Tech drives me insane
I want to rock but the chair squawks like old chains
I have been yapped at more than twice
No more boogie in the chair cause the sound ain't nice
How would I know I have headphones on
My ears hear only nine!
How can I hold still?
I want to rock cause that is how I chill
but my every move disturbs you
you ******* negative **** you

almost a yawn
almost a sigh
a desire unspoken
a want to communicate
what I anticipate
what I ponder upon
wishing for words
shakes of my head
no words to explain
5th chakra itch
the openness I seek
something is coming..
I feel it creep
now I hear you speak!!!
ha..now I know what I felt
awww yay..you I felt

Sitting here naked
Flirting with guys
He comes and lays on my bed
Tries puppy dog eyes
I laugh and say go upstairs
I am already occupied
My hands are busy
Why not try yours?
You ain't touching this
I am not yours~

A slow ride that first time
Happy town visits always make me smile
Been a few days, for me that is a long while
Lost my car that usually drives me there
I couldn't find it anywhere
So I hitched a ride with Johnny Depp
And again he refused me at almost every step!
Geez I know your taken, no mistaking
but this tension I must be breaking!
You took so long and left me standing cold awaiting
I know your just making me do the chasing!
I cannot thank you enough
so a second time around
I call your bluff!
Drive me there again, do a second take!!
call it..Director Johnny Depp!!!
What a film we could make!
Lick that stuff off my lips
Cause it is no longer within my hips
I smile and declare a second ride
We have film time to spare so lets not lie
Standing with legs together held so tight
that second trip to happy town was more than ******* alright!!!

To see how long I will stand here naked?
You know **** well I am waiting to go shake it
My shower is waiting but still you type
I thought you were tired now whats all this hype?
I think your just teasing me and holding me hostage
cause you ain't never gonna share your sausage ; )
I am cold, wanting to get wet and warm
But the words in the box just keep flowing in form
Questions are great but your avoiding my shower
I have to go now and water my flower!!

You tease-You taunt
I want I want!
You have funny answers
trying to distract me
still I spark
All your teasing
makes me laugh
but still I persist
Your lips need to be kissed
Yet you resist!
You keep teasing me
and I like that

Yesterday is as good as tomorrow
There will be words filled with love and sorrow
We talk, we chat, I am feeling where your at
That buzz is mine and you cannot borrow
If your part of it - flow- dance like Charro
Surrender to the feelings, breath, sigh
Get dizzah, let it flow
Energy Technician give it a go
Sway with the beat, feel the vibe
I reach out and tap your field
Fly the skies with me
Let yourself enter the energy Sea
Dip yourself in this bliss
All I can offer is an energy kiss~

tap Tap TaP
the spoon on the hot rim
sing, sing sing
TechKiss is in the kitchen
9 becomes 10
Swinging with them
Sudden grins
chop the veggies
make it good
I rock longways
I love music
Improves my mood
Singing in the kitchen
Songs stirring in the mix
Hoppin John bubbles for another 6
First play of 6's and 7's
my ears are in heaven
Lunges and squats
my kitchen workout...
You owe like Pookie
plays adds some swell
Oh fuoockie
I love this cd ..I YELL
Techn9ne rules

Head falls back with a belly quiver
I feel the mighty energy river
The relaxation of the flow returns
My body and spirit no longer yearns
I settle in the energy that comforts me
A waist high river surrounding me
Wet in wonder whirling round thee
I feel that connection, a connection worth
Head falls back as I laugh
Thought I needed a shower
but thanks for the bath ; )
I swim in it, soak it up
ahhhh at last

Now I am not sure
Because this morning is slightly a blurr
So many words all such goodness
I kinda got lost in all the worth and bliss
How can a girl like me resist?
I am dealing with seasonal allergies
And I will call that the cause
But if I stop and let myself pause
I am wondering
wondering the cause of this dizziness
Feels like something else
is not that from which I sneeze
This kind brings me to my knees
That which I want more and more
That tingle on top of my head
relaxation of body, and mind
that special kind of dizziness
The dizziness which makes me smile
Have not felt that in awhile
I smile and shake my head
I might be in trouble-over my head
Vertigo or you instead?

