I am not a fool
I am not stupid
I am  human
I do believe in Cupid
I that night
I was hit by the arrow
I immediately, was in love
I was at first sight
I still was at first light
I will be at the next midnight
I will never make light
I know this is right
I will give you all that I can
I will be, only your man
I will be your biggest fan
I want to plan and plan
I will always stand by u
with you
I will make sure anything we will make it through
I give you my heart
I now start
And
I will give you so much more
I am yours

I love you
I do

am I to late
living without you
is that my fate
letting you go was my life long mistake
now I wait
for the most important date
will you take
with your answer please do not
hesitate
the times we had, we can duplicate
shall we step back up to the starting gate
start where we left off
we are not lost
i know our love is not gone
not with the unspoken bond
to each other I can feel
we are still drawn
come on


no answer

fate
i was to late

shhh..
quite

Things were just not right

Last night

In plan sight

The eyes do not lie

How can you act surprised

This we can never survive

Our demise

How many other guys

Our love

Why would you jeopardize

It has been brutalized

How dare you agonize

It's to late too analyze

Do not promise

And

Ask for another try

When you know it's all lies

Last night my love died

I can not try

I will not cry

I thought our love was tight

For it
I can not fight

can i

i have regrets
since we met
trusting you
should be easy to do
i should not be wondering how to
trusting you
would make my love strong
making us belong
making it last long
trusting you
would stop the mistakes
would stop the heart aches
the heart break
trusting you
would stop us from tearing us apart
would stop my plans to depart
i pray to start
trusting you
would stop my fears
through the coming up years
would stop all the for sure tears
trusting you
give me reason to
then the real love could start
please be smart
!!

of leaving you be
trying to stop my need
trying to stop the bleed

for twenty years
you have been gone
my love kept going on
nothing beyond

twenty years
of tears
of watching my loving peers
loving without fears
staying near and dear

twenty years
of wanting to call you
of blaming you
true

twenty years
of wanting  back in your arms
wishing on the stars
that again everything, would be
could be, ours

twenty years
of being alone
by myself
terrified
I had to hide

twenty years
of no one making love to me
after all these years
due to my overwhelming fears
twenty years
cannot heal
!!

i am sorryt I could not get through
to you
you ignored all the clues
they were in plan view
so many
not just a few
this should not surprise you
i had to
i needed to be true
to me and you
years long overdue
there is so much
we both need to pursue
giving up on you
it's hard not to undo
and i
am feeling blue
do not forget
i really was in love with you
to the end of the earth
i would have followed you
i loved and i lost
this path had to be crossed
we are the cost

Do you want to hear all the why's
You are the one that told all the lies
Thinking that you would get by
Good try
The other guy
Bragging
That you would never tell him bye
Never looking me in the eye
All the things you had to justify
Letting it intensify
Never being satisfied
Putting me on standby
Leaving me high an dry
Always wondering where you were
Asking myself, why
The rules of love
You never applied
Only when you were high
Would  you drop by
All my questions
You denied
With more lies
I became the fall guy
Do not cry
Wipe your eyes
I stopped turning a blind eye
Its
Good bye
!!

are you feeling guilty
did I let you down
did I disappoint you
are you feeling guilty
you were my lover
my friend
are you feeling guilty
at the time
I only took what was mine
are you feeling guilty
jesus, we shared a bed
all of a sudden it's dead
are you feeling guilty
you had to know
when it began
it would end
are you feeling guilty
you took my soul
to places it did not know
thought we had goals
are you feeling guilty
that you
had to go

"Guilty"

when
the love making slows
the relationship no longer grows
for no reason you feel low
the little things start to show
barely saying hello
communicating in morse code
to often they are a no show
stuck on the metro
there is no afterglow
time is borrowed
you constantly explode
not taking the high road
loosing what was bestowed
you just know
when
there are whispers
everyone is talking about what they saw
leaving the details raw
you withdraw
see nothing but the flaws
your no longer in awe
when
you just know
it is time to
go
!!

my biggest fear
is right here
so close
and very near
it did not just appear
nothing was clear
everyday so unclear
my fear
over time
my mind engineered
manifest itself through the years
continue living
do I dare
I have/had nothing to share
I am baffled
I am disgraced here
this fear
will never
has never
disappeared
my fear
cannot heal
its very real
maybe the devils deal
never concealed
what do I feel
my fear
of
me
!!
its real

