There is nothing but blue
As far as I can see.

Blue skies,
Blue ice,
Blue birds.

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Sometimes I just get so ****
Sad
That even breathing feels melancholy
And my limbs grow too heavy to move

I just want to sleep my heavy feelings away
And forget I even exist
Because sometimes
It's just too **** painful to be alive

And there's so much
Good in the world,
Believe me, I know,
But there's just
So much concrete in my
Lungs Sometimes I want to stop

Breathing.

In and
Out.
On repeat.

I need some sleep.

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I think there's something special in the way you say hi to someone you truly have a connection with. "Hi." "I see you. My heart sees your heart." It's like a recognition of the souls. In a chaotic day, a simple "hi" can slow everything down and make everything so much simpler and easy to see. "Hi." "I love you." It's hard to explain, but to me it's like an embrace within a greeting. A word-hug. And I truly love it.

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When I saw it was 11:11
I rushed to make a wish
And what I wished for it:

You

Just you

And I know that wishes don't come true
And I know that I'll never get you

But hey,
A girl has to hope, right?

Right?

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You wrapped your arms around my waist
And I could have stayed there forever

I think I swallowed my tongue
Because I could only hum at whatever you were saying

And it's a good thing you were holding on so tight
Because my knees almost buckled

The only thing I would have changed
Would be your lips on my neck instead of wherever they were,
Which was too far away for my tastes

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Junior Prom
For me, it's a time of sad excitement
Because,
While other girls have their boyfriend
And their night is going to be a
Fairytale
I'm going to be dancing my heart away,
Wishing it was dancing next to yours
You've got me crazy, girl
And sure,
Boys are nice and all,
But
They really don't compare
To
You

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Cold, clawed hands
       Gasping,
Reaching,

Tearing me

Apart




I'm drowning

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I have bags under my eyes
I don't know why

I mean, sure, it's harder to sleep when you're not in my bed anymore,
And nobody tells me "goodnight" now,
And there's no more kisses on my eyelids
And
And
And...
I miss you

I'm cold and lonely and oh so sad
And a pillow just isn't the same as hearing your heart and lungs

Oh well
I've always loved watching the stars

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I've been thinking a lot lately,
About growing up
And what I know is this:
I don't want to grow old
Not
One
Bit

But

I imagine, that
Growing up
(Growing old)
Even though you're creaky,
And some things don't really work all too well
(Like they used to)
You have so much in you,
Hundreds of memories
Thousands of tidbits of knowledge
All accumulated over the years

So sure, I don't want to be old and creaky
But I don't think that I'd mind
Being full of wisdom

It'd be a nice change,
That's for **** sure

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I put on some water just now,
To make tea
And I thought
Of the day when you brought me hot chocolate
I can't believe I ever forgot that
You do the smallest nice things,
Or I guess you did
Because we're not friends anymore
But you did the smallest nice things
So small that one could easily miss them
And I,
I miss them
I miss you
So much

I'd like to bring you tea on Monday
But unfortunately we can't even look at each other

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I went for a walk just now,
And holy  ****,
I cannot get you out of my head
I kept imagining how we'd bump together and jump apart,
Blushing furiously and mumbling half-hearted apologies
And how I'd lean over and kiss your:
Frost-kissed cheeks,
Your elegant nose,
Your long, pianist fingers
(Oh how I wish you'd play me a melody)

You'd chase away the dark and its beasts

But alas
I had nothing to comfort me,
Save some naive wishes and long-dead hopes

Maybe the dark is the truth,
And I'm meant to be alone

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Too busy for
Love?
I-
I never thought I'd say that about myself.

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Skeletal fingers
Reaching towards the sky
Wishing, hoping, wanting
For just a drop
Of water

They plead and beg
But nothing will come
Of it

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As I brushed the snow off our car,
Like peeling a blanket back from a sleeping world,
I wondered
Aren't we still supposed to be asleep?
Mother Nature still has not woken
Should we not follow her lead
And keep our heads under pillows of snow
Until the Sun shakes us from our slumber?

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We're like the planets, you and I
Our orbits bringing us closer, closer,
So close,
But we never touch
Instead we skate on by each other,
Lingering glances and low whispers flung about

I'd love to have you
Even if it meant us crashing into each other and being destroyed,
That moment of pure ecstasy, I think,
Would be worth it

But alas,
We're like the Sun and the Moon,
Fated never to touch

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Long lay the world
In sin and error, pining
Till you appeared
And my soul felt its worth





There's not much more to say
Than
That

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I guess
I can take solace in the fact that
Nobody else can *******
Like I can

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I have a feeling
Your and my destinies,
Intertwined,
In some part of the future

A...
Feeling?
Who
Knows

You and me, B.

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I can feel the heartbeat of the tree,
Gentle, soft,
Contrasting with mine
Harsh, unyielding.

Ah,
To be so
Green and simple!

Pleasantly strong,
A wonder to all,
And achingly, simply,
Happy

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Raindrops falling
Dark receding
Here comes hope,
In the guise of the Sun,
Riding a new day

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I am sure you taste sweeter than the apple slice you're eating

I wish I could find out

May I taste your lips, dear?

I promise I'll be gentle

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Little red fingers
Atop little red hands
Adorning little red arms
Poking through the leaves
What are they reaching for?

Whatever it is, I wish them luck

We all reach for something, but how many of us
Actually get it?