At this moment you must sit knowing
I have a big smile and it is showing
Long letters make my day
I love hearing what you think and hows your day
Writing on the fly as I always do
I just wanted to pop on and tell you a thing or two
First of all I like your style!
You have great flow, and are able to say-
what your thinking and feeling- all I say is YAY
Now sit there and know one thing
Your number is in my phone now you have to wait
for it to ding ; )
Enjoy that feeling..just for a few
Smile for me
and
Good Morning to you!
; )

I don't know how to to get to you~
I want pull you into me
But I don't know how to get to you
We swim in a giant sea

Finding you was hard for me
I wish I had the hook you need
I don't know how to get to you

I don't know where your at
Love to be where your at
Swimming so close to me
The person I want touching me
I don't know how to get to you
I wish I could get to you
This is a giant sea
Currents might carry you away from me
That thought scares me
I have a few insecurities

I want to be what you want
I want to tease you and to taunt
I wish I had the hook you need
I wish I knew how to get to you~
I want to make you drool
Not sure I know how to get to you

Tell me and I will make it come true

This boat is just wandering in the ocean
I have not really thought out my motions
I am too full of emotions
I act out, I rebel
Overtly coming out of my shell

I have no idea what you think of me
Swimming around in that rebel divorce sea
Showing more than I should online
Flirting with girls all the time
All the **** shopping trips
The up-skirts on the swing sets
All the people I have on my list

None of that goes with the words from my lips
Telling you your the only one I want to kiss
It is very true, I really like you
But I have no idea what your thinking
I am acting out and rebelling

I am always afraid what I am doing
has made- you run for the hills
This is true..cause I am rarely hearing an opinion from you
it is not all you of course
I have abandonment issues which feed those fears
but if you asked me to stop showing my **** I would of course
; )

motor cycle boots
heavy jeans
long sleeve Raiders sweatshirt
and as I look down I see **** ****
dressed like a boy? NO
Dressed for fun toys!
I find it ****
this rider gear
I do not need heels and a dress to win
**** lady Cheers

Goose bumps
lil lovie lumps
raising my skin up
rising to your touch
I want you so much
my skin begs
come sink within
I rise for you
with my skin~

It is now a 3 way dance
techn9ne blasting so fine
a spoon in right hand helps keep the time
dancing around with kung foo feats
left hand has the chill
ben and jerry
my after lunch thrill
we are dancing
this is true
cause these calories will not stick to me
like glue
I dance this cream off
so i do not **** up this body I dreamed of
I do squats while taking a bite
I am gonna make it inner thigh tight
You Can eat ice cream
really it is true
just eat it on the treadmill
or while dancing with the techn9ne crew~

Why did I say hi?
The SLEEP OBSESSED
caught my eyes
Because I suffer insomnia
I thought what is his secret
I want to know
Hope he can sympathize
I am a stranger interrupting
Possibly that sleep he finds obsessive
perhaps he can't find it,
or does he spend his time sleeping peacefully
While I cannot find it
I had questions about his obsession
I admit that was what made me send the questions!
Shocked that I got answers
Though now I cannot remember what they were
How can that be it is all a blur
I cannot remember his obsession my first question
It is about the humor-this is my confession!

Johnny won't tell me what he is wearing
I beg
show me your shoes
come  no one will see you
Nothing to lose
sympathize!
snap a photo
be normal like everyone else!
you won't stand out
I promise
Everyone selfies
just snap it yourself
I just want to see what your wearing from
Heathrow to Nairobi
come on tease my eyes!!!!!
I am waiting..hurry the plane is about to take off!!!
show me **** it show me
come on Johnny

Stephen showed me naked girls on cam calls me buddy this morning
****, cool!
It is alright!
I got guy friends and we tight
They won't hit on me cause..
well maybe they might
But I wont pay attention
not in my sight
we just keep chillin
Eshan says I pronounce his name better than his girlfriend
it is alright
we friends
we tight
James wants me but I keep running
he understands cause Im his buddy first
listens to me talk about Bill
Cause we tight
it is alright
Shaun be crazy, a blast and changes subject fast
kinda like me
we tight, he funny, my **** blocker
we alright, we tight
Dustin will look away before he sees me naked
cause we are friends and I ma more like a sister
It is alright, we alright
Justin is married and still we are alright
nice friends, these guys
we are all alright
Johnny Depp your ******* fine and taken
but we chat nice and funny
we alright
and you so **** tight..won't give it up
it is alright
we tight
You talk a good line
make me laugh
and listen to me whine
Yeah Johnny
we tight
Guy friends are cool
I do not worry about you falling for me or your drool
cause it is alright
we tight

Say it
I wish you would say it!
Those 3 little words I long to hear
Said loud or whispered in my ear
Words with power, making me weak
And helpless to do anything other than surrender.
I want to hear you say them
Even text them in a letter to me now
I will listen and respond
and How
Say them to me
Help me out
I want to surrender to you now
I do not want "I love you"
Too soon for that right now
All I want is 3 little words from you
To help me out
3 little powerful words

