Quilt on the laundry lines,
Sheets and blankets too
Running through it all,
Playing games,
Racing...

Oh the magic!
Laundry lines make a mystical land!

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Eyes like flowers,
Peeking through the empty holes of your eye sockets

Remind me again,
Who said death was ugly?

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I'm in my bed
I wish I was in yours

I'm wearing my old sweatshirt
I wish I was wearing yours

I'm under my covers
I wish I was under yours

I'm eating my chips
I wish I was eating yours

So you see, my problem
Is the absence of you
And how you could make hell my home

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I am cold.

And all I wish is to crawl into a bed with you.
It does not matter to me if the bed is warm
We can heat it with our love,
Blazing hot/

I am cold.

And all I wish for is you.

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I think you must have
Painted yourself
On the inside of my
Eyelids
Because when
I close my
Eyes, eyes, eyes
You're all that
I can see
And how can I
Ever hope
To escape
You
When you're stuck
In my brain
Latched,
Latched on,
Like a magnet
You've pinned me
Down
And I can't get
Away
From you
So, please,
Either set me
Free, or just
**** me
I can't take
Anymore of this

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I've never been as infatuated with someone's hands
As I am with yours

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I do not know what I feel for you
Sometimes I feel
As though my heart might burst
And my soul will shine through my eyes
I will fall to the ground
And your name will pass through my lips
Lips that still have not felt yours yet

I have spent so much time looking at you
Every inch of you I have memorized
Every inch I have yet to touch

If you asked me I would tell you
How many freckles you have on your lips
And how you smile when I make you laugh

But I would be silent-mouthed
If you asked me what I felt for you
I do not know

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Paroxysms of emotion
Shake shake shake
Sha-
SHAKING
Out of my brain,
Trembling down my arm,
Ballroom dancing it's way into my pen,
And finally,
Exploding into ballet across these pages,
Pirouetting, spinning,
Filling with emotion these blind, blank bits of paper
They tell me what I am,
What I am made of

I quite like it,
Discovering myself

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I don't know why I write
Perhaps it is because I cannot

Sing
Dance
Sculpt
Paint
Film

But I can spill out my soul onto these pages
Written in ink as rich as my blood
And I can spin these tales
From the depths of my heart I deliver these words to you
And I can do nothing but hope
That you will understand
Why I am the way I am

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Currently,
I find that
All I want
Is to roll over
And drape my arm around you

I can practically see the sunlight around us,
Lighting up the dust motes in the air
The birds are loudly chirping;
They awakened us from our slumber

If only life was as good as my imagination

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The kitchen light,
It glares harshly over my shoulder
And I,
I can't help

But picture
The world
In the harshest terms

What are we deserving of,
Truly?

I think...
Nothing

We are not worthy

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This grey patina covering the windows, it
Obscures my view the slightest bit
And I can't help but wonder
What Small Things am I missing?
Now that my perspective is skewed
The
Tiniest bit,
What am I missing now that I would have
Seen before?

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I am on my bed
I am not on yours

I am alone
I am not with you

I am on my side of my bed
I am not on my side of yours

I have all the sheets
I am not squabbling over them with you

It is pitch black when I go to bed
There is no light from you checking your phone

When I wake up I will see my pillow
I will not see your hair nor smell it

I am not with you

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The snow sits softly on the trees,
A pure and
Pleasant sight.

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Sometimes I think that
I have a sadness
That will never leave my bones
It will whittle down to almost nothing
But only almost,
Never truly gone.

I wish to shed this body and move on from this corporeal plane
May I have new flesh and blood?
Some less melancholy bones?
I think I've been through quite enough,
Thank you

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You have the
Most angelic touch I've ever known
I can only imagine
Your feather-light kisses
Trailing down my neck
And your fingertips
Tracing,
Tracing,
Their way down my stomach

However, unlike angels,
You are real

(I almost can't believe you are)

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If I could give you the happiness you deserve
I'd do it without hesitation

But
I
Can't

So here I stand
With my heart in my hands
And nothing to show for it all

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I may not be good at drawing
So the best I can manage is this,
Painting a picture of my heart with these words,
Hoping you can spot the different colors,
Picking out the details
Sometimes my pictures are cold and blue
Sometimes they're red hot
They used to be completely grey
But now they burst with color
So here you go, my dear
Snapshots of my heart, mind, and soul
I hope you like them

