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maybella snow Jul 2013
10 words


sigh
its hard when after twelve years of liking someone, you've finally moved on and are actually happy, then they see you, they look at you and actually see you. but HEY it's too late now buddy, moved on.
488 · Nov 2013
he did
maybella snow Nov 2013
how can i trust you
         not to **** yourself too

how can i get close to anyone
when i refuse to hurt anyone
when i **** myself
                      it'll happen eventually
         maybe it'll work this time
485 · Jul 2013
disenfranchisement
maybella snow Jul 2013
a fancy way
of saying;
without power
deprived of something
and i just noticed, 10 words
maybella snow Jun 2013
15 words
        i wish it was a poem
                                         but i lost it
thinking too much                
about you                                

oxo
483 · Jul 2013
one hundred words of war
maybella snow Jul 2013
men
jump,
swarming
away
from
the
safety
of
their
transportation.
heavy
packs
and
uniforms,
tension
fills
the
silence
like
an
overflowing
bucket.
squads
continue
to
pour
out,
onto
the
sand
and
up
the
bank.
there
is
still
silence;
people
hold
their
breaths,
waiting.
men
are
told
to
climb;
these
direct
orders
remain
quiet.
a
few
men
venture
out,
and
then
when
nothing
happens
more
follow.
they
scout
the
area,
believing
it’s
safe.
an
explosion
erupts
and
clumps
of
soil
fly
into
the
air,
men
collapse.
the
sounds
of
gunfire
are
close,
small
dots
blinking
out
from
grass
and
small
mounds.
exactly one hundred words, wrote this little piece in class, sorry if the way its set out makes it look too long
482 · Oct 2013
sing me a lulaby
maybella snow Oct 2013
i'm tired, not simply
physically tired
mentally,
wholeheartedly
i'm exhausted
and sadly enough
i'm just waiting
for someone
to rock me
to sleep
482 · Sep 2013
loving identical twins????
maybella snow Sep 2013
i never knew you
but its funny/strange
how i know                                
so much                                
about who you are                                              
what you like                                            
favorite food                                      
etc.                                              
sometimes
it freaks me out
so much                
i cant help
but cry
when i realize
how much
alike you are
to him                
and i loved him
with everything
it scares/                              
makes me wonder
if as we're helping
each other, as much
as possible                                      
will there be more?                                      
and yeah
that scares me
so much
i feel so bad    
so guilty
maybella snow Aug 2013
the moon                      
personally
i like it more    
in the middle of the day                                  
where it seems to protest                                    
rebel against being the usual                                  
only light at night
no, instead                                                  
it becomes a pale disc                                            
calm in the blue sky                  
basking in sunlight                    
and viewing the world
in a brighter light
than it can create personally                                          

*a beautiful nothing,
my something
481 · May 2013
Thank-you
maybella snow May 2013
For calling me beautiful
When i felt ugly.
For being kind
When i couldn't.
For accepting me
When i was rejected.
For caring about me
When i'd given up.
For liking me
When i didn't.
For loving me
When i love you

<3
481 · Aug 2013
how would the tree feel?
maybella snow Aug 2013
desperate hands clasping branches
            forcing the limbs to shake
            just as much as hands
                    the of the climber
    leaves and new buds are torn off
                     tears
                    blood
                    sweat
           is smeared on the tree
                                             a rope
is tied around the strongest bough
    the rope is coarse and chafes
                       skin and bark
a dead weight pulls
the branch bends with added weight
the coarse rope holds dead life
the snap is bone and branch
blood and tree sap spills
                   yet only one natural thing lived
                   how does the tree feel about this?
depressive maybe eh
481 · Aug 2013
my apologies:
maybella snow Aug 2013
for being weak and needy
for needing you to hold me
for running because i'm scared
for never saying anything right
for always pestering you
for not trying hard enough
for not being good enough
for not believing your complements
for feeling down most of the time
for being effected by your moods
for letting your moods effect me
for not being impressive enough
for not being old or matured enough
for apologizing so many times
for writing a bad excuses for a poem
for living

forgive me
for living
please
                                       i don't want to live
                                           but i'm not dead
                                                     forgive me
for not dying
when i tried to
480 · Jun 2013
i don't care about you
maybella snow Jun 2013
people don't understand
                   when i say
                                 "i don't care about you"
i mean
             you mean nothing to me
   i have enough issues
              i have enough people who care
                    about me, and i for them

so understand
            when i say
                                " i don't care about you"
i don't
                    but you exist
          and you have people who do care about you
so don't be offended when i say that

                  but to be honest
i don't care about you

                                             back off
                                             go away
                                             leave me alone

             because i don't care about you
and i don't want you to care about me
        because i wont return the feeling