*** for me...now!

Let me go shoot some Nuns
I know where they walk after lunch
White habits on the side of the road
Smiling innocent while the wind blows
Skirts up, yes I know...
so I want to shoot that Nun show
I will mount my steed, ride with speed
Up to where the Nuns live on the mountain side
Park my bike and try to hide
And secretly shoot their skirts in the wind..
because none of this is lust or sin
it is just photography
70 degrees below the skin
They feel it I KNOW

I want to feel and enjoy not be a plot of show
or toy
Not for mass entertainment
What I am and what I express
Is a very happy blissful mess
How I get there and what I feel
is something very Real

The job looks easy and super cheezey sure
But Johnny Depp said No!
Do not be a show
Your not a *******
Go with your flow and go write that poem ; )

Thanks Johnny ; )

The Broom
A work out stick
Above the head
with a kick
Not pom poms
but even better
I dance with this
and make it much sweatEur ; )
Waist twists
firm swift shifts
shooBdoo with the techn9ne crew
fast stepping
twirling and bending
tap that tip to the floor
point it at the ceiling once more
sweep dirt? no way
personal cob webs go away
My broom is a tool
I twirl like a martial arts fool
Upper body exercise
with some attitude
a quickness
and now I smile

Relief hits
I buzz
All fixed
Restless gone
Peace beyond
Relief I sigh
No lie
Soulful cry
Relaxed am I

My lips tremble with the emotion of missing you
I go wordless waiting for a response from you
My phone rings and it is never you
The cookies wait, no address from you to send them to
How am I to know your point of view if I only get one liners
I will support you in all you do, as I said with follow through!
But my cookie is still so much wanting you
So I sigh, stay calm and I wait for you
I miss the buzz  I share with you
Buzz me BB
**** it Bill I miss you!!!

It is not the Him I miss
It is the Me of Us I miss
The Depth of My Expression
The Ability to Be so Open
I let Myself Surrender
I Miss that Karen so Tender
Bliss On so Many Levels
Bliss I Miss more than Ever
I want That Me Back
I want to simply Lean Back
Fall into a trance state
Explore My Bliss
That Depth of Me is Missed

I am being baited-heavily baited.
I have so long awaited
Hard to resist bait.
I said no, we are a no go
I wish to be in my own private Idaho
He flashes twinkling eyes
I find that shocking, sad
I empathize
Here comes the big show
I realize
It is sad because I wish it was real
Heart felt wishes
Intent with feel?
I already left you
Half baked efforts wasted
I won't fall for your spiel
I know better now
Hard to do but I chill
I walk no more on eggshells
I have a new deal

Stomp it Out
Chant Deep
Shoulder Shimmy
Reach to the Sky
Pull down a High
Flick off Negatives
Water Water Water
EARTH
Lay in a Cocoon
HUM
Rock the Body
Frankincense & Myrrh
DRUM DRUM
Sing
Shout
Dance Dance
Breath Breath
Inhale Pant
Feel that Buzz
Smile at Will
It is Most Natural
Laughs

I look at you
And I want to close my eyes
I take you in
It is no surprise
I close these lids and hold you in
Not letting one detail left behind
I hold you close
My lips vibrate as I remember yours
Little face twitches, of course
Big smile takes over my face
I sigh, breath in deep

I am shaking my head no
but I really mean YES YES YES
That is me swimming in it is all
Back and worth my mind sways
My head follows, the smile stays

I love looking at you
But I want to take you into a dark dark room
Have your way with me
Love looking at you
But want the lights off you see
I want to feel you, experience you
Swim deep in your sea

I know you understand
You know me
Just one of those things
that makes me ..Me
You can turn the light back on later
So we can stare
into We

Always my favorite day
Always mine with solitude
Playful thing
Needs time to sing
Mondays are mine
Time to unwind

Everyone knows
Call me and I hang up
Monday is mine
I love Mondays
All Mine
Pippin is full
Music is loud
Clothing is optional
Ah Monday
My dear friend
We play all day
Forget the crowds
No one is following
I am not the leader of the band
Misfits wait a day
They understand
I love you guys
but on Mondays your
banned.

WI-Fi-ght
I didn't do a ******* thing'
Why you got to seethe and spit and ****?
Its just the **** internet
Can''t you click something else?
Really you have to toss the mouse?
Tell me *******
and That cable just hit the ******* mirror you ****...
That is mine in the property split you nit wit!
Gee the internet is back on was it worth all that??
Ya ******* baby!!

