to my experience.  My experience and feelings were perfect before I started adding "crap" to it/them.
I find this to be MY TRUTH.
Thoughts bring expectations, doubts, and negativity.  It clouds what was real with a bunch of ****!
I am going to remember ALL OF IT without expectations, doubts and n TRIPPIN because I am keeping my thoughts out of it.
I think* I THINK* (too much) I think we over think stuff and **** it up.  Some things should just be left as experiences without putting all that thinking on top of it to TAKE AWAY the feelings.  YES THINKING COVERS YOUR FEELINGS FOOL!  But you knew that didn't you?

Now I am not sure
Because this morning is slightly a blurr
So many words all such goodness
I kinda got lost in all the worth and bliss
How can a girl like me resist?
I am dealing with seasonal allergies
And I will call that the cause
But if I stop and let myself pause
I am wondering
wondering the cause of this dizziness
Feels like something else
is not that from which I sneeze
This kind brings me to my knees
That which I want more and more
That tingle on top of my head
relaxation of body, and mind
that special kind of dizziness
The dizziness which makes me smile
Have not felt that in awhile
I smile and shake my head
I might be in trouble-over my head
Vertigo or you instead?

I hope I don't need you
I refuse to feed you
Your hunger for me
I do not want to want you
Get out of my head,
Stay away from my heart.
This was a tease from the start
and that is where we part
There must be more
to get through my door
so much more to explore
but *** talk is all you know
such a ******* bore
You just made my block list
oh yes, I insist
because all your *** talk
I can resist!

I’ll never forget the good times
Holding hands
Sitting for hours
In the rain
That one day
A day I will keep in my heart forever
I’ve never felt the rain
As I did that day
Felt special feelings for you
I still do
Always will
That one day in the rain
Is forever with me
The day I was with you

Karen Lee Cosson

I got 4 windows open
he is on every one of them
HE HOT
How can I look away
*** I melt in every way
I laugh a lot, you know why?
He is ******* hot!!!
I cannot look away~
He sends me photos
Eyes looking right at me
I told him if he sent him looking at me
I would look right back ; )
He knows what I am doing
While he is in my view
Putting on a happy face
A time or two!
I have 4 windows open
He is on every one of them
I actually blush just looking at him
; )

I lick my lips and go round once again
Each step out of sight
trust yourself, it will be alright

I stop I read you
I blush and I want to feed you
Heat leaves my mouth in a huff and a pout
my lips like what yours are saying right now

I want to spin faster and faster
eyes closed and no one to view
But my knees are weak I swear its true
***..LAUGHS..AHHHH you create dew
MMMMM awesome awesome dancing with you
CHA
My feet bottoms sweat and my prancing gets faster
Spinning ever yet
The floor grows more slick with each step
I spin I spin..not quite there yet
I am blushing I am blushing ..
so I start to count the steps
7 steps a spinning outward
make this star now flowered

Why did I say hi?
The SLEEP OBSESSED
caught my eyes
Because I suffer insomnia
I thought what is his secret
I want to know
Hope he can sympathize
I am a stranger interrupting
Possibly that sleep he finds obsessive
perhaps he can't find it,
or does he spend his time sleeping peacefully
While I cannot find it
I had questions about his obsession
I admit that was what made me send the questions!
Shocked that I got answers
Though now I cannot remember what they were
How can that be it is all a blur
I cannot remember his obsession my first question
It is about the humor-this is my confession!

I had a really bad craving
There was no mistaking
I had wild urges and super surges
I wanted so bad I went and chased a few skirts
I wanted words more than anything
I craved that attention full of sensuality
Thoughts of pleasurable endeavors
Such flattery for which my phone has never seen
I have to admit..that was quite keen!
However that was much like the first bite
of my favorite ice cream!
So I sure hope you come back soon
Cause my thingy down there..is starting to swoon~

To dance with a flying pink spread to each side
Organic super spun my threads
Gathers open with each leg flair
Around the round I spin
PINK smooth and silky sheer
Teasing with such movement and play
Offering a unique sway
Gushing with delight
Aroused leaping up and down
PINK dances in sync
Technician across this super waxed floor
Originate a new dance -move it new
Generate your own play - be you
Against the grain in nothing new
PINK saves me once more

Relief hits
I buzz
All fixed
Restless gone
Peace beyond
Relief I sigh
No lie
Soulful cry
Relaxed am I

Daddy issues?  I shake my head
I simply have a thing for daddy types
They love their children, protect at night
Do I have daddy issues?  Sure I do!
I never had one how about you?
Why are they so appealing?
Do you not have a clue?
They love openly and even tie a shoe!
Just because I get the hots for Daddys'
Does not mean I want you to be mine
It means I like the loving types who know how to unwind!