*" i don't care about you"
480 · Jul 2013
fire - love
maybella snow Jul 2013
/fire/*
- one that keeps you going
- one that warms you in winter
- inner fire (heart, soul)
- candle (lighting the way)
- we're burning (lust)

- burn down forests
- killed (my heart)
- put out my fire
- utter destruction
- nothing but cinders
- smoke (inhalation, can't breathe)


fire - metaphorical for love
479 · Aug 2013
the world is heavy
maybella snow Aug 2013
where are you?
                you were always there to help
      you lifted it when i was weak
     i lifted it when you were weak
now you're gone
             and i need your help
  the world is too heavy
                    to lift off of me this time
      and you're not here to help
            i'm wondering how you're coping
  with me not there to help you
       probably better than me
                     this time, it's too heavy
   i can't lift it off now
478 · Jul 2013
i don't sleep well anymore
maybella snow Jul 2013
nadie está totalmente sin tristeza*


not a bold statement
a true one instead
maybella snow Jul 2013
i trapped my heart in a cell                                    
a cell i made to perfection
to keep it in and away from everyone
its cold and lonely                                                           ­           
but thats the way its supposed to feel                    
it keeps my head from my heart                                        
this way there are no unwanted feelings                                

no love                                                             ­                                                 
because love is a feeling that comes from the heart
not the head                

by doing this it keeps my heart protected
safe from love                                                    

because with love comes hate and hurt                          
the only way to live without love is to trap your heart

in whatever way you can                      
stop at nothing to catch it                      
hide it away                                            
nourish it but don’t                                
whatever you do                                    
don’t let it love.
a poem i found its the part one to the other one i commented on.
477 · Jul 2013
wishful being
maybella snow Jul 2013
i wish i was there
when you're haveing a nightmare
so i could hold you
until you woke up, and knew it wasn't real

i wish i was there
when you're about to cut your skin
so i could still your hand,
look you in the eye, until you realised you don't need to

i wish i was there
when your parents are screaming at you
so i could stand behind you
support you, and make sure you know you're loved

i wish i was there
when tears are streaming down your cheeks in despair
so i could gently wipe them away
tell you i love you and everything's going to be okay

i wish you were here
when i need you to
hold me during a nightmare
still my shaking hands
stand behind me
wipe my tears away
and love me
477 · Jul 2013
involuntary
maybella snow Jul 2013
i find myself
     sitting curled in a fetal position
rocking slightly back
                                 and forth
      with my head
in my hands
           palms pressed into my eyes
                       squashing tears back
                         keeping thoughts in
it's involuntary
i can't help it
maybella snow Jul 2013
do you ceace to be
a child                                              
when you meet          
a cirtain age?

or is it when                            
you loose your childish
inocence              
and everything that goes                  
with it?
maybella snow Jul 2013
becoming lost in a patchwork of words
               running between the tilting letters
          ink splashes
                       paper tears
pace quickens as i run
                  a nightmare created of something i loved
       my love screams at me
                                      where did i go wrong?
they're screaming
        but clutching their ears
                       maybe they're just in pain
   did i cause their pain?
                                 no i can't have
                                      i didn't do anything
                              did i?
countless doubts
      numberless words
                          screeched like fingernails on chalk boards
             scratching down my backbone
  ripping through my head
                      shivering or shuddering?
               it's all pain now
       but is it my pain or yours?
                           there's no border anymore
its combined
               my knuckles split
                                        in contact with the wall
    no winner
             but pain is gained
i haven't written in a while, so i forced myself to write something.
474 · Jul 2013
improvements
maybella snow Jul 2013
i have so many poems
       and i bet the people
                  whom follow me now
               i bet they haven't seen the first poem i uploaded
                                                   or the second
i understand that my "skills"
      have improved
                     from the first dodgy poems i wrote
  but i'd like to know
             if they were no good
             or if it's just that no one looked at them
i'm not telling people to look through my dodgy older poems, i'm just saying that, i bet no one thought to look at them that far back. i know i don't always look at a persons poems all the way back to when they joined. but on occasion i do. its just that, how many poems are there that are "old", written a while ago, that'll never be looked at? it saddens me a little
474 · Aug 2013
sorry
474 · Aug 2013
you heard my crying
maybella snow Aug 2013
i literally just had a break down
i cried and                            
begged you not to go                      
                           you heard it all
                         - mindless blabbering at 4:57 am -
            runninng on no sleep
and i think it broke you to pieces                
that you were the reason
   why i was falling apart
               simply because you had to go
474 · Jul 2013
101 real people :D
maybella snow Jul 2013
101 people follow me
101 people see every poem i write
101 real people
101 people
                                                                 thats a    h u g e   amount to me
1795 reactions
1795 comments
1795 or likes