A friend
Will always be there until the end

Lovers
We  could pretend

A friend
Never gives up on you

Lovers
A lot you go through

A friend
Someone to turn to

Lovers
You could undo

A friend
Never would be untrue

Lovers
Getting use to

A friend
You would attend to

Lovers
Something brand-new

A friend
Since we were twenty-two

Lovers
Long over due

A friend
It grew

Lovers
Learning to love

A friend
Always thinking of

My lover my friend
Not sort of
Not kind of
Its
True love

we did not have a clue
what we would be up too
what we would do
fools
peoples voice
was the most damaging tool
letting it rule
fools
there was way too much pride
even in our lies
just letting them ride
it showed in both our eyes
later our demise
the love dies ?
surprised
how hard we denied
ten years went by
with us side by side
cried
cried
we no longer could hide
we tried
the other side
we had to decide
it could no longer be denied
no more divide
we said goodbye
twenty years has gone by
neither of us was ever satisfied
fools
thinking
that real love dies

I have tried
To live my life with pride
Yes, I have lied
Some things I had to hide
Kept things inside, I tried
I have cried
Been able to keep evil cast aside
God knows I tried
To live by his rules
I tried
I am terrified
To get on my knees an testify
I have tried
To open my heart to love
God knows I tried
I kept my faith, even though
it has been tried
So many things I tried
to justify
I tried to deny
With my life I tried
not to be snide
To let things slide
Take it all in stride
God knows
I tried
!!

Taking your last breath
Dying
Your end
Final
Or
Finally
Your demies
Died
Dead
There is no inmortality
Just life's expectancy
The enemy
Without empathy
Then the eulogy
Mention of your legacy
With sweet pleastantries
Death
There is no clemency
No enmity
Most definitely
Your Destiny
Your penalty
Hopefully respectfully
Then serenity
In taking your heavens breath
Without sadness in your nearing
Death
!!

Thinking of you
The night to get through
Thoughts, they are confused
They have consumed
My mind
So many they are not defined
Torcher
So unkind
Why do they, have to remind
The day, of your decline
The day, you left mankind
The day, of leaving me behind
Ending my time
With my partner in crime
Midnight (awake)
At nighttime
In the light shine
Shadows
Not a figment of mind
A sign
That I find
You are here
Can still hear
When I whisper
" my dear "
Midnight (awake)
Laying here
Holding back the tears
Absences of you
Being near
Years
Of waiting
For you to
Magically reappear
Midnight (awake)
Hoping the door opening
To my death is
Near
!!

None of us
Is here to stay
There are  dues to pay
We are not promised today, nor yesterday
It can be over at a blink of an eye
Bye, bye
That promise is not a lie
Some day, sooner or later
We all die
So why?
The chase for more and more
Such a bore
Making life a chore
So quick to judge
The poor
The *****
Closing the door
To people not like you
Not having a clue
This is what I have got to say
To the who's who
*******!!
You will get what is coming to you
What is due
No lie
We are all pink inside
Bleed red on the outside
We all cry
We all try
We all have pride
This does not need to be clarified
The bible
The guide
Should be applied
When it is not
Good and evil collide
Open your door
Look outside
It cannot be denied
You will see the divide
No one standing side by side
Are you horrified ?
To what is glorified
You should be terrified
I know
Your satisfied
To wear blinders
To cover your eyes
No lie
We all die
In common
We all have forgotten
!!

When did humans loose the ability to be human

??

That, that kept the bible beside his bed
That thanked God every morning he was not dead

I am a man
That, that has no regrets
That forgives and forgets

I am a man
That, that did not want it all
That preferred living small

I am a man
That, that learned from making mistakes
That understood what was at stake

I am a man
That, that never forgot a name
That refused to play all the games

I am a man
That, that knew he was not perfect
That just tried to be correct

I am a man
That, that had no problem admitting to wrong
That admits to being a little headstrong

I am a man
That, that did not mind to share
That would comfort you in your despair

I am a man
That, that will never forget where he was raised
That will never forget those days

I am a man
That, that love has been bitter sweet
That, the one, he has yet to meet

I am a man
That, that has not forgotten
That he is just
A man
!!

