people say                                                                        
they hate being home alone                                          
for too long                                                                      
it's too quite.                                                                    
they play music, the TV is on                                        
just so they wont feel so alone                                      
i love being alone
no one is here
to expect anything of me
so i do more than if
everyone is home, and asking me
to do things, because i'm not.
i'm alone all the time                                                      
so being physically alone                                              
almost feels like you're here                                        
not them, you                                                                  
like you're simply sleeping
in our shared bedroom
because you didn't get to sleep
until late//early morning
you were too busy
watching me sleep, and keeping me safe
so you didn't sleep until you were sure
i was okay

i'm the living, dead without him

if people talk about me
behind my back                  
i really don't mind                
i don't hear it,
it doesn't bother me
why do you care if they do?
why are you scared to tell people about me?
...yeah it hurts, you don't want them to know?        
why?

i just love
him so much

no                                                          
i've changed    
my mind              
it comforts me more now                          
because i know                                                  
that when i plunge                                                            
into its                                                                                          
depths                                        

i wont                  
have to come back  
to a place            
i have to call "home"

lay me down
on a tower of cards
watch them buckle
as i fall through

pictures of you            
hold no texture  
hold no warmth
hold no love      
all i want                              
is to hold you            
and you to hold me              
safe

i know you're not sleeping well    
you're hiding it from me                
you're not telling me                ♡    
but i can tell                      i'm sorry
i know                      and i just wish
♡                        i could be there  
to hold you tight at night
until you slept soundly and safe

waiting
i don't know
what for
but i
need it
and time
isn't passing
quick enough