to be pushed down the steps to hell
than climb your way up  to  heaven

i can't look at pictures of you
       not yet, it hurts too much
yesterday went well
i didn't shake, cry,
break down
                                       today?
all of the above;
i began shaking, crying
                      silent tears
and i broke down
                                                    all because
                                                    i saw you
                                                    all your videos
please, stop hurting me
please, stop please stop
i can't handle this