A sleep
of thousand years or more
in warmth and stars and light
and before
night
was there-

A sleep so gentle
and so genuine

And yet such a huge
happiness
inside my heart
when you came here
and woke me up
to play-

How you said
take your headphones off
and how we walked
then ran
then jumped and laughed
so much-

And how I showed you
that just with a soft
and careful touch
you wake a sleeping flower
and make a million colours
reappear.

Who are you when you are
stripped of your
relationships
appearance habits
sports and hobbies
tricks
hits and
unpredictable blinks of the eye
dye your hair
it won't last

who are you
still
if every fast move you make
only ends
in vast
nothingness

who are you
when
everything comes to
a standstill
when every
single
story
you have told yourself and they have told
you comes to be unraveled and
dissolves

who are you
still
when everything you have known for
decades and longer
every pattern
every language
every person
every past and future tale and
fairytale
becomes
a fairytale at last and

who are you when
the vast
high waves
crush over your head and soak
you fully
through the bones
and

who are you

when the waters have
calmed down and
you perceive

the space

Bending holding up
Time as you know it
My hand Clinging
To the minute hand the hour hand
Slow
It
down
We're in it
We're in it
Now
Not tomorrow

There's a woman sitting
on a chair in the garden thinking
is that all right are things
really going
alright thinking
there's a boy squatting
in the grass in the backyard not kicking
the football thinking
is this all going well is it
okay that way thinking
there's a girl looking
at the corn flower not moving thinking
is everything really how it should be are things
going how they should thinking
there's an old man pausing on his  daily walk squinting
into the last rays of sunlight thinking well if this is
alright and fine thinking
     there's a baby popping out of
a mother
not thinking already
loving all that offers
itself in this place already sensing
this is going to be
a hell of an adventure sensing
     somewhere an old man
suddenly feels
an impulse to keep
walking
A boy slaps his own thighs gets up howls
into the evening light kicking
a ball a woman letting out
a breath she was holding lifting
her can to water
the flowers a girl
sets herself back
into motion
a smile on the face somewhere
in space a green planet
has gained new
confidence

Braided hair around
her elegant head
she knows her feet well knows
her steps but does not care
so much cares more about
her music
her whole body
in unconditional agreement
amplifying
her Song

What you call
imagination, Dear
I simply call it
memory

My whole system refuses
categories
at this point

refuses
to opt
am I even
a girl or not

your whole system
embraces
all possible choices
within

You're ready, you say, oddly proud
take
my face in your hands before you draw
ceremonially
two lines with *******, two lines of white on each of my cheeks, nodding earnestly
smiling ever so warmly as if saying
I'll be only a few steps behind, if not closer for now
all the time
my eyes ask of you
all the time yes all the time your presence
answers, reassures
and I detach
not detach
and take a step forward into the snow
the cold where I can see my breath forming clouds
and it is not cold at all
it is not cold

Nobody said this would
be an easy ride
nobody said so  
and yet
you're here
touch the water
dear, and let yourself
immerse

A kid leaves home and walks
Through fields of borrowed dreams
It crosses streams of sorrow
roads of hope and joy
Of talks about tomorrow
Hits its way right through brick and grass
And leaves
And feels before it sees
Warm hands beneath the shoulder blades,
Then understands:
You NEVER walk alone.

From that point on
Each step
is leading home.

On her penultimate breath she
pulls out the shiny
new old card in her deck which reads
I am sovereign
holding it up to show
to trigger
another kind of
mass-effect

a voice makes the desert trees shake
and sand curl around your navel
in an airy breeze
caressing the relief outline of the Wakhan mountains
on your skin
the hot core within tranquil
this is
a night of peace
the stars' sincere presence
as soothing as ever

Tugging tirelessly
at your sleeve tapping
on your shoulder knee
heart
the beat that keeps
repeating
grow
through it grow
break
the limitation

It feels worthwhile now
Dear
to not fear
open doors and
windows

It feels
worthwhile to let
the

Sun

shine

in