I got 4 windows open
he is on every one of them
HE HOT
How can I look away
*** I melt in every way
I laugh a lot, you know why?
He is ******* hot!!!
I cannot look away~
He sends me photos
Eyes looking right at me
I told him if he sent him looking at me
I would look right back ; )
He knows what I am doing
While he is in my view
Putting on a happy face
A time or two!
I have 4 windows open
He is on every one of them
I actually blush just looking at him
; )

Little river how you flow
Buzzing between and into my toes
Humming and purring
With such flow
Always around me
watering me
helping me grow
Little bee how you buzz me
As the river
As you are both
Buzzing flowing
making yourself known
Lucky me lucky me
buzzy bee buzzy bee
I feel your flow

Bows & Arrows
Kilns & Blow Torches
Fabrics & Patterns
Bead & Bobbles
Costumes & Wigs
Books & Important Papers
Pictures of the Kids
Things I have packed up
Things that can wait
I am moving On
You are Not my Pending Fate
Bring Me More Boxes
Keep Working Late
I am still packing
As this cannot wait

Heart beating on my finger tip
Covered in new dew
Body thrusts Moans of lust
Laying here feeling you
Words held, silent in a spell
Suspended energy yells
My body quakes anew
Body slams quick thrusts quake
All it takes is thoughts of you
I come alive through and though
Emotional body unit partake
Here comes our next quake ; )

I cross my legs
Everything burns
How can I forget a single slap
paint stick fun
I am sitting on a hundred slaps
I feel my heart beating between my legs
wood stick slap time has begun
I hear your voice
Tap tap tap
DO NOT ***
what what
I am so ready
KEEP TAPPIN
I could not hide my smile
wickedness **** over and a growl
Twitches all over
and a meow
slaps get harder louder strong
Then his words
*** NOW
waves abound
lips sting
such a sweet thing
memories deeper than skin

A dozen years pass by twice
many more I keep rolling the dice
Fitting basement living in the dark
Empty bank within my heart
Ever loved never felt
conditional cards always dealt
That search for what has means
What is real treasure true
11 years invested didn't feel that with you
This your second chance
you did not even invest
No feelings given to fill me up
My bank robbed blown to hell
I find myself left empty
A shell, waiting to be filled

How lucky am I?
The question just fell out of the sky
My mouth opened and I smiled and asked
Can I kiss girls?
Yes Yes his eyes wide
Anything your heart desires My Girl
She is pretty, she is sweet
Someday I hope we meet!
Yes Yes He says
I know the perfect ONE
funny that..he picked her..
He picked the one that had me asking the question
Can I kiss Girls?
yes yes

My Body listens intently to his every word.  My mind is off.  I lay and listen.  Naked before him, safe.  I lay very relaxed listening to his voice telling me everything I ever wanted to be told over and over.  His voice so soothing and so exciting at the same time.  Love soothes, passion excites.
He repeats one word at a time til I *** to each one.  Til the words we use flow out of me like hot butter.  My head tossed back and my mouth open with sweet AHHHhs and Otts and Odds in every breath.  Wicked *** poetry word for word brought out of me by his voice.  My body opens and I surrender..over and over until we string the words together..
"I have 3 drags left on my smoke.  *** NOW".  And my body surrenders like there is not a breath to be wasted or a thought to be had.  My body so loyal is listens with such intent I *** with every command he gives.  GOOD GIRL, MY girl, Beautiful you.
He finishes his smoke.  He picks up his coffee cup and says "There is two sips left.  You *** for me before I go get more coffee".  Part of me is in disbelief.  No way can I possibly squeeze another ****** out..unbelievable..really? I do not THINK I can.
Another part so me relaxes so deeply into a trance state and gives in to total surrender and as he sips his last drops I add mine..so willingly. Ahhhhs and twitches..
I laugh, I giggle
I lay there as he goes to refill his cup.  I am in lala land and I have no desire to be anywhere else with anyone else for any reason.  This is the best ride of my life.  I am discovering such parts of myself I did not know.  My trust grows deeply, I trust him.  I surrender and will myself to him.  I am his.  I am so very owned in the best ways I never knew possible.
He is my protector, my mentor, my lover, my friend, my photography pleasure.  I love him so very deeply.
He sees that smile-of my admiration for him.  He lights another cigarette.  My anticipation for his commands grow with every drag he takes as I lay waiting for his voice to tell me to surrender once again...
I lightly touch while hearing Hunter Thomas type stories of the past.  I smile knowing I am very close to ******..my face begins twitching and he says the words I long for  *** NOW *** for ME NOW
and so it is done..