Fun or Pain?
Can we have both
Enjoy the ride
Have less lines
Ride roller coasters in the rain
I am totally game
and you know it
Cause a little sting is sorta my thing
And you know it!
So let us brave the weather
MY GIRL
Lets go get tshirts wet
and let the crowd be ******
as we get slammed
by rain drops on our shoulders
This will be fun
even without the sun
Cause we are doing it together
so nothing could be better
let us go ride roller coasters in the rain!

It does not matter what I think
It does not matter what I feel
The choice is always someone else's to make
This land I live in makes no sense
So I must vacate
I am done playing games
Being third string
Set on the sidelines
Waiting to be called in
This game is over

I am moving on
To the land of Karen
Where everything is calm
Where what I think
Dictates my day
And what I feel leads my way
I am so excited
I sigh a silent cheer
My new life is already here
; )

Any of myself with anyone
and not you
I should have never shared myself
You took everything I gave to you
But what came back?
I shake my head NO at you
I should have never shared myself with you
Any decisions I make now will have self doubt
I shared too much of myself with you
Now I am not sure what is true
Not sure where I am going
No one I am owing
When I walk away anew
I walk the line between hope and despair
For what I want with you
But those feelings are not shared by two
leaves me hurt
wishing I had not given away so much of myself
thinking
I should have never shared myself with you
I know that is my pain talking
and I would not trade you for anyone
But since your gone
I close myself up
crying
I should have never shared so much of myself
but what can I do

Back Burner Girl I am not
My fire is always burning
You cannot place me on the back burner and tend to the others
Forget about me
That **** no longer works for me

This is not all about you
I know you have things to do
but you can't just leave me to stew
I am not a good back burner girl

Being placed on the back burner scorches!
It destroys good french steel pans like me
You cannot ignore something on fire
Unattended flames rage without reason
You ain't here to stir the *** or season!
Bad chef, bad on you...
you left this *** on the back burner to stew
I am not a good back burner girl

I still feel fat most of the time
But there are times when I unwind
When I feel small and it is kind
I realize I am changing so much
Sometimes I do not realize it til I am touched
Like the way I can wrap my legs around you
The way you cup my *** cheeks in your hands
That makes my *** feel as tiny as you say it is
And that makes me laugh, feel 3 sizes smaller
And probably a good 5 inches taller
Size is a feeling
Changing within mindset
It is all good as long as my *** fits on the swing set ; )
As long as I keep moving and improving what I am working with
The feeling of my size will change in the right direction
I choose to change with positive self reflection
Without all that negative interjection
I have genuine intent to lead my way
Core strength I work on every day
Because size is a feeling I mold by the minute
And this body of mine is out to win it
So I walk with a lot of attitude, lets say
A solid size 14 at play
Until I drop another size ok?
Right now size is not a number
It is not a label in my pants
It is the attitude I wear
The ease at which I dance
Size is a feeling ; )
Very freeing
I declare

So much Joy
I am ready to start this day
The right way
Full of joy
Little things make me giggle
I find awe in rusty spots
I break for butterflies
I pull over for cloud crossings
With joy
I watch with zeal
I feel the awe
Which is what appeals
Joy spins my wheel
I close my eyes and smell the trees
I hear them swaying in the breeze
and I smile with joy
Joy leads my way
I breath in goodness
I shake my head no when I am really saying yes
I am taking it all in, softly into my chest
Joy spins my wheel
It is written on my chest