I want to know
if touching my skin
ever gave you
tingles down your spine

because simply hearing
you speak, made me shivers
down mine

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*i'd be the happiest person ever, if you woke here

no


you still


hurt me


yes


I still


need you

i want someone to love me back  
i want to be the only one they see
in a massive crowed                      
but                                                    
you're the only person
who saw me                  
and as sweet as it was
        as happy as i was
you're gone  
       forever
   ..love x
i still love you

wanting you is:                                                                        

                                                            like I’m missing a lung
                                          yet still trying to breathe
                                no taste on my tongue
                                        taste-buds, are on leave

needing you is:          

stomach quartered in size                                              
requiring even less intake                                                        
voice-box only utters lies                                            
solely what it can make                                                        

seeing you is:                

my eyes no longer itch                                                                    
you are their soothing balm                                                                                  
feeling my wind pipe hitch                                                        
before i begin to calm                                                                                

                     having you is:

                                         giving me heart attacks
though it beats even stronger
                     my brain, thoughts it lacks
                                           everyday things take longer

hating you is:                  

my mind towered with bricks                          
all walls have gaps and holes                                        
my soul punches and kicks
till my fire is reduced to coals                                            

                                                                                                                  loving you is:

                                                                                                                  never ending ache to my being
                                                                                                                 i require you to live day-to-day
                                                                                                                  you near me is my soul freeing
                                                                                                                      so please, let me live, stay

.≈.~.≈.~.≈.

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*idk don't ask

3am
and I
forgot
what
it's like
to feel
useless
to the
universe

charcoal pencils
scraped across blank paper
dark stains and smudges
unable to remove

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telling someone to smile
isn't making them want        
                            to smile
it's simply forcing them                        
to fake one
                                is that what you want?

i really need to scream
all          these
emotions out

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i hope you know
that i've finally realized
how much of a liar you are
and i feel sorry
for all the girls
who fall for you
like i did
you liar

i saw a boy and girl today
                           they were about our age
the boy looked nothing like you                                                                                            
the girl looked nothing like me                                                                                              
                                                                    yet something
                                                  about the way they were
                                                              around each other
                                        how they seemed to know the
                                                                  others thoughts
                                            without talking or anything
and it made me think                                                                      
if thats how we look to others too                                                                                            
like we're
connected
maybe
its just
love
♡

what's the space between space called
what makes the darkness darker
where's the highest height, lowest low
how does light lighten up things
how is there a place between places
how does a smell stay smelly
what gravitates gravity

well his eyes aren't blue
but he holds the sky
in his gaze
and his body isn't muscly
but he is able to hold
back the demons
his mind isn't light
but his thoughts
get flighty
his heart isn't strong
but it beats and
two is better
than one

fuzzed out thoughts
where the meaning
is still there
embedded
just to
hurt

the wheels on the bus go round and round
- i drag myself to school to escape home.
round and round
- school is too much. home again.
round and round
- sleep comes at 2am
the wheels on the bus go round and round
- dreams or nightmares are distant fuzz
all the way to school

the baby on the bus goes wah wah wah
- hold emotions in, or people will know
wah wah wah
- don't want people to know they won't understand
wah wah wah
- they think their school crushes, gossip,
the baby on the bus goes wah wah wah
- school dances, will end them.
all the way to school

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