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435 · Jun 2013
heart? house?
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a two story
peaceful, colorful house
windows cleaned
porch swept
roof well kept
gutters empty

. . . . . . . . . .

a crumbling
silent, dull house
windows smashed
porch snapped
roof collapsing
gutters filled with leaves
435 · Oct 2013
sing me a lulaby
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i'm tired, not simply
physically tired
mentally,
wholeheartedly
i'm exhausted
and sadly enough
i'm just waiting
for someone
to rock me
to sleep
435 · Jun 2013
following set niceties
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its polite to say
         "how are you?"
                  and it's presumed
that you're "okay" or "good, thanks"
     so thats what i say
for convenience
"how are you?"
         "i'm good, thank-you"

                         but
what i want to say is;
                        "alive, unfortunately"

...
433 · Jul 2013
i want to fly
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away                                                            

.
5 words
431 · Aug 2013
i feel like a blind person
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where's my noah bear?
what's going on?
who are you?
why did my noah go?
where did he go?
where's my love?
you're not him
go away imposter
liar where is he?
430 · Nov 2013
turn tables
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i hate that when i wake up my thoughts go to you
you're dead can this stop
please
i miss you
come back
429 · Jul 2013
its only
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one                
two                
three              
four                
five                
six feet down
...10 words...
428 · Jul 2013
food won't cure this hunger
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the hunger i feel isn't curable by food
  my eyes desire to devour your body
my ears starve for your voice
  my lips are famished in need of yours
my fingertips crave the feeling of your skin
  my heart tightens in pain

this hunger doesn't decrease
     with the consumption of food
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<3
                           i                                                                ­                        

                                       ­                        miss  


                                                        ­                                                            you

so                                       much


                                                          ­                         it


                                                               ­                                                                 ­     hurts

                          i              love             ­ you


                                                          ­                x x
                                                               ­                                                                 ­                    x

                                          ­                      x
                                         ­                                                                 ­                 x x x
                   x
                                                               ­                   don't                                         ­                   

make
                                       ­                                      me

                                                             ­                                                             live­

                 without                                                          ­                              

                                                               ­                                                           you
  ­                                                   ever


                                                              ­                                       again
please
                                      x x
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do you ceace to be
a child                                              
when you meet          
a cirtain age?

or is it when                            
you loose your childish
inocence              
and everything that goes                  
with it?
427 · Jul 2013
...maybe?
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if i let enough blood out
     not enough to die
                   just to slow the blood to my head
         so i don't think as much?
maybe?
426 · Jun 2013
embrace old age
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gentle lines surround the lips
crows feet corner the eyes
sliver hairs over come fake dye
forehead dotted with sun spots

growing old
keep it that way
be proud that you made it
you got to get wrinkles
living didn't **** you
embrace your slivering hair
crows feet make your eyes stand out
sliver hair sparkles in the sun
sun spots show you have lived

you did it
you grew old!
C:
426 · Aug 2013
maybe it's a bad thing
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that it has been so long
and i've refused to look
at all the pictures
cute messages
                  that you gave me
     complete with an "x"
and "i love you"
                but it just hurts
                way too much
                to think about
                your life                or more importantly
                your death
not ready
i'm just
not ready
to see or
remember
your life
not yet
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10 words


*everyone effects someone's life, i don't wanna mess anyone up
425 · Aug 2013
my strength is mostly gone
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not saying i'm weak
                                                but
i really need
someone to hold me
together
because
                                m
                 a
                                                           y
                                           b
                                                                      e
                          l
                                                     l
      a

                                                                                                s
                                                                                                                                        n
                                                                                          o
                                                                                                                       w


i s   n o   l o n g e r
w     h     o     l     e                                                      a t   a l l
425 · Jul 2013
death is a prison break
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after all the bent spoons          
broken fingernails
cave-ins                                  
i hope that      
this one last attempt
will work                                    
so now          
all I have to do              
is crawl through      
till the end

and i'll be free                                                

from              
this prison
425 · Oct 2013
imagining again
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silken voice
sliding through
vulnerable gaps
into various hearts
you sing me to sleep
with your breaths
a sweet lullaby
in uneven
tunes
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but letting you completely in my heart again
scares me more
423 · Jun 2013
just stop it. JUST STOP IT!
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you                                                              ­            


                                                     hurt



                        me


STOP                    


                       IT!

you always do!                                                             ­       

                                   I  
                                                     DIDN'T

DO                                  


                    ­                                                                 ­                  ANYTHING

I                                                      ­            
DIDN'T                                                

no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no                                  

                 I DIDN'T



                                                      ­    I DIDN'T

no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no
                                             no no no no no nononononononononnon no no no no no no


I DIDN'T!!!                                                     ­                                                               

­
STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP!!!




! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !



just stop


its not me                                                               ­   
its you                      
and i know this                                                             ­                   
so please                                                          
stop hurting me                                                               ­                   
                                             ­              because i didn't do anything

just stop

*s   t   o   p
423 · Jul 2013
"you're dead to me"
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i've been
           so close
to crying
                                            so many
                            times today
                                    it is
                                             really quite
                      sad
423 · Jul 2013
suspect? ....society
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if life doesn't **** everyone
          society will and has killed some already
society is the blame for so many deaths
      why does no one suspect it?
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no, go away
you've had your opinion
i listened, i didn't get angry
now it's time
for you to go
before i explode
422 · Jul 2013
where's the line?
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between friendship
                acquaintances
                love
                hate
                enemies
                ?
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10 words
a girl cries because she just can't handle it anymore

i'm just a young girl
and i'm hiding away
under the covers
curled into a ball
it's warm, and simple
and no one
can see my tears
or hear my sobs
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i had to go outside
                  bare feet
           pajamas on at 1:55pm
and stand in the rain
              to remind myself
i'm alive
                          not all my senses are dead
                 because i can feel it falling onto me
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i'm more ****** up than I thought
this ******* urge to cut won't leave me
alone, I'm lying in bed shuddering
twitching and spasming  
night one, and I know
I'm not strong enough
to last, it hurts
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thankyou so much                
for not giving me ****
about how its all gonna be okay  
because sometimes          
you just know  
it's not going to be okay                
it's not going to be a happy ending    
it's not going to be cherry blossoms in the wind
because ****                    
it's not gonna be okay
but                                            
power on soldier
**** the *******
because no                  
it's not all gonna
be "okay"
420 · Sep 2013
strung higher than a kite
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it pains me
to say
i'm addicted
to the pain
i'm sorry
420 · Jul 2013
it still shocks me how
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how you're able                                                                                    
to effect my vital internal organs                                                                      
you control my heart                                                        
you've made it speed      
you've made it slow        
you've made it fly            
you've made it sink        
you've made it stop        
you've made it start        

you've got control of my heart                                                                    
hijacked or stolen                                                                                                  
you have it now                                                                                    
i just hope                  
that you don't              
**** it                      

X                                                                                                                                  

marks the spot                                                                                                                      
i think you found it
420 · Jun 2013
remaining upright
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i'm just so
tired
        my spine weighs me down
it has lost its
       strength
each vertebra has taken in sadness

they hold it, being my backing weight
         pulling the energy out of me
sapping my life slowly
                        because of the         effort

that it now requires
     just so that
i can hold it up,
     it tires me

        to remain upright
heh just re read that, i wrote it without thinking much, it doesn't exactly run well, but i don't want to change it.
419 · Nov 2013
deactivating
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.
.
.
.
maybe i'll come back
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10 words


~a constant reoccurrence throughout my day~
418 · Oct 2013
Untitled
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emotionally challenged
im telling you more than i should
yet nothing important
i dont want to get stuck
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anyone care to make                                
                                                            a ****** suicide
plan with me?                                                                                            
i promise to die at the end
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i can't believe
          it took me this  l o n g
   to actually    
                                 fight back
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how many people bleed
           from self harm
                    and hate?
how much blood falls
          until people
               know the
                    cause?
how many people
       have to die
     until society
           realizes?
                                                 something horrible has gone wrong
                                                 there shouldn't be people bleeding
                                                 blood shouldn't fall from self harm
                                                 people shouldn't die because of it
                                                 how doesn't the world see that this;
                                                 judging people, who don't care at all
                                                 are effecting everyone, even those
                                                 who might not die, bleed, self harm
                                                 it effects the people who know the
                                                 people who are bleeding their lives
                                                 away, it effects people everywhere
                                                 somewhere something went wrong
                                                 so wrong that the effects are death
                                                 blood, hurt, everywhere, mental
                                                 illness, perfection kills people
                                                 just the idea that there is such thing
                                                 as "perfection" is killing people
                                                 there is no such thing as perfection
                                                 it's not possible, so why, why, why
                                                 are people in pain, dying, dead
                                                 because o
f it? it's not right, no
                                                 it's society, and it's ways, it's
                                                 killer ways
416 · Aug 2013
your poems aren't about me
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don't get offended when mine
aren't about you
416 · Oct 2013
asylum seeking
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open that box
you call a heart
and let me
reside
416 · Sep 2013
i'm marked with fault
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my left arm
is that time i didn't ask
if you were okay      
my left leg
is that fisrt time                  
i changed for the worse          
my right leg
is that time I cried to you        
and it broke you apart
my stomach
is the last time
i spoke to you      
did i say that i love you?
my marks
are for the time
i wasn't awake                    
when you were dying

i'm marked with fault
i didn't do enough to save you
maybella snow Jul 2013
i read at the end of books
      acknowledgments
                           and in most of them
there's a thankyou
         directed at their "loving" "supportive" family
how they made their love for writing
    and helped them every way possible
                                                        ­                 i have a cat
                                                                ­         but he doesn't help
                                                            ­             support? i guess so
                but no, my parents and family
    they ridicule me for my writing
   it'll never be worth my effort and time

                            i'm scared that one day
        what their trying to say
             will finally get through to me
                                      i'll realize that my writing isn't worth anything
                                                        ­               it's not worth effort
i don't want that day to come
and no you're not going to be
in my acknowledgments,
my cat might
you wont
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I starved myself
for 45 hours
am I skinny yet?
I covered myself
with cuts so
people would look
deeper than
my skin and
see the real me
am I pretty yet?
sorry it's been so long
413 · Aug 2013
finally i'm home alone
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i've a pounding headache.              
i havet eaten much.                                
i need a coffee
and maybe some music
Sorry this is not even a poem, idk
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