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We may not talk a lot,
But I just want you to know,
That you are,
Always
Tucked away in the back of my heart
In a small, cozy room,
With a fireplace and a comfy armchair

You and safe and happy in my heart
I can only hope you are like that out of it

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Verdant green blooms,
Exploding in the trees like fireworks

The sun ripples through the leaves,
Leaving hope shining on the ground

Mossy rocks calmly face away from the forest,
Protecting and guarding all from threats

And
The flowers,
Bursting out of the ground,
Little shocks of color
They say, "Hey! Here I am!"
Calling for attention,
The adulation of the masses,
A celebrity on the red carpet,
Flaunting their best

The forest is full of so  much life,
Bursting at the seams with stories to tell,
Watching,
And waiting.
Waiting for a listener,
So they may describe the wonder of life,
And
The Beauty.

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I can think of nothing besides:
You, me, a truck bed, and the stars,
Glittering with the light of millions of years, tears,
Filling the sky with the souls of a billion lovers.

Maybe one day we can be up there too
Maybe one day our love can be on display for all the world to see.

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I graduate high school in four days, and
There's so much I haven't done or said
And I wonder
Is it because I never got the chance?
Or did I just miss it because I was waiting for the "perfect time"?

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It hasn't rained in so long

And as I hear the pitter-patter
On my roof

I can just imagine the
Heavy droplets falling,
Water rushing,
Nourishing the new plants

Life-giving water
Raining from the heavens

I am so thankful

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The gradient of the sky, it
Makes my heart ache
Just the teeniest bit

White to blue.
Pure to sad.
Purely sad.

Too many of us are.

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I've been taking in so much of you
This weekend
And, god,
I'm totally *******.

Everything you do captivates me
And I'd gladly watch you for hours

I'm so tired I can barely think
And you are all that fills my mind.

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"We are the sum of our past experiences"
If this is true,
Then:
You are where I picked up my walk
You are the source of my jokes
You are the wave I use
You are how I write my 4's
You are how I stretch after a long nap
You are the way that I sing,
Low, Whispery, rasping away at the song

But soon I fear I'll forget you all
And with you, the things you taught me
So question is,
Who will I be then?

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Write out the fuckery,
The anger,
The hate,
Breathe in understanding,
Love,
Freedom,
And then you will find
That
You
Are
...
Freed
You are you,
You are here,
You are now,
And you Will Not Change,
No matter what They might want
So what are you waiting for?
Write
And be

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Tonight is a night
For cheap cigarettes and cheaper whiskey
For getting mad at your parents
Who never taught you to love yourself
For letting those thoughts run through your head that
You'd never even consider if you were sober
For sitting in the cold and letting yourself freeze because
You deserve it

Tonight is a night for angry faces and angrier thoughts
For wallowing in self-pity

Tonight
Is a night
To be weak

Because when morning comes
You'll pretend it never happened

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I can't sleep
Because once again,
You are on my mind,
Invading every corner and space
I just can't get a moment to myself,
Can I?

Can I?

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All I can do
Is lay in bed and think of you.

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I don't know if it's just because I'm tired
But I am
So
Sad

I want to run away with you and kiss your wrists
And run my hands up your stomach,
Circling my fingers around your navel

I want you to sit between my legs, letting me braid your beautiful hair
And putting soft kisses on your neck

I wish we had a secret room
-Just us, nothing else

But you don't even know how you light up my eyes

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As the old man Sun caressed my face,
I felt his wizened old hands as he traces lines down my jaw and chin,
The tuppity-tap-tap of him drumming a beat on my throat
And I felt
The warmth of his rays, of him
His love for me and all beings,
Filling us with his warmth and letting us know
You Are Not Alone,
Even if you have nobody else
You will still have me,
And my rays,
Reaching you from miles and miles away

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The daffodils are sprouting,
So much color in the ground!
The birds are singing sweetly,
And as I look around,
I see color everywhere,
And I hear it too - the sound
Of birds
And bees
And trees,
Far, far off the ground

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After the game,
As we walked into the locker room,
I saw the tears running down your face
And I wanted nothing more than to wipe them away
However, I knew that if I did
I'd cup your face and want to kiss you
So I did
Nothing
And continued walking as my heart ripped

I should be used to that by now

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Don't use god as an excuse for laziness,
God isn't gonna hand you ****
Life is what
You
Make of it,
So that means that, sadly,
God won't give you everything you want

Work for that ****.
Humans are capable of some pretty amazing things.

