When people ask why I stayed so long,
the only thing I can think of is:
The only future I saw for myself
was one with him in it.

Your love is like sunsets and forever.

I've found that the most beautiful thing we can learn
is to love who we are, not who we want to be.

You were once my light,
but now I've found that I can be my own sun.

My favorite days
are the ones where
the sky is gray and
the clouds are dark and low.
Where the wind blows cold
and allows us to feel.
Where the rain pours upon us
and washes away our past.
My favorite days
are the messiest.
The ones that match my heart.

I hope you know
I'm rooting for you.

You may not be in my life anymore
But I hope all your dreams we talked about
come true.

I hope you make it wherever you want to go
Even if I'm not beside you there.

I think you're really cool.
Even when you're doing nothing at all.

I miss out late night talks
where the only thing that
mattered was the echoes
of our laughter.

I miss my old childhood room. With its dim lights and creaky bed. Turning off the lights and opening my old macbook. The fan inside it blowing hard and much too loud for two in the morning. I miss loading up a blocky game that lagged a little too much. Calling my friends on my phone and speaking in hushed shouts. Sneaking downstairs to grab a few cookies, making sure not to step on the fourth step (that's the one that creaked) and making sure not to crinkle the cookie package too much. Returning back to my room, placing both hands on the keys and forgetting about tomorrow. Playing that game with my friends until I finally noticed the sun peaking through my blinds and the warmth returning to the room. Hanging up the phone before my parents awoke and finally climbing under the covers. I miss my old childhood room and all the memories encased in its walls.

I cut my hair short.
I feel like with the hair,
I've left behind the old me.
I'm just one more step closer to
finally accepting myself.

I can't help but feel like
a little fish
in an enormous ocean
whenever I see you.

I've never felt so alone.

I don't know why I run after people
who will never run after me.

I hope you get everything you wanted
And I hope you play in the snow

I hope the fireplace is warm
and the lights twinkle and glow

I hope you find comfort
and I hope you find your way

I hope that you'll remember me
and hope that I'm okay

I long for a time I can never reach again.
A  time that is slowing slipping through my fingers.
A time that is fading from my memories.
Taking its warmth and serenity with it.
And it is only now that I realize I should have appreciated it more.

We are something out of a storybook
A hastily written plot to keep the reader's attention
A love story to wring out their hearts
Honey, it was written in the stars
That we would never be
We are destined to burn out thousands of years
before we even saw each other

But oh, my dear, it's like the entire world feels right
Whenever I see you
You are every melody I’ve ever heard
And every hope i've ever held
You feel like stargazing and sunsets
If I have ever been so sure of something
Its that I have loved you in every lifetime I’ve lived
And every lifetime I have yet to

We may not be here tomorrow morning
We might be dragged away by the turn of the page
But you gave me twice as many stars as usual
And for the short time we were under them
We spent our whole lives with each other

If there was one sight
I wish I never saw...
It would be your back
as you walked away
from what we had.

You told me I taught you
what it means to love.

What I didn't know is that
the love I taught you
would be given to
someone else.

In another universe

We're still here

My head is on your chest

I can hear your heartbeat

We're still here

Before I met you, my world was
black and white
boring and uneventful
tiring and much too long.

Before I met you, my soul was
dark and gloomy
deteriorated and torn
hopeless and lost.

Before I met you, my heart was
broken and in pieces
misused and contorted
distressed and not trusting.

But now that you're here,
my world is thrilling and colorful
my soul is hopeful and bright
and
my heart is loving and whole.

I'll finally reach your retreating back,
and maybe we can walk together again.

I hope you tell your friends about me
and I hope they're as happy for you
as The Moon is for me
when she listens to my stories of you
every night.

I find it hard to open up again.
I'm scared I'll have to watch you walk
while I sit alone reaching out to a distant memory.

I've fallen for you like lyrics from a singer's mouth.
I can find a part of you in every love song.

You feel like star gazing and sunsets

There is a certain solace in the rain.
Let it fall upon you and soak into your clothes
Let it seep into your flesh and bones.
Feel the chill spread across yourself.
That is the feeling of being alive
That is how you know you feel.
That is how you know you are alive.

I hope one day I get to see you happy again.

I think I'm finally starting to love the person I am.
Not the person I want to be.

I know the path I take will be hard
but I will run until I find who I am

My heart is filled with deadly shards.
And the more I feel,
The more it hurts.

