If I make no noise,
am I really alive?
Do I exist
if you can't hear me?
Apparently...
I don't
because if I don't speak first,
I'm not allowed to speak at all
but I have a right to.
No one cares about that though.
They  see right through me,
like you probably do.
I am silence.
I make not a sound
and because I am silence,
I do not matter to you
and I am invisible.

All I do
is disappoint you.
I don't read the right books
I don't pray enough
I don't go to church.
I can do no right in your eyes,
so I hide behind this disguise.
I tell you lies
and play the part
but it's all getting to me.
I can no longer pretend.
This life of lies
was never meant to be.
I want you to see my true colors,
see who I really am.
But i'm scared.
Would you like the real me?
Or is this fake person all you want to see?
Can I show you my true colors?

It hurts
in ways you don't know.
I'll plaster on a smile,
but it's just for show.
You'll never know how I truly feel.
The pain is there.
It's very real.
My hopes and dreams
were yours to steal.
But I guess it was never meant to be
now I see
how things are stacked against me.