I hung up the phone

And collapsed into myself, sobbing

The sky was honey gold with rainbows

And the ocean was a lovely royal blue

You don’t think of me in THAT way

And I wish I didn’t too


I was crying cuz I felt myself physically lose something I had come to depend on

And

I was crying with my eyes shut to pretend nothing happened

And

I was crying over that rainy Sunday morning in the parking lot

When I couldn’t flip my skateboard like you

You held my shaky hands

So that when I thought I would fall you would be right there, your calm hands in mine, your breath on my forehead,

When I fell you fell with me,

Cuz when we go down,

We go down together,

But this time, I was falling FOR you,

Tripping over my laces for you,

Head spinning for you,

Breath catching for you,

With nobody there to catch me.