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These lights in my brother's room,
Multicolored,
Blinking,
They seem to be mocking me
These lights are brighter than my future
At least if I continue on this way

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Your face,
More gentle than how the trees touch the water
How you move,
More graceful than the dance of branches in the wind
Your laugh,
Bubbling forth more peacefully than a stream

Nature is so beautiful
And it has captured my heart
But you just about

Have it beat

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They say you fall in love an average of eight times
Before you find one that
sticks
I'm only seventeen years old
And I'm on my way to my fifth
So my question is this
Does it count
If they never loved you back?
Or even knew?
Because,
At this rate,
I'm gonna find one that sticks
And they'll never even know
So,
If that's really true,
Then I'd like to turn off my heart,
Please.
It's really quite unhelpful
And I don't want it anymore

Please

I'm begging you

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Hands.
Hands.
Hands Hands Hands

They are what makes us, us.
It's how we write,
Type,
Drive,
Operate,
Cook,
Prepare,
Build,
Destroy,
Love.­

They are how we navigate this life
And they tell a wonderful story,
With creases, callouses, cuts and scars,
They are beautiful
And I am so thankful

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I write a lot about the sun
I suppose it's my god, in a way
Some people worship Jesus, some Allah,
But me,
I am a person of the sun and its life-giving rays
For me,
The sun stands for:
Hope, change, love, life...
All
It's a symbol of my rebirth
And how life,
It goes on,
No matter how dark and bleak it gets
I'm eternally grateful for the sun

My Sun

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A cool walk in the fading sun,
nothing but the
Scratch of my boots on the ice

Life can be so
...Solitarily uncomplicated

I wish it was like that more

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The sun warms my face,
Almost as hot as I imagine your touches to be.

You and the sun seem
To be in a direct competition.

I worship you both,
And you're both so
Impossibly Bright.

Sophia the Sun.

It sounds perfect.

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Just thinking of you,
And the light shining out of your face

You are just too sunny
For a sad soul like
Me

Maybe if I go to bed now
I'll brighten with the rising sun.

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I want to walk through the city with you,
Two drops in an ocean.
Anonymous.

Just you and I in a million

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Such fleeting moments
Can cast such powerful emotions

Will we ever meet again?

I sure hope so.

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"Dream of better days...!"

I
Shall
Dream of you,
Then.

And me.




Us.
Together.

Oh, how I wish!

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Dear Creator,
I thank you for the days you've gifted me
I thank you for the lesson I have learned,
The lessons I'm learning,
And the lessons I will learn.
Thank you for all I have yet to come
Thank you for the push I needed
But truly, thank  you
For you have shown me the path,
And I enjoy it so
I don't know where I'm going,
And I don't know if you'll always be there
But I do know one thing:
You were there when I needed you most

I've never prayed before
And my words may confuse you,
But I promise I'm trying

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The rocks on the shoreline.

Do they keep the land from the lake,
Or the lake from the land?

A precarious existence,
       Perhaps.

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I don't know where I'm drifting
But I honestly don't mind
As long as I
Find
What I'm looking for:
The strength
To be
Kind

(It's hard when you're big and tall and strong and hurt)

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God,
I just want to fall
So hopelessly in love

Sleeping in each other's arms,
Whispered nothings,
Small kisses,
And pure happiness

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Sometimes my joints ache so  much

And, I think,
Nothing could heal them
Quite like you

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Coffee breath
Sad, old man
So drearily boring
I want to know his hidden depths

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You have galaxies inside you and I just have a few small worlds

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It doesn't hurt anymore,
Like a wound that has finally healed
And left nothing but an unpleasant scar,
Something that, when scratched, still slightly aches

It feels so good to not hurt day in and day out.

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Have you ever had an idea
Where it sits
And sits
And sits
In your bones, marinating for so long,
That if somebody snapped your bones and ****** out all the marrow
They would most likely absorb the essence of your being, as well as that idea
That idea, which was so strong as to tattoo itself onto your support structure
Would now be in them

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You make flowers grow in my chest
Where once there was just heaviness

And you make the sun shine out of my eyes
Where once there were only clouds

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Your lips look so inviting
More than a tall glass of lemonade,
More than a cold shower after a run,
More than a pile of leaves in the fall

How I wish I could just
Dive right in!

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Rough bark
Feels strong
Long high branches
They tell a story
I wonder what it is
Is it happy or sad? Would
It make me joyful or mad?
Is it a story for the ages,
And if so,
How many
Pages
Would it fill?

So many trees
So many pages

I should like to read them
All

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The wind has died
And my heart along with it

The leaves will fall soon
And my head along with them

The flowers will turn brown and brittle
And my spine along with them

Ice will cover the water
And my soul along with it

Because a broken heart
Kills you slowly

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You told me you didn't want to be friends
Anymore because of the poems I wrote about
You and I just think it's ******* hilarious
That I'm still writing them about you.

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I may be a bit drunk
But I can't stop
Thinking of you
I wonder what that means
Do I love you?
Perhaps?
Do I just like you?
Perhaps
Do I know which?
Sadly, no

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I have
Decided
That
You will cut my hair this summer

I

I wish to have your lightness touch me,
And maybe I'll be lucky enough to
Capture some of it
Forever

Some of your brightness of the sun
In my
Dark
Brown
Hair.

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I am red
My color is red
My pants are red
My shirt is too
My pen is red
My lifeblood too
Love is red
Hatred too
Birth is red
Death is too
So it would seem to me, then,
That red is the color of life

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