well with the poem following this one, you'd assume I'm talking about one person, I'm really not, it's one of those slightly annoying 'you're important' 'everyone's important' kinda things :\
i dont think you understand how sorry i am how stupid and silly i feel i fell am f a l l i n g but i remember
you fell hard a while ago and i tried to catch you you were just in my fingertips i'm sorry i didn't do good enough i am i'm so so so so sorry i didn't know what its like to be falling and know you're falling
but not be able to do anything about it i'm sorry for not grabbing you for not catching you
◊ i've found that when i really get to know people i know them so well that i know what they're thinking before they can say it sometimes its a little weird but i just cant help it i get to know people too well ◊
its so amazing how you just seem to know without me saying anything that i'm slightly doubting your love for me and you remind me of it of how strong it is how true it is how much you need me
you seem to know when i need you to tell me of this i dont know how you do but this is just another reason why i love you
why do i live?why do i live?why do i live?why do i live?why do i live?why do i live?why do i live?why do i live?why do i live?why do i live?why do i live?why do i live?why do i live?why do i live?
no, if "god" existed/cared i wouldn't be alive someone is lying i don't care for the truth anymore but i shouldn't be alive
i don't know if i have the effort or inspiration to write anything today i'm too tired and my brain is completely focused on you but you're too perfect and art will not amount to you even if i try
so i don't know if i'll write any more poems today
i've got my poetry and if you don't care about that i don't care about you i'm over trying to be who you want i'm over it i'm not smart i'm not sporty accept it I'M NOT YOU
and i don't care i'm not trying for you i'm living for me thankyou.
you want to die sometimes i want to die sometimes you live for me i live for you you'd die for me i'd die for you ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ /\ / \ / \ / \ /----------------\
i hope nothing pushes these scales either way because it'll end in our death
maybe i don't but i know pain and it's not here when you are love, no one really knows if it's ever real i'll take what i've got on the wing if it's not love well i love what we have
it scares me that i don't actually completely know what you want from me .\ and i don't think that you'll ever tell me the complete truth i don't think you want to / . /
i haven't felt the need to be perfect for you because i know i'm perfect for the person i love and they're perfect for me so where's the need for me to change only for you
i'd really like to make a book filled to the brim with my poetry i'd really like it if my poems connected with people made them feel less alone i'd really like to meet my readers to know they're real people and let them know i'm real i'd really like to write and make it my career