we will fight for our last breath
but
then concede to death

!!

after i slip away into the dark space
into the unknown place
after my end
remember, the look on my face
on the day of our first place
not the sick face
remember, my strong beating heart
not the fading part
remember, my soft touch to your face
not the times
that i could not reach up, to touch that smiling face
because i was in a bad place
remember, when i would lay with you
the warmth
remember, the lighter times
not the darker times
the times that were only yours and mine
remember, all the joy
not this sorrow
remember, our time is borrowed
we are not promised tomorrow
remember, my love
lasted the whole time i was on this earth
and
it will last beyond my re-birth
remember, i had no fears
do not cry
do not shed tears
remember, i am just in a different place
i will always be watching over that smiling face
remember
i was sorry
i could not stay
and
it was meant to be this way
!!

I want you to tell me how
With all these clouds
How our love can be allowed
Regardless of our promise
of our vow
I don't know
After you went solo
Our love you overthrow  
When you let everything go
Bringing us down so low
It has not been that long ago
I think his name was Joe
What a low blow
It still burns
As the world still turns
Lesson learned
Loving you what as it earned
You will not listen to my terms
They are firm
I see through the charm
No matter the tears or the performance
It is of no importance
With all the clouds
It is storming
Because you gave no warning
I am listening

How?
You can tell me
now
!!

I can not believe


Just friends
Is not satisfactory
All you need to do is agree
can't you see

How can we loose
So sad
If we do not have a romance
And
Take a chance

Could you ?
Would you ?

Promise I will be true to
you

I have feelings for you
When I am around you
I get so excited over you

Friends
To the end
That we can amend
Rules were made to bend


Friends
Make the best girlfriends

Friends
Make the best boyfriends

Please do not say it depends
Ask me when
Lets begin


You and me
more than
just
Friends
??

Church
Where you should go to confess your sins
A place I have hardly been
I have had no real cause
It has been hard for me to follow those good laws
Yes, I guess a real dog
Of why, I do not have a long monologue
With the preacher I have never had a dialogue
God knows !!
Something that I chose
Living within the Devil's shadow
That was then
This is now
It's Sunday
Oh Lord my God when I in awesome wonder
Consider all the worlds thy hands have made
I see the stars, I hear the rolling thunder
Thy power throughout the universe displayed
When Christ shall come
With a shout of acclaimation
To take me home what joy shall fill my heart
Then I shall bow in humble adoration
And there proclaim my God how great thou art
Then sings my soul my savior God to thee
How great thou art
It's Sunday
!!

Pray
Your family they will know your embrace
That there is lots of love, than just a trace
Pray, that you will know God's grace
That heaven will one day be your home place
Pray, that you will never be deceived
That you will live free
Pray, that all your dreams come true
Your never blue
Pray, you will achieve all that you pursue
That all your difficulties you will make it through
Pray, that you never have to grieve
That you will always believe
Pray, your eyes never fill with tears
That you never know fear
Pray, you have good health for years
That any evil disappears
Pray, you are never alone
That love is all you have known
Pray, that you will always be at your best
That you are blessed
Pray, that you are never down and out
That you live free of doubt
Pray, that you never loose your way
That you trust in whatever comes your way
Pray, that you never loose your will to fight
For what is right
Pray, that you will always be wise
That you will not fall for all the lies
Pray, that you will always here I love you
That you are due
Pray, that you find the passage way to
Happiness
!!
A prayer for you and all

Until
The first lie
The second lie
Then the third lie
I ignored
They continued
Then I was floored
No longer could I absorb
I could not ignore
All of my wondering
The answers came from you
There was more than just a few
Clue after clue
Two wrongs does not make it right
Now I have so much insight
Everything is not alright
In hindsight
Why fight
For what might
I will do my best to be polite
We will no longer unite
No appetite
Never come into my sight

A liar
I
Trusted
!!

How could you ever forget
When there was no threat
Nothing suppressed
Not yet, any regrets
The First
When it was all about when, where and how
you would connect
Totally obsessed
With very little farewells
Only they, were you aware
Their faults you easily could accept
Harsh words never in eithers alphabet
The First
You just knew it would go on and on
Never giving thought
that it would not last a lifetime
Committing all the love crimes
It was not just from time to time
It was fulltime
The First
You could not accept less
You needed more and more
When you did not have to ask for
There was no walking out the door
You just stayed indoors
To explore
Ending with an encore


The
First
!!