22216 views
22216 thats how many times my poetry has been looked at
22216

                                                                   sorry but that still shocks me
                                                             real people are seeing my rambles
                                                                  real people are following me
                                                           real people are reacting to my work
                                                                                real people

take that mum, real people
                            real people think my "****" is good
                mum, leave me alone about it

because some real people think it's worth something
because they're reading it
       and they're liking or commenting to it

                                                                                                     and this is what i want to do in life
                                                                          i want to write
                                                                                          about things that pose something to me
                                         [HAH]
                                         you said i wasn't going
                        anywhere while on my computer
                                         [HAH]
                                                                                                          it only took me
                                                                                                          101 real people
                                                                                                                thankyou
                                                                                                              to all of you
473 · May 2013
effects after 7 minutes
maybella snow May 2013
9:57pm
its not too late yet
i'll stay and wait
just a little longer for you

9:58pm
minutes slow down
like gravity in space
i wait for your reply

9:59pm
okay deep breathing
it cant be too long now
a couple more minutes

10:00pm
only three minutes have passed
don't send another useless message
it cant be too long now

10:01pm
maybe there'll be no reply
"what ifs" float by
just wait, don't do something stupid

10:02pm
okay, sending that useless message now
maybe you'll notice it and reply
no such luck

10:03pm
desperation over nothing
its only been seven minutes silly
yet waiting is painful now

see how you effect me?
see how i need you?
look at what 7 minutes does to me
i become desperate and freak out
i'm sorry if i'm needy, i don't try
it just happens
maybella snow Aug 2013
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/|                  \ _ /                 |\  
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maybe this symbol means
nothing to you now
but it meant enough
for you to carve it
into your skin
with my initials
without my knowing
maybella snow Sep 2013
15 words


*your scars are healing, mine are newly done
i make too many mistakes
to be considered okay
maybella snow Oct 2013
i want to love you
but i cant
i'm scared
and you don't
understand
471 · Aug 2013
creating destruction
maybella snow Aug 2013
i love standing in the wind                        
letting the velocity of the storm                                
make me feel weak in a different way                                          
weak as in                                                                
not mentally
or physically
just that i know                              
it's bigger than me                              
and yet                
nor the rain
thunder
lightning
wind
make me feel scared                                                  
i like to enjoy the power                                            
it's not mine                                            
but i'm in the presence                                              
of a great power                                                          
that can create destruction
destroy lives                        
ruin everything                  
one day                                                                                              
i just want to                                                                                              
lay in a field                                                                                              
back down in                                                                                              
the grass                                                                                              
with rain pounding                                                                                              
down, lighting                                                                                              
breaking the sky                                                                                              
thunder blasting                                                                                              
wind howling                                                                                              
and simply                                                                          
feel like nothing                                                                  
to the wold,                                                                          
because i'm                                                                          
tiny                                                                                        
compared to it                                                                    
                                                                  
i want to die
in the presence
of a power
bigger than
anyone
can handle

—a storm—
nothing to do with religion in my opinion, i didn't write it about that. but if that's the way you intemperate it, okay
470 · Jul 2013
food won't cure this hunger
maybella snow Jul 2013
the hunger i feel isn't curable by food
  my eyes desire to devour your body
my ears starve for your voice
  my lips are famished in need of yours
my fingertips crave the feeling of your skin
  my heart tightens in pain

this hunger doesn't decrease
     with the consumption of food
maybella snow Jun 2013
i gave you a gift                                                    
of love and affection                                                                  
of consideration and caring                                            
                                                            my heart
                                                                        its nothing special to anyone
                                                                                          had its fair share of beatings
                                                  maybe a little more
but i gave it to you                            
it's in your care                                                
if you nourish or neglect is your
choice and responsibility                          
thankyou
469 · Jul 2013
the sea is my siren
maybella snow Jul 2013
the sea                        
is my siren
it's enticing                        
            beautiful
                 exotic

