Propelling
itself
joyfully through
the Space around
colliding
and spinning to dance
all the way thinking
You did not give me
agency
singing
and laughing to
itself when
the next
new
wave
meets its path
to cancel out
all that
seemed paradox
You did not need
to give me
agency
the Photon sings
while travelling
along its
chosen path

Forehead to
pointy forehead you
swim in the
cloudy
cold water with
the giant
showing his
gentleness
against all odds

What a
Sick thing climbing
Up and out
Never to return again cause it's
Enough already
It’s
So much enough now that
I almost shove it out
Cupping my hands together thinking
Off off outtt
And howl
Like a wolf but fiercer
Teeth more
gritted and
Gripping what seeps out of my intestines pushing
It like no now is
not the time
Not the time for
Minor fuss
It’s time for
Big things
Major changes
And I am sick of
Waiting

You feel like okay my fingers itch twitch like it needs to be written needs to, ah like, squeeze it all out and in between it feels tremendously like
***
And what if
No kid this time no what ifs
This time just running if you feel like it
This time
Just hum like a humming bird not like
A wrecking ball caught between two schedules
You now
Have full control
Of your body parts baby
No dealing with outer fury and
Guilt in order to make them shift
You have
Grown a whole
Incredible lot
Like a mountain on the move
And dealt with
Water whirling in the
Scariest form
No one now
Dare
Touching
Your untouchable parts and if so
Become
A tiger and roar like what not
Roar your guts out have them spill
In front of everyone right on
The coffee table
Does no harm to
Shake 'em up a bit
Once in a while-
Oh what
A lightened smile this casts
Upon your face
What a
Feast of learning
Celebrate
Yourself
My dear
Remember
It is
Chaos
It
Is
Always
Here
For you