Long legs
Smooth back
Nice racks
A ***** that does not slack
Looking good from the back
Where there should be no lack
Always showing a little crack
Easily tracked
That would make me pull it out and jack
That is not a little snack
****
The way they walk and talk
Watching, makes you want to attack
Double back
Down boy, it want bounce back
That big mac
Ridding bare back
A man that does not lack
A big swinging sack
A six pack
White or black

****
Getting it on
With either or

With all my loves
I always tried to put them above
I had been so blessed
But, I failed all of their test
Now looking back
I have become so depressed
Because
I could not pick just one from all the rest
Just one best
Always, I was wanting to see the next beauty
undressed
Looking with these wondering eyes
Never wondering why
or should I say, asking why
The only word I knew was goodbye
Never looking directly into their eyes
I never lied
I sure cannot say it was because of to much pride
I think all I wanted was the moments of what they
could provide
I was never looking for a bride
I was always upfront again I never lied
I question the word I often used
"Tried"
If there was any feelings they were denied
Always needing the next best, something on the side
Never just satisfied
Always feeling dissatisfied
Two words that coincide
I did my best?
Now terrified
Justified
!!

I go numb
From the things that I  see
It makes me feel so humdrum
Yep, really glum
Feeling nothing
As small as Tom Thumb
Just dumb
Just setting back waiting for God to come
To clear this earth of all the pond ****
Again and again
I ask
What have we become
Where did we come from
All of us living to the beat of our own drum
Again and again
I feel nothing
Happy faces
Sad faces, replaces
In so many places
Love, just traces
What happened to good graces
There is no bases
For getting caught up in the rat races

to see another day
is it the price that I must pay
for when I strayed
a thought, but not denied
i cried
i tried
is it because of to much pride
that i have not died
i was petrified
what a ride
what will god decide
as he sets at my bedside
maybe an assisted suicide
cover my head and hide
until i die
why lie
no more time to buy

life's victim
??

Lies  
Not looking me in the eyes  

Your surprise  
Our demise  

Me calling one thousand times
Love crimes  
"Just sometimes"

You breaking my heart
Breaking us apart  

Not knowing nothing at all
You dropping the ball  
You making me feel so small

Me always being on my own
Being alone

Always needing proof
Sending me through the roof
You being so aloof

You never taking any pride
You constantly saying goodbye
Me having to spy

Me being put on standby
Another guy
Just getting by
To survive

The mistakes
The accidents

I cannot justify


!!

I forgot my name
I felt insane
No need to explain
Blood still rushing through my veins
Heart still beating the same
Today
My life, a picture wrapped in a frame
Feeling no shame
No one to blame
Today
What it became
It's fair game
Today
I will not keep my eyes shut
Maybe I will act like a nut
Maybe walk with  a strut
Today
I still have a brain
I will not have to be trained
I cannot be restrained
Today
All I have to do is sustain
It will be a campaign
To keep it simple and plain
Today
I met a girl named Mary Jane
All I see and hear I will retain
I will not be held back by chains
Today
I will have gained
It will not be mundane
I will not feel drained
Today
I will not be contained
How could I complain
Today
It will be alright
I will not be contrite
It will be a delight
Today
Despite !!
Today
I will not be uptight
Life will not be a fight
Today
It will be humane
!!

WHAT HAPPENED TO
HUMANITY
THE INSANITY
ALL THE PROFANITY
SO MUCH VANITY
WHAT HAPPENED AFTER
GOD'S RISE
ON A SLIDE  
ALL THE GOODNESS HAS
DIED  
HATE
YOU CAN SEE IT
IN SO
MANY EYES
NO AGNOY
NO APATHY
NO AMNESTY
HATE
IN EVERY ACTIVITY
COMES NATURALLY
ANGRILY
WHAT A CALAMITY
A CATASTROPHE
THE DEVIL IS ON THE RISE
THE REASON WHY
HATE
OH IT'S TO LATE
HUMANITY TOOK
THE BAIT
THERE IS
A DATE
WHEN HELL WILL OPEN
IT'S GATE
BECAUSE OF THIS COMMON
TRAIT

"HATE"
!!