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They say nothing good happens after 2 AM
But the dream leaving my lips
Tasted sweet as honey, it tasted of you
And though I have not kissed you yet
I am sure it would be sweeter than honey

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My room smells like alcohol and longing

Two things that really don't go well together

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Aren't I a little too young
To be drowning myself in a liquor bottle?

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Ah,
My melancholy heart.
Running away from me again,
As it has.

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I think it's me that breaks my heart,
Not other people

So instead of doing something about it,
I'm
Going to sit here and
Smoke cigarettes

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I don't think any amount of alcohol could
Make me forget what you've done to me
You've ruined me
I can't trust I can't call people my best friend I can barely call them a friend to begin with
WHY
DID
YOU
DO
THIS
TO
ME
I
NEVER
ASKED
FOR
THIS
ALL I EVER WANTED WAS A FRIEND
I NEVER MEANT TO FALL IN LOVE

God I'd do anything I take it all back I swear just please don't ruin me like this, so silently and cruelly what did I do to deserve this

There's a scream building in my throat but I won't let it out I swear I'll never let anyone know I'll never let anyone in again I'm ruined I'm broken I might as well join the army now I need to get away

Please talk to me tell me you HATE ME I DON'T CARE I JUST NEED TO KNOW WHAT I
DID
WRONG

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I went outside to look at the stars
I went out, boldly, unafraid
And then I thought
"How nice it would be to kiss you underneath this blanket of stars, this pillow of night holding us up"
And then I realized
You were not there
Suddenly I was aware of the dark and the terrors it held
And I went back inside, alone

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You seem to be stuck on my brain
Because
It's hard to take a test
When all I can think about
Is your head between my legs
And I can't focus on my homework
When I can practically feel your fingers drawing lines down my body
And I don't even know concentration
When all my mind see
Is you underneath me
Whispering prayers
Because, ****
What we could make is magic
It's all I can think about

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I want to write you a letter
But what am I to say?
That I fall in love a little more, each and every day?
That your beauty, beyond comprehension,
Could push the sun out the way?

I do not have a clue how to tell you
That I don't even know what to tell you
That I fall for you more every day

And I may be going in circles
But I don't even know what to say
Except that I'm falling more
Each and every day

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Rippling waves returning to the shore,
Time and again,
Always coming back,
Moving under the sweet summer sun

The ferns are unfurled,
Giving the ground a scent of mystery
What could be hiding under them?

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Sunlight shining softly
No tears around
Just some dew
Gently glistening
On the ground

And here are we,
Heroes, all
Standing,
Happy,
Healthy,
And with wide awake hearts.

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I used to have the husk of a seed inside me,
Badly in need of water and sun
And gradually,
Over time,
I watered it
And nourished it
I turned it towards the sun

And god, life is so
Beautiful

First it sprouted,
A tiny little green head poking up through the dead dirt
And it grew
And grew
And grew

And finally,
Look at me now,
I have vines running down my legs and arms,
Sprouting flowers of all colors
Red, bright pink, gentle yellow,
And -oh,
the vines wrapped around my ribs,
Sprouting out me eyes, ears, nose, and mouth
I'm just filled with happiness
-And Life
This is life, this green feeling in my body
...Sprouting flowers, not thorns

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It's way past my bedtime
But I really don't care
I bet a hundred years from now
I'll still be here
Waiting...
Waiting...
Waiting...
For you to reply to me
I don't care though, honest
Because I think you're worth it
Even if I only get a snap of your couch,
Instead of your beautiful face

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My hands are ******* shaking like a ******
I wish I just had one last final taste,
Something bittersweet to send me off before we never talk again

God, I'm so sorry.
If I could take it all back I would.

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I often ask myself why

Why must flowers die in the Winter?
Why am I so cruel?
Why can I not be who I am?

But most of all I want to know
Why
You do not love me back

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