i also know        
that if i stare at it                      
               long enough

i will jump
willingly                  
into its depths                                        
to my death                    

                      be with something
so enticing
and uncontrollable
467 · Jun 2013
embrace old age
maybella snow Jun 2013
gentle lines surround the lips
crows feet corner the eyes
sliver hairs over come fake dye
forehead dotted with sun spots

growing old
keep it that way
be proud that you made it
you got to get wrinkles
living didn't **** you
embrace your slivering hair
crows feet make your eyes stand out
sliver hair sparkles in the sun
sun spots show you have lived

you did it
you grew old!
C:
467 · Aug 2013
we're contagious
maybella snow Aug 2013
just the fact that i made
     you
smile today
            made me smile
  which made you smile
more
  and more
                           until we were both
                     grinning from ear                                    to ear
       because
i made you smile
466 · Jul 2013
one hundred and fifty four
maybella snow Jul 2013
"poems" i've written in a week
                 -wow i'm self absorbed-
maybella snow Oct 2013
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*alone
maybella snow Jul 2013
10 words


~a constant reoccurrence throughout my day~
465 · Jul 2013
it still shocks me how
maybella snow Jul 2013
how you're able                                                                                    
to effect my vital internal organs                                                                      
you control my heart                                                        
you've made it speed      
you've made it slow        
you've made it fly            
you've made it sink        
you've made it stop        
you've made it start        

you've got control of my heart                                                                    
hijacked or stolen                                                                                                  
you have it now                                                                                    
i just hope                  
that you don't              
**** it                      

X                                                                                                                                  

marks the spot                                                                                                                      
i think you found it
465 · Jun 2013
a single window
maybella snow Jun 2013
i want change
              i look out my window
                                  same old rusty fence
            wire interlocked
it was probably cool
                                          once upon a time
   daffodils have flowered
                                    but they are half dying
                           the bright yellow petals have began to wilt
   the lawn is mowed
                  or was, its grown a little since
      but weeds have defiantly began
                                        their sneaky rebellion
our cat settles itself
             onto a rock, to warm itself
                                       as it grooms and cleans

          i have a single window in my room
                           that is the view
            its not much

                             is it a crime to want change?
464 · Aug 2013
fragments written on my arm
maybella snow Aug 2013
a life was lost to love
                     why love when hearts are so fragile?
       i covered my arm with the ink of my pen
       rather than the usual blood with a blade
                              love is lost in the world, i'm just a grain of sand
where'd all the
beauty of the
world go?
i think it
died when
you did
                                  dreams and reality are all nightmares in the end
maybella snow Mar 2014
I starved myself
for 45 hours
am I skinny yet?
I covered myself
with cuts so
people would look
deeper than
my skin and
see the real me
am I pretty yet?
sorry it's been so long
463 · Jun 2013
i'm slightly less shrewd
maybella snow Jun 2013
i don't understand
      how you make me feel bad
                    when i didn't do anything
           but i feel guilty anyway
               because i made you feel
    slightly less happy
slightly less loved
   slightly less needed

        and i don't want that
462 · Aug 2013
finally i'm home alone
maybella snow Aug 2013
i've a pounding headache.              
i havet eaten much.                                
i need a coffee
and maybe some music
Sorry this is not even a poem, idk
462 · Oct 2013
bokren alcnpsaipe
maybella snow Oct 2013
its just dull
a blown light        
a ripped net          
a cracked glass      
a snapped rope    
i'm useless
and broken
dont ask me
for anything
i gave my all
to save you      
and it didnt work
i'm tired
but dont try
and save me
i'm not worth
effort      
why use        
a blown light        
a ripped net          
a cracked glass      
a snapped rope    
when you could
have so much
better
tittle: broken appliances
idk if anyone would be able to read it so yup
462 · Sep 2013
i'm marked with fault
maybella snow Sep 2013
my left arm
is that time i didn't ask
if you were okay      
my left leg
is that fisrt time                  
i changed for the worse          
my right leg
is that time I cried to you        
and it broke you apart
my stomach
is the last time
i spoke to you      
did i say that i love you?
my marks
are for the time
i wasn't awake                    
when you were dying

i'm marked with fault
i didn't do enough to save you
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