Making love
is the city of ruin.
The worst kind of fog
captures it,
a fog where the streetlights
are not pushing out
light
into the right places.
Light falls only on the glossy mercedes
and it's rims
full of hope and wealth.
The skyscrapers
reach the sky
and finger the underbelly
of an afterlife,
as if there is something to look
forward
to.
The buses
transport
souls
and
promise,
or seem too.
But this is all a lie,
the lights only create light,
darkness grows,
the skyscrapers touch the sky,
yes,
but they don't know a thing
about goodness,
and the buses are full
of
hopelessness.
But when we make love,
it is like
we are only looking for the good things
in the city
as we get robbed blind.
When I touch your belly button,
I can feel your heart in your stomach,
so low and so unwanting
that it dropped
to a place of digestion,
of eating what we had
and ******* it out.
It is ok to realize
this untruth
late in the game,
it is wrong to continue
when we know of the untruth,
and that is what we are doing,
that's why I hate
you
and still *******.
I love the city,
in its ruinous returns
I keep fooling myself
into thinking
this is the best thing that's ever happened
to me.
Your ***** must be the greatest,
because I'll never leave
even when we call making love
a city of hope
when we ****
and it's a dystopia
of
destruction.