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maybella snow Aug 2013
i wasted a day
i do this
everyday
how many days            
until i waste a life?                
                                    my life
maybella snow Feb 2014
I want to know
if touching my skin
ever gave you
tingles down your spine

because simply hearing
you speak, made me shivers
down mine
maybella snow Nov 2013
i know your eyes sparkle
when you look at me
but the lights in my eyes
died before the light got to you
maybella snow Jul 2013
its impossible not to think
          that we wont make it through
    everything
                              because we started off
               in the tough stuff
it only made us stronger
                     made us love each other more
      made us more determined to stay
i love you x
          thankyou for saying it back to me

       yeah we're still in the tough stuff
but we're already moving through it
maybella snow Jul 2013
i remember a time
when "i love you"      
was the strongest,
most potent thing                
you could say to anyone        

yet now                        
when i tell you  
"i love you"              
it doesnt seem to quite      
send the message                    
as strong,              
and potent    
as it used to be                            
or i want it to be
maybella snow Jul 2013
happily ever afters
are so stereotyped          

do two broken lovers        
fit into the category?              

x <3 x
maybella snow Jun 2014
i still dont know
why i pushed people away
and im sorry
its no explaination
but ****
                      i miss you
i miss talking
im on medication now
eating disorder in tow
self harm addiction
2 weeks clean
                                       yet finally
                                       im proud
                            im still alive
i made a new hellopoetry ~ snow queen
please follow ♡ i will follow back
i miss you guys
maybella snow Jun 2013
an ache                                                                
located where my                
left ribcage holds a                                
bleeding heart                          
under the sturdy bones                                  
beneath muscle and veins                    

my heart bleeds        

i thought the other day                                
this bleeding has to stop                                      
internal organs shouldn't hurt like this                          

maybe if i cut off the blood supply to it              
there would be no blood for                        
my heart to bleed                                                    

finding veins in my wrist                
blade sharp          
heart bleeding                  

swapping internal pain                      
for external pain                      

can't hurt too much      
not compared to the ache                          
the never ending bleeding              
of my helpless heart                      

i'm stopping pain...                                                          
not causing it...                                                        
i thought that at the time

~/\/\/\/\/\/~
maybella snow Jun 2013
how it possible that                                                             ­                                   
something so utterly wonderful:                                                       ­  you                    
can make everything dull,                                                            ­               are                  
you trying to ruin my, not                                                              ­perfect
          hopeless little existence of a life                                                             and        
      now all normal everyday things aren't the same                                                       i                  
never would have guessed that this feeling:                                                     love
     would come at such a horrible dark time, thank                                                you
took forever to get this to work, might not have the best english and grammar skills but idc, was made to be two poems in the one poem.
maybella snow May 2013
i want to crush my skull
to stop the nothingness                  
to feel something
even if its pain              
i need it
i need something  
to take my thoughts      
off nothingness                                
the pressure crushes
what's doing this?                  
make it stop
   give me something
pain killers if you will                    
just help

i need          

something                  

anything  

whatever  

just                    

help          

me

stop                

it

...
maybella snow Sep 2013
it pains me
to say
i'm addicted
to the pain
i'm sorry
maybella snow Jul 2013
i told you                        
about the stupid thing I did
i'm sorry, i know it was stupid                        
i just hope
pray, wish    
that my stupid thing                        
doesn't cause you                        
to do an equally stupid thing                        
i'm sorry
it was a stupid
thing to do
maybella snow Jun 2013
if i was stuck in a cage
it would be made of toffee    
thick strands dribbled in the form of an
        old fashioned bird cage
with no door to open              


made of toffee                              
               brittle, yet not indestructible
enough tears will break it down maybe                          
                  slowly dissolving the sweet encasement
    until the thick strands      
are able to be broken                                          

                                               then maybe
i'll be able to escape
fly the coop                      
                                 away from the tears

but for now:
                       i'm pinned    
                               in a toffee cage
crying enough tears                                    
to be able to break out                  