Silence
is
the
space
between
what
is,
and
what
could
be.

Sometimes I find it hard to live. Whether it be at school, where stress and pressure hit just the right buttons to **** me off. Or at 2 am when everything seems so distant.

Sometimes I find it hard to smile. Whether it be with my friends on a weekend, where joked flutter in the air. Or at 11 pm when a face time call sparks joy.

Sometimes I find it hard to laugh. Whether it be in a parking lot witnessing a homeless man by himself crying. Or at 4 pm when the world gets cold and horrid.

Sometimes I find it hard to stay happy. Whether it be with my family at supper on a Friday afternoon.  Or at 1 am when I'm by myself and hatred consumes my sleep.

Sometimes I find it hard to be strong. Whether it be when everything hurts and I want to give up. Or at 7 pm when everything freezes and everything hurts.

Sometimes you have to persevere. And so I will.

How can I miss someone I don't even know yet?

My love for you is growing
just like the flowers in bloom.

There is never going to be enough time
We humans are good at asking for more.

One more summer
One more dance
One more goodbye.

But the truth is
There is never going to be enough time.

So I will use all that I have
To make sure it feels like
We have all the time in the world
Despite all odds.

While you were only in my life for a short time,
you made me happy and that's hard to forget.

I have spent my whole life
believing
that I would never find love.

I have spent my whole life
resigned
to a fate I created in my own mind.

But

I've decided to spend the time I have now
trying
to realize that I'll find love someday.

I've decided to spend the time I have now
learning
that the first step is finding love in myself.

You make me want to try.

I know I will find the old me
happy, silly, and perfect
right where I left myself
and I hope that girl can forgive me
for not loving who I was.

I wish people could see the world the way I see it. It is filled with darkness and violence, as well as monsters and scary things. But very few people are the light in our world. Very few see the world as I do, a wonderful place filled with happiness even in the smallest things, filled with peace even in the smallest places. As well as good people and beautiful sights.

I wished we could all be filled with light, until I realized we all are born with light in us, but sometimes people let the darkness cover it up. And for a moment while viewing such beauty in the world, viewing happiness in children and families and friends, and in viewing the very own light within me.

I realized it wasn't people covering their own light. The broken and the lost are only people who have seen other people's darkness and decided to take it upon themselves.

No one truly looses their light, they just give it to others who's darkness outgrew the good.

No one is truly gone
if you still carry them
with you in your
heart.

I'm scared that if I let you
into my heart, you'll leave
behind footprints that my
tears can't wash away.

I have never wanted to hold onto something so much before
To irrevocably give you everything I have
If only it help you realize
I have known you my whole life
In the way that you are the flowers I have loved every spring
And the stars I have always admired every night
You have always been there
Even if I didn't know it
And now that I do
I want to hold this feeling forever
If you'll let me

I hope we can find each other in this life.
And if not, then I'll wait for you in the next.

I've decided that there is nothing brighter in this world than you.

I know it used to be hard to find even one good thing
to talk about each day,

But I hope you know

I find myself here now
with so many moments I want to hold onto
that I pay for extra storage on my phone
and take as many photos as I can
so I can take the good times with me
and talk about them each day.

I take those photos for you,
for us,
to remember that there is always
something worth fighting for.

"Why do you always look at me like that?"

"Like what?"

"Like there's nothing else that matters."

"Because there isn't, not when I'm with you."

I have never been one for romance
I never really know what to do
but I long for the chance
to make an advance
and dance to silence with you.

I'm sure at first it'd be funny
we'd look at each other and laugh
we'd swing and we'd sway
we'd dance every way
and cherish the love that we have.

For the silence we hear
Is not the absence of words
But rather things we need not say.
We both already know
How our hearts have been connected
From the very start up til today.

So I may not be a love song
But I'll show you in every way that I know
Til the day that we're gone
You'll know you belong
Like the flowers that bloom in the meadow.

And if the Greek myth about soulmates being two parts of one former person was to be true,

I would only know of it's verity in the way that we have so much in common that we must have been one at some point.

See,
I am made of sunrises
blotches of color painted by weary hands.

I am made of stars
picked straight from the sky by tiny fingertips
reaching for something more.

I am made of laughter and tears
and as my much too heavy shoulders shake
you'll wonder

what I am carrying after all.