Once, I used to wait up all night
To talk to you
And we'd talk alright
And we'd mend ourselves.

Once, I used to pride myself in
Saying you were mine
And you would nod and agree
And we were mending ourselves.

Once, I left
And you left
And we tried so, so hard to keep it
But we knew we were losing it
Inside, we knew
But neither of us said what we were fearing
We just mended ourselves.

Once, I left
And I changed.
And I was so afraid you weren't
Going to love this new me
So I avoided you like the rain does the Sahara
And I mended myself.

Now I feel so guilty!
Because I know you're hurting
And I can't help but
Want to talk to you but
I can't do it, I can't do it, I can't
Do it

I can't talk to you.
And don't you dare think that
I don't feel guilty
Because trust me I can see your
Messages
IM's
Notifications
And I have to sit there and
Watch them go off!
But I can't talk to you.

Because I was scared
And now
I'm cold.

Loving a player is not the same
For love is real and not a game

After he left She Was Never The Same
Though he never cared so he went and he came

She became an artist to handle her shame
Her easle a wrist and her paintbrush a blade

He never found out of all her pain
until to him
was done
The Same

A blank page
waiting to be filled
with the words of love, hope and glory
life takes hold
changes the direction
with words of hate pain and anger
emotion
what we feel
makes us human
to live is to feel
to feel is to love
to love is to be
to be is to know
that life is a pain
is a a whirlwind
that sweeps you off your feet
depoisitng you in the midst of a life unstarted
a situation beyond control
so live
love
hope
feel
Be all that there is to be
Live all there is to live
take all of what there is to take
give all of yourself
to each moment
to each minute
to each and every second
Live.

Such beauty in a simple smile, has she
More beauty than I ever imagined could be
Angels must weep in awe at sight of her
Radiance beyond anything even they remember
Gloriously divine, her spirit, and amazingly free

My spirit soars at sight of her smile
My heart racing as if I'd run a mile
Tender words of praise come to mind
Describing what is obviously one of a kind
An effort that, I believe, is definitely worthwhile

Her musical laughter makes me so bold
From my approach to the words that unfold
And her blushes fair take my breath away
I could admire them, each and every day
My arms ache, for her they wish to hold

So very much I want her to see
How special she has become to me
From her laughter to her smiling eyes
I have now come to fully realize
This is what beauty is supposed to be

I look forward to the days I can see her
The days I cannot seem to last forever
Then she's there and my worries disappear
As always happens when she comes near
Hope shining brightly when we're together

She has become my inspiration, my muse
Making it easy finding the right words to use
To express the beauty of her eternal soul
And why winning her has become my goal
To show her, beyond doubt, I am the man to choose

I was in love with anatomy
the symmetry of my body
poised for flight,
the heights it would take
over parents, lovers, a keen
riding over truth and detail.
I thought growing up would be
this rising from everything
old and earthly,
not these faltering steps out the door
every day, then back again.