A silent symphony plays in the background
Soothing the atmosphere of its whispers and tears
There's an aroma of quietness all around
A hint of madness in serenity it bears
Tommorows cease to exist from now on
and can you not hear
Life singing the yesterday's songs
To be lost in the approaching calmness my dear
Time slows down to a halt
Too tired to move and caress the impending doom
And night saves the memory to be kept in a vault
Safe and hidden from the looming gloom
And I lie in ecstasy
a dream I longed to dream
A fading reality
To be erased of all that I've seen
And I recall my oldest friend
A hope that I banished long ago
But it haunts me again in the end
And the hope to feel alive grows
A spark in the embed darkness
Ignites the desires I locked away
And it possess me once again
To let me please my whites and greys
And I bleed of all that poison
That this world and I brew
Letting go of all the answers
That once my soul knew
Slowly but surely
The coldness I nurtured is replaced by the warmth of my sin
And I wonder with peace
What the marrow may bring
And I dream away my life
As I exhale my last precious breath
Forever lost in my sweet dream
into the approaching beautiful death

your face went on every
milk carton in my dreams
when you went missing
& i listened to a song
about how the churches
in your hometown
were built from the martyred mahogany
of shipwrecks
i dare you
to think i can't rip
the very mood
from your temperate fingertips
when i am cold
and hell bent
on seeing you oceans away, wince
this is not an
"i saw this coming all along" poem
or a "i still wonder about the moments between breaths when your phone lights up" poem..
this is a will & a way
with brass knuckles
maybe a barehanded bludgeon
but i swear i'm trying
to sleep at night
without wondering how cold
it is in your bed.
so mother goose
tell me about
the whispered prayers
crammed into the earthquakes
you call hands
about an ennui
that speaks to me.

I don't understand you
I never did.
You are an incomprehensible, alien creature
Attractive in your unpredictability
Devastating in your detachment
Locked away from me in a strange, unfeeling world.
You don't need friends
You don't need me
And soon, I hope, I won't need you either.
I don't understand you
I never did.

In the coldest time of the year we found love.
We walk where the christmas lights shine and the snow sparkles.
We walk not in the same step but with the same heart beat.
You kiss so sweetly.
Under the mistletoe we are now and I feel so alive.
I know i am the world to you.
On a cold winter night we would be together drinking hot chocolate.
We would not fight but share beautiful laughter.
Your voice sounds like a soft violin melody.
Your laugh makes me smile.
Your eyes looking in mine make my heart skip a beat.
I love you happened in a flash but I don't mind.
I hated winter and winter had a bad place in my heart.
Now you have made winter beautiful and warm.
I see my future with you and it is so lovely.
We are two beautiful stars dancing together in the night sky.
One day you will come to me and say will you marry me.
I hope its in winter under the mistletoe because that is when my life changed.
You are so lovely.
You are a unique and beautiful snowflake dancing down to the pavement.
Yet you are different in my eyes.
Tell me your secrets.
share with me your fears.
For baby there is nothing to hide here.
There are a million stars I could dance with but none dance like you.
Love me through the winters each and every year.
Love me forever little star.
Winter was a bad place but you have made it warm with a love that shines as bright as two stars.