countless others have tried to please me
not one of them has been succesful
because deep down inside
i know they were only trying to please themselves

but you
oh god here's the thing about you
you don't have to try to bring me happiness
you just do

before you
i fed on scraps of chewed up happy
bits and pieces of whatever i could possibly get my hands on
i was starving

i begged and pleaded;
give me more give me more give me
more
my hunger was never ending

i tried my damndest to be deserving
silly me should've known i wasn't the undeserving one
you taught me that

you and i
we don't need to give
or take
or bargain
just to exist together

you're my best friend (with five of the letter f)
my sidekick
always completely full of love
we're happy just to hold up each others hearts, hopes
and secret dreams that help us believe theres a better place out there than here

there are no terms and conditions
no expectations
our lives are both complex and impossible,
when we're together they're  simple and limitless

im pouring myself into you
filling the aching places of need that you've kept empty for so long
you do the same for me

you will never ever let me beg
plead
or go without what i deserve

*and suddenly i realized this truth about us

in the face of brokenness and darkness,
we all  have the magic within us to make miracles happen.
sometimes the miracle is getting out of bed and trying again.
sometimes the miracle is making it through another day.
sometimes it's simply that you stayed.

It's easy to be disappointed
In happiness