                                                                                                                                     my sweetened cage

....
maybella snow Jul 2013
floral dresses
      pink converses
  chewing gum
       wind blown hair
sandy beaches
   balancing acts

             hope for us
                      we'll work everything out
i smiled at my memories of you
maybella snow Jul 2013
~ ice cream cones
                  stripy tights
   tinted sunglasses

          desperate pain
  aching heart
           thinly spread love

i need you x ~
maybella snow Jul 2013
if life doesn't **** everyone
          society will and has killed some already
society is the blame for so many deaths
      why does no one suspect it?
maybella snow Sep 2013
it has been some time
since i've been awake at
                         2:00am
       i forgot how
quite and peaceful it is
where i'm only just
                         tired enough
                that the thoughts
don't really matter now
                     and memories are just
            a faint fuzz
maybella snow Aug 2013
i've been stumbling around            
reaching out in all directions
and i can't find you                            
you're not there
there's nothing there
no one there
i miss you                      
please                  
someone
hold me
maybella snow Aug 2013
broken empty alive
wanting to die
maybella snow Dec 2013
i miss the sound
of my fingers hitting the keys
and letting my soul pour out
the wall i put up
blocked my soul
from my head
maybe that is a good thing
but **** i miss that sound
maybella snow Jul 2013
they fall faster than i fell for you
10 words
maybella snow Jul 2013
tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood tears not blood*

a mantra?
maybella snow Jul 2013
more than gravity
    is evoking them
10 words
maybella snow Aug 2013
if i          
i could 
i would
[teleports]
to you
maybella snow Aug 2013
tell me it's                    
all going          
to be
         okay
even though
we both                
know it                            
wont be,                
tell me
           lies
maybella snow May 2013
For calling me beautiful
When i felt ugly.
For being kind
When i couldn't.
For accepting me
When i was rejected.
For caring about me
When i'd given up.
For liking me
When i didn't.
For loving me
When i love you

<3
maybella snow Aug 2013
"enemies hurt
but friends hurt more"
is truer than anything
i've even known
maybella snow Jan 2014
consisting of eyes it sits there on the wall wondering what wondering is like and liking where it's thoughts wondered. eyes sat still seated no where in particularly yet sitting. watching in wonder waiting to see what the sad girl who happened to sleep where it lived living happily while she simply lived. it waited and watched. watched and waited. wondering why if she brought home a man he left soon after. she cried. it wondered what there was to cry about. she had a bed. she ate and slept. showered and dressed. studied and learnt. yet she cried. and cried. distressed about what was wrong with her it wondered. it especially wondered why she had red lines on her wrists that she covered. but she ate and slept. lived and cried every day.

she felt the pressure getting to her. texts to read tests to pass. and the pain was persistent. not possible to pin point. it was everywhere. covering her from hea to toe was an aching throb. some days when the ache wouldn't stop. the only way to focus it on one point. was with a blade. simple and harsh.

it got lost in the missing spaces of the girls life. live simply to live simple as that.
my thoughts make no
sence I know sorry
maybella snow Jun 2013
eyes blur

nose stings

jaw clenches

muscles tighten

brain yells

salt drops fall

tears

. . . . . . . . . . . .

*the art of crying is not pretty
it's real
maybella snow Jul 2013
10 words
i wont stop writing any time soon, i still need it.
maybella snow Mar 2014
more tears cried
less hours slept
more blood spilt
less food intake
more dark shadows
less bright eyes

is this all i am anymore?
a pathetic state of
depression?

i don't know what
was worse, a
broken heart i was able
to blame on my love.
or a broken soul
that was deformed
to begin with.
maybella snow May 2013
i desire to relive
all our times together
g o o d   and   b a d
your splendor overwhelms me
my heart aches at the times
when you don’t regard me
or don’t see the subtle moves
of me trying to get nearer
sneakily brushing your arm
when it was easily avoided
these artfully planed gestures
filled with   l o v e   and   w a n t i n g
go unnoticed sometimes
my world breaks open
to let me fall in the gaps
where darkness resides

though there are better times
occasional times where
you
s
  e
    e
me
all of me
my gestures
my glances at you
times my
h e a r t   f i l l s
when a silent smile is shared
a meeting of our eyes
glint in your eye for me
my favorite is when
every time your warm body
t o u c h e s    m i n e
in an innocent touch
my entire being
wakes up
comes
a l i v e
i see the world
utterly wonderful
with you at its center
maybella snow Jul 2013
.                                                                ­                  though there are people
      who are accepting of everyone's looks
                              everyone knows it's the self esteem that causes people
to believe that they're not pretty enough              (sorry this is directed at females)
              because there has been a combined effort
                                                     of the "faceless" because
you can't blame any one person
                                 for pushing perfection
                                                      ­            it is many unnamed people, millions
           but
   even if everyone stopped believing
in such thing as "perfection"
                                 it'll always be there, because people want to be better
they want to improve their looks
          for someone, or something
                                                       ­                      when really
                              it's their mindset
                                                  there is no perfection
                    no imperfection
                                         because everyone
                              can't all be the same
                                                            ­                                                and why would it matter?
                                                                ­                                       everyone has different tastes
                                                          ­                                                        everyone finds different attractiveness
                                         so there is never a way
                                                             ­                              to be perfect
                                                         ­                for everyone
                its the nameless
        and the faceless
that pushes the belief
  that perfection
           is real
if this makes so sense i apologies :\
maybella snow Jun 2013
i hate that horrible feeling              
when you catch something
but not quite                              
and you know          
its just going to slip              
through your fingers                  
and                    

