i had a dream
that you were here
holding me safe
in this dream
i wanted to talk to you
so i was simply going to open
my eyes, and talk to you
i woke                                                             ­                         
i opened my eyes                                                             ­      
and instead of you holding me                                            
the reality of your absence                                                     
weig­hed down                                                             ­           
because i was awake                                                            ­  
and you slept                                                            ­              
six feet down                                                             ­             
never to wake again                                                            ­  
this is why i don't sleep
because i'll wake up alone
the nightmares of your death
used to keep me awake
now the dreams of your life
makes me not want to sleep
because i want to sleep forever
six feet down
held safe in your arms
never to wake again

i've been stumbling around            
reaching out in all directions
and i can't find you                            
you're not there
there's nothing there
no one there
i miss you                      
please                  
someone
hold me

hold me tightly                                        
and dream about someone else                                                                            
whisper sweet nothings to me                                                  
picturing another face                                  
you can lie to me,                      
be unfaithful        
but hold me at night                                                                    
and make me feel alright                                                              
i'll fall for you
but its okay                    
if you never fall for me
i'm nothing to fall for anyway                          
but please                                                                                        
just make me feel                                                                    
as though                                                                              
maybe there's a reason                                                                                  
for me to live                                                                          
tell me sweet lies        
whisper fake affection
dream of another        
but hold                        
*me

how much          
until there's            
no more      
left?

how much        
until i die?