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Once, I used to wait up all night
To talk to you
And we'd talk alright
And we'd mend ourselves.

Once, I used to pride myself in
Saying you were mine
And you would nod and agree
And we were mending ourselves.

Once, I left
And you left
And we tried so, so hard to keep it
But we knew we were losing it
Inside, we knew
But neither of us said what we were fearing
We just mended ourselves.

Once, I left
And I changed.
And I was so afraid you weren't
Going to love this new me
So I avoided you like the rain does the Sahara
And I mended myself.

Now I feel so guilty!
Because I know you're hurting
And I can't help but
Want to talk to you but
I can't do it, I can't do it, I can't
Do it

I can't talk to you.
And don't you dare think that
I don't feel guilty
Because trust me I can see your
Messages
IM's
Notifications
And I have to sit there and
Watch them go off!
But I can't talk to you.

Because I was scared
And now
I'm cold.
 Apr 2013 Megan Hoagland
Aurora
I turn to leave
You grab my arm sleeve

I tell you I dont want to do this anymore
collapsing on the floor

You sit down beside me
to share with me, your love

Undeniably I know what I say isnt true
I dont know if I could possibly live without you

Your love is different than any before
I wonder how long we will love each other for.

I would hope for many years to come
but when I look in your eyes I feel we might be coming undone.

Your voice is hushed
soothing and calm

The words you choose are the right ones
as if you know just what to say
hoping that we will never go away
Loving a player is not the same
For love is real and not a game

After he left She Was Never The Same
Though he never cared so he went and he came

She became an artist to handle her shame
Her easle a wrist and her paintbrush a blade

He never found out of all her pain
until to him
was done
The Same
A blank page
waiting to be filled
with the words of love, hope and glory
life takes hold
changes the direction
with words of hate pain and anger
emotion
what we feel
makes us human
to live is to feel
to feel is to love
to love is to be
to be is to know
that life is a pain
is a a whirlwind
that sweeps you off your feet
depoisitng you in the midst of a life unstarted
a situation beyond control
so live
love
hope
feel
Be all that there is to be
Live all there is to live
take all of what there is to take
give all of yourself
to each moment
to each minute
to each and every second
Live.
Show me the monster that controls you if you can.
I want to ask him if he really knows you, who you've been.
Who you are is not who you want to be.
I can see it in your eyes when the monster goes to sleep.
He sleeps so silently, and you act as though you're mourning in his absense.
You look so sad but strangely I enjoy your lonesome presence.
Are you scared he won't wake up and you'll be left alone?
Like a soldiers wife who's soldier never had the chance to return home.
I'll be here to love you, like I still do, when he leaves,
and I'll keep reminding you 'til I see a face that believes me.
I miss you and I miss your bright, ***** smile.
I miss the way you laughed like you were just a small child.
I miss the way you smiled back in those days,
Back when the monster had no control of your ways.
The monster in this represents my father's alcohol and drug addiction.
Such beauty in a simple smile, has she
More beauty than I ever imagined could be
Angels must weep in awe at sight of her
Radiance beyond anything even they remember
Gloriously divine, her spirit, and amazingly free

My spirit soars at sight of her smile
My heart racing as if I'd run a mile
Tender words of praise come to mind
Describing what is obviously one of a kind
An effort that, I believe, is definitely worthwhile

Her musical laughter makes me so bold
From my approach to the words that unfold
And her blushes fair take my breath away
I could admire them, each and every day
My arms ache, for her they wish to hold

So very much I want her to see
How special she has become to me
From her laughter to her smiling eyes
I have now come to fully realize
This is what beauty is supposed to be

I look forward to the days I can see her
The days I cannot seem to last forever
Then she's there and my worries disappear
As always happens when she comes near
Hope shining brightly when we're together

She has become my inspiration, my muse
Making it easy finding the right words to use
To express the beauty of her eternal soul
And why winning her has become my goal
To show her, beyond doubt, I am the man to choose
I think I’m going to leave you
I let those words slowly slip out of my mouth
I think I’m going to leave you
I can’t believe I just thought that
I think I’m going to leave you
Just apologize and I’ll forgive you
I think I’m going to leave you
You don’t walk away because I tell you to
I might not leave you
I love being with you
No, I won’t leave you
But you ***** up so much
Yes, I have to leave you
I deserve so much more
Do I have the power to leave you?
….
I don’t know anymore
I was in love with anatomy
the symmetry of my body
poised for flight,
the heights it would take
over parents, lovers, a keen
riding over truth and detail.
I thought growing up would be
this rising from everything
old and earthly,
not these faltering steps out the door
every day, then back again.
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