Emily

Emily Nov 2013

Odd

You taste like **** and beer
Oddly, I like it
Probably because it reminds me
Of your tainted soul
Which is the very reason
Why I love you so

Emily Nov 2013

My Guide

There have been a few
To capture my love
But never one like you
You're situated way above

There is something remarkable
About your whole composition
Mind, body, and soul
A very special edition

My whole heart beats for you
I've never wanted something more
Our precious love is long over due
You are precisely what I live for

It is impossible to neglect
The fire you ignited within me
It burns bright and takes effect
Growing bigger by a large degree

Baby, your sweet existence
Is enough to make me smile
And the fact that you share it
Makes living so worthwhile

Because life is a crazy thing
Never go away or leave my side
Kiss me and soften the sting
To happiness, you are my guide

Not my best but wrote it shortly before bed.
I love you baby.

© Peyton 2013

Emily Nov 2013

Morning Thoughts

It honestly doesn't matter
What time of day it is
But all I can think about doing
Is touching you
And kissing you
And pleasing you
There's so much I'd like to do
To your beautiful self
And your exquisite body,
Which I know I'll love
Not only because it's ****
But because I look at you
And see utter perfection
I can't believe some of the places
My mind wanders off to
But **** it really leaves me
Wanting to be on you
Your pleasure is all my own
It's been so long
Since I've had a taste
Please baby, please
Don't let it go to waste

Also day thoughts, afternoon thoughts, evening thoughts, night thoughts....

© Peyton 2013

Emily Nov 2013

Sleep

I go to bed early now
As to avoid having to sit
With my thoughts any longer
I wake up in the mornings
Already sick with emotion
That I don't even care to feel
I'm forced to go about my day
It's its own kind of torture
Then I return home
To hide myself in the covers
And take a nap
That eventually evolves
Into a tiresome night
Hour and hours pass by
My once so pleasant dreams
Have turned into nightmares
I wake up the next morning
Only to repeat the process
Over again

Goodnight.

© Peyton 2013

Emily Nov 2013

Be Gone

The past few months I’ve been living a life
Different from any life I’ve ever known
I go every day completely absorbed
In the wrong thing, the wrong person
How is it that I have been brought to here?
I wish I never would have done
What I did
Because then I wouldn’t be
Where I am
I’ve always been a lover
I’ve always known deep love
But this love, this is different
I don’t know if it is good or bad
But mostly, it brings me heartache
They say love ultimately brings happiness
Well not for me
I’ve broken people’s hearts
And I’ve had my heart broken
What about brokenness
Brings happiness?
Does anything ever last?
You don’t miss me
You miss the feelings I used to give you
No one ever showed you a love such as mine
Where did your love even go?
Mine stays sitting right here
Right in its chair
In the corner of my heart
And the crevices of my mind
Lingering and slowly fading away
I really want it to stay
But if it is just left there to be alone
It will eventually
Be gone
And I am afraid that that
Is what has already begun
To happen

I won't beg, but I feel like begging.

© Peyton 2013

Emily Nov 2013

Human

I don't have a solution for everything
I'm only human

Emily Nov 2013

Only Dark

I've been feeling a pain
That is foreign to me
I've never felt it before
It's not something I could foresee

It's nothing like a scratch
A bruise, or a cut
It's more like an everlasting
Weight in my gut

My heart, it bleeds
My stomach simultaneously aches
I am always weighed down
By what seems like a mountain of mistakes

Appears as though my actions & words
Have had an irreversible affect
While most of them are good
They don't seem to garner respect

I've hit an all time low
From the emptiness I possess
I used to feel so alive
Now life can only regress

I used to have a purpose
I've lost the thing that makes me spark
The light hurts my eyes
Because now it's only dark