i miss him
i miss you

i don’t know what to do

Its okay to not feel okay
Its okay to want a little space
I promise throughout those days
I'll be waiting for you

i thought it was real

because the sight of you
it makes me want to scream

i’d douse myself in gasoline
ignite into flames
if it would mean

i’d see you reach out
once more
and help me

my love
i thought it was real

but it was just too good to be true
i’m over it
but my stomach fills with
stones
and rocks
and pebbles

i want to *****
and bleed out
at the sight of you

because you lied to me

more
than I
could ever be
I pictured us
just you and me
sitting under a blooming tree
we only needed us
for company
but times are changing
my mind's rearranging
my hands are shaking
my heart is finally aching
cause
it wasn’t me