The past few months I’ve been living a life
Different from any life I’ve ever known
I go every day completely absorbed
In the wrong thing, the wrong person
How is it that I have been brought to here?
I wish I never would have done
What I did
Because then I wouldn’t be
Where I am
I’ve always been a lover
I’ve always known deep love
But this love, this is different
I don’t know if it is good or bad
But mostly, it brings me heartache
They say love ultimately brings happiness
Well not for me
I’ve broken people’s hearts
And I’ve had my heart broken
What about brokenness
Brings happiness?
Does anything ever last?
You don’t miss me
You miss the feelings I used to give you
No one ever showed you a love such as mine
Where did your love even go?
Mine stays sitting right here
Right in its chair
In the corner of my heart
And the crevices of my mind
Lingering and slowly fading away
I really want it to stay
But if it is just left there to be alone
It will eventually
Be gone
And I am afraid that that
Is what has already begun
To happen