Things change rather rapid
My feelings no longer my trap
All it took was words from you
and I take it all back
My feelings of rejection are small
what your going through is huge
my feelings disappear
now I have only compassion
things change fast around here
My ex's kids are crying
I help them out because their father
always denying any contact
whatsoever
Friends mother is dying
How can I be the one crying
over little ****
support now I am supplying
things change rapidly around here

This boat is just wandering in the ocean
I have not really thought out my motions
I am too full of emotions
I act out, I rebel
Overtly coming out of my shell

I have no idea what you think of me
Swimming around in that rebel divorce sea
Showing more than I should online
Flirting with girls all the time
All the **** shopping trips
The up-skirts on the swing sets
All the people I have on my list

None of that goes with the words from my lips
Telling you your the only one I want to kiss
It is very true, I really like you
But I have no idea what your thinking
I am acting out and rebelling

I am always afraid what I am doing
has made- you run for the hills
This is true..cause I am rarely hearing an opinion from you
it is not all you of course
I have abandonment issues which feed those fears
but if you asked me to stop showing my **** I would of course
; )

I wsh "WoW Impressed!" meant  "I like you best"
I wish it said :I feel that way about you too".
Even follow up words, email, text can add that sentiment
but it isn't.=, you don't.
I have asked all my guy friends what they think
It is not pretty, the picture they paint
Practically says I have no chance in hell
But wait
I am trying to remain patient, I really am
But at times it just seems like you do not give a ****
I have feelings too you know
I have had no problem letting them show
I express myself all over you
No reason you do not understand my point of view
I would hope you cared enough to spare me the rejection
This time through
Leaving me wordless and being silent hurts
All I wanted was a few simple words
So I know you still care
But my wishes fall upon dead air

WE avoid
TRY to fill the void
TOO erase the pain
HARD to know what is real
TO walk a straight line out of the darkness
NOT make mistakes and lose each other
TOUCH each other in many ways
EACH a sight to behold
OTHER people do not understand

WE have comfort
NEED is a call that is answered
EACH listening with intent
OTHER people just don't get it

I really love your smile
CARE goes both ways
ABOUT time
YOU relaxed

A slow ride that first time
Happy town visits always make me smile
Been a few days, for me that is a long while
Lost my car that usually drives me there
I couldn't find it anywhere
So I hitched a ride with Johnny Depp
And again he refused me at almost every step!
Geez I know your taken, no mistaking
but this tension I must be breaking!
You took so long and left me standing cold awaiting
I know your just making me do the chasing!
I cannot thank you enough
so a second time around
I call your bluff!
Drive me there again, do a second take!!
call it..Director Johnny Depp!!!
What a film we could make!
Lick that stuff off my lips
Cause it is no longer within my hips
I smile and declare a second ride
We have film time to spare so lets not lie
Standing with legs together held so tight
that second trip to happy town was more than ******* alright!!!

You tease-You taunt
I want I want!
You have funny answers
trying to distract me
still I spark
All your teasing
makes me laugh
but still I persist
Your lips need to be kissed
Yet you resist!
You keep teasing me
and I like that

I cannot see the bottom and that makes me smile
You care enough to type for a while
and I thank you

I look at you
And I want to close my eyes
I take you in
It is no surprise
I close these lids and hold you in
Not letting one detail left behind
I hold you close
My lips vibrate as I remember yours
Little face twitches, of course
Big smile takes over my face
I sigh, breath in deep

I am shaking my head no
but I really mean YES YES YES
That is me swimming in it is all
Back and worth my mind sways
My head follows, the smile stays

I love looking at you
But I want to take you into a dark dark room
Have your way with me
Love looking at you
But want the lights off you see
I want to feel you, experience you
Swim deep in your sea

I know you understand
You know me
Just one of those things
that makes me ..Me
You can turn the light back on later
So we can stare
into We