You are more beautiful
In the cold

Time just drags,
And I look at you.
Time still lags;
What can I do?

After the end of it all,
There's one thing I know:
Into the fall
It's hard to say hello.

I've never been good at love
Or loving
Or feeling anything really.
I've felt anger
More than anything else,
But I would let myself
Fall
If it meant feeling
Something more.

I yearn for love
And the simple touch
Of one hand
In mine.

Standing in the cold,
Afraid to wave,
Afraid to look.
I wish that I could
Wait in the freezing with you.
Maybe to bring warmth,
But instead I move past.
Instead I try to forget,
And I wonder,
Was there something left unsaid?

You say that you've run
I see there's no sweat
You got lost in the sun
I got lost under bed
We fall and we fall
Our hearts break in two
We scream and we cry
There's no more to do
The storm had come
But it still hasn't passed
It has destroyed our rose at last

I don't want to face you,
My eyes have their fear.
I know I'll just turn blue.
The day is so near.
I just wanted to tell you
Good luck in your light.
In the way that I loved.
There was no real fight.

Somehow in this calm,
The chaos is most beautiful.
Somehow in this song,
The ugly is the fairest.
In everyway of this joy,
The pain: the most real.
Death draws us together.
Love rips us apart.
We hate one another
Pretty, human art.

If I never saw a butterfly, I wouldn't ever have smiled.
If I never noticed a paint splatter, I never would have dreamed.
If I never saw your stripes, you wouldn't have saved me.

I lost touch with reality.
I lost myself like fatality.
Forgetting 'bout the outcome, this album stuck on repeat.
Tired of defeat, being left as the least. Out of control,
Out of my mind,
Losing games 'cause I ran outta time.
Don't matter know more.
Would you be mine?

Beautiful
Ugly
Joyous
Depressed

Things change instantly
By God
By me
By her
By something
But things change
Now I hate you
And you hate me

Life could be beautiful
Instead, I'm a kid
Child thoughts
Child feelings

A simple ticking
Born in my head
A light drum beat
Making me go mad
It calls out for me
It calls out for you
It wants something
But cannot be cured

I have a thousand books
A library in my head
Silly thoughts
Overused
Lost in a temple of stories
I speak only the story
The stories weren't written
I have 'em at home
Stories of death
Dreams that died
Just like that silly little boy I write to
Stories of loss
Loss of importance
Stories of us
The stories of myself

It's late and I'm bled dry.
All words I contained
Are within me no more.
I never wanted to lose
What made me feel important,
But now I'm just empty.
I will miss my voice,
And I wish
It will miss me too.

No, I'm not happy
I'll smile
I'll laugh
I'll look happier than everyone
But I am fear
And that's why they run
They'll see my eyes
We're all scared of something
I'm afraid to feel

I poured out my heart for you
You left me
But you left your scars on my heart
Maybe I'm broken
No matter what
I'm here
I know I'm no good om my own
But I can't stop
I made a promise not to give up

I know it's over
And I'm gone
My whole world may come undone
Let it happen
I won't see
It's nothing but a ****** dream
I know it can't be real
Awoken to a mirror
Finally, I see
Yes, here I am once more
Say it forever
I'm ugly
Again

You looked and you loved
You heard and you helped
First you walked
But later you ran
You saw a monster
And you say that you're numb
You want protection from hell
But instead you found me

There was a time that man was beautiful
In that time no pain was known
But pain is real
And it killed that time
Reality sunk in
Innocence bled
Darkness within
No light to shine in

Trying hard
Is useless

I'll never tell
The tears are dry
All air is cold
Under this sky
I've grown so old
I cannot cry
My soul is sold
Alone I'll die

I used to be sad at those lyrics,
But now it's really true.
Someone drove her around
The same streets that I did.

I trapped myself with fake situations
Creations of my mind.
Me, blinding myself with troubles I don't have. I finally figured it out. Things around me are not okay. They never really have been, and even if it can't get better. It is actually quite nice. Even if I shouldn't feel.

Tap my temple
Press my pen
Hope for something
Feel only lies
Lost my inspiration
In your eyes

People can be stupid
Foolish
You don't use love to save yourself
But you don't save yourself alone
You live and you love
You have to grab life by the horns
That's how you win
You fix things for yourself
And when the time comes
Someone will fix you with you
And you'll do the same
Love is about together
Not healing
Not even happiness
It's about together
Family
Friends
Enemies
Lovers
No matter what kind of love it is
Love is many as one
Forever

Words without meaning
They came from my mouth
Inspiration to others
Nothing to myself
I never wrote what I wanted
I wrote it for you
Memories I've haunted
I'm a needle; pull me through

I shout her name
It's far too late
She walked away
I am alone

Life has hurt
It is hurt
But life isn't about the pain
It's about healing

Fade with me, memories
No letters to tear
Nothing to ruin
Life alone
Life on the outside
Life in my heart
Love in my eyes
There is no reason to end anything
People, you are crazy
And because of your insanity
I love you

Thin little line scratched into your flesh
Each with a story
Each a failed test
Fight it off
Every relapse
Fight it off
"I don't like fighting"
I don't either
But it's do or die
And please
If there's something left
Do not choose die

Poetic tides may rise and run away.
I am buried in the words I don't say,
For the actions I don't take
Force me fake
Feelings I don't own.
I show what must be shown.

*I hope that I don't do what I did to her
To you.

I wake up and go back to sleep
Alone.

People round here
Really don't care
They smile and laugh
Nobody will look
You have to be a certain kind of special
That's it

A cold screen can bring laughter
An old dream could bring failure
Walking on and standing still
All create or maybe ****

What will we use?
What will will do?
What have we done?
How did this happen?
Is this the end?
Why are we empty?
Where have you gone?
Just tell me:
Why did you die?

Pull hearts that tear the pieces
Kick in doors of homes for robbing
We coming in like a wind that can't stop
We have the power and we got things to say
I lost it all when I played that game
So say little boy
Can you fight and try to write
Right the wrongs of your own vice?
You lost what you had and it ain't coming back
Daddy left
You can't fight that fact
You have only your pen
Only the gun
Stand and fight
Or sit and write

Sit alone
Look to the stars
Dance with with the night
Ignore your scars
Dance with the night
The screams now fade
You watch the light
Now see it love you and leave you
All in the same night

We had seven months
We went **** fast
But we took **** slow
We were broken
Beginning is the end at the end
We were for love
But we were for healing
We did what we needed
We loved and that's what we needed
I need no justification
It wasn't always the best
I won't lie about that
But even in the darkest moments
It was one hell of a ride
Even for the pain
But also the good
For everything you did
Thank you

We lost that chance
A place to go
To live a little easier
To smile
To be a family
We never have loved
But before we get our chance
We get the same thing we've all gotten too many times
"Too late"
It's okay
I will live here in Hell
I didn't expect things to get better
I find solace in that
God has destined that we don't be happy
What a silly thing
When Hell is your home

I remember the days I cried from a memory
I remember your face when I sang you a melody
I cherish these thoughts
I'll always hold them dear
Some scars are forever
But they make my heart clear
I'd rather it to hurt
Than to be forgotten
But I wonder now
Does it matter anymore?
I know that you hate me
But I still was once yours