hit the ground

and there's nothing                                        
you can do                                
to catch it properly                                            
as it clunks
and hits the floor
there's no changing
how it happened          

you just didn't                                    
grasp it                                                        
good enough                                  
f            
a  
l          
l  
i    
n          
g
maybella snow Jul 2013
"words can't describe what i see
beauty and more, in one being
                                             are you an angel?
i guess it's just as well
you're absolutely gorgeous to me,
i'm sure it's not only me, who sees,
the beauty you hold in your entire body,
but it is most certainly seen by me"
~MountL~

                          the first poem you wrote me
                   i didn't ask for it
                           and it was given before confessions
                                          of love and adoration
no this isn't my poem, it was given to me, by the boy who stole my heart...
this poem isn't on his page, he hasn't put many poems on, i convinced him to join C:
MountL, the boy who stole my heart
maybella snow Oct 2013
pain everywhere
what to do with life
backed into a corner
stop feeling anything maybella
hold it all together
                 no one can know
                 no one
           because they all hurt
they’ll all backfire and hurt
they don’t care
and if they do
    it’ll be gone soon
don’t tell them
hide it
hold it in
you’ll be okay soon
its just a little pain
    it’ll be gone soon enough
hopefully
keep dreaming mayb
                 you’ll trip
                 you’ll fall
just, don’t bring anyone with you
       remember that
don’t let it happen
don’t let anyone care
because you’ll care about them
         and we’ll both get hurt
you’re in a corner
stay there
befriend the corner
it cant hurt you
we’ll be okay maybella
but we just have to hold it in
written a while ago but i guess it still applies
maybella snow Sep 2013
eyelashes;
they hold one another
                only at night
but they're constantly
                            brushing each other
                            throughout the day
                            for less than a second
of embracing
before being
                                               ripped                      apart
to once again
hold the other
at night when
               eyes are **closed
maybella snow Sep 2013
roses are beautiful
though people choose
to ignore the thorns

everything has a beautiful
and harmful side                
it only matters
if you cant see
past the ugly,                                        
hurtful side                              
to see the beauty of it
maybella snow Aug 2013
10 words


*your death caused the hole in my heart, i'm trying to fill it
maybella snow Jul 2013
in the shower
         turning up the hot tap
      sigh, it's still cold
turns the hot tap up more
                 discovers it's as high as it goes
                                   turns cold tap down
still not hot enough
still too cold
still warming up
still need you
still cold without you
still needing your warmth
maybella snow May 2013
i compare school to space,
there are the mean people that you avoid at all costs,
the asteroids,
they will destroy you one by one.
the small dwarf planets,
boring people that are basically non existent,
nothing major,
or concerning you.
there are the shooting stars,
testosterone filled boys,
one bright spark for a second then out,
attention seeking.
there are the stars,
the people that are nice without meaning to be,
but can burn if you get too close.
the teachers are the larger planets,
controlling other orbiting planets.
but you,
you're the sun,
the light of my day,
what gets me up in the morning.
you shine simply because you do,
nothing can over power you.
so many people revolve around you,
because you are kind,
and bright,
they cant help it.
you love with so much power,
but burn those who are mean to the people you love.

this is why school is like space

**<3
for my dearest and most loved best friend, thank-you for being my sun... **
maybella snow Sep 2013
i have a heart
despite what i thought
its still there        
but all my energy                            
has been leaked                          
and i wake
i laugh
i cry    
i smile
i live  
i sleep
but i can't find it
anywhere in myself
to love
my heart is taken              
how can i give it      
to another?
maybella snow Sep 2013
15 words


*your scars are healing, mine are newly done
i make too many mistakes
to be considered okay
maybella snow Sep 2013
and i don't
even know you
very well
but i'm so
worried
about you
i hope,
you're okay
don't hurt
yourself
please
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