To stop all the fuss
Slow, there is no reason to rush
To stop making to much of stuff
It's time we
reach out an touch
each other
Forgiving one another
Remembering we are all sisters and  brothers
Start showing love to the other
Just like you would to your mother  
Not someday
but here and now
Not asking how
Making a vow
For us all to allow
Not forgetting
To smile at each other
Not forgetting  
This place is  for all of us
It's time we learn
Bridges we should not burn
The tables need to be turned
It's time for all us
To stop being afraid of each other
To
Just  
Love
One another
!!

i will ask for forgiveness
for my sins
as this one life ends
there is so much, i need to mend
with all of my family and  friends
with past girlfriends
with my last breath
there is no reason to pretend
so i will make amends

i am sorry that you wept
i am sorry i was a man without depth
i am sorry for not being grateful
i am sorry for the promises that were unkept
i am sorry i was so hard to accept
i am sorry for the time that was not spent

with my last breath
in my descent
the bad things they were not meant
done i promise without intent
i do and will repent
asking for forgiveness i need no consent

i made so many mistakes
i never put on the brakes
with my last breath
i realize family and friends you can never replace
with life there is not a retake
what you do, what you have done, you cannot erase  

with my last breath
I will ask
forgive me
please
!!

Will I be left on my own
Will I become one of the unknown
Who will visit my grave
Cry, moan an grown
Will I be left alone
Will it be the price I pay
Because of the way I lived my days
and
My sinning ways
Who will visit my grave
On the cloudy and rainy days
Who will come and pray
More then a minute will they stay
Who will visit my grave
A single flower they gave
As I lay in my grave
an decay
Who will visit my grave
on
Sunday's  
Will everyone stay away
Leaving me all alone
with my bones
A man not well liked or known
On my head stone
This will be engraved
Who will visit my grave

The man that dug my grave ?
!!

Heaven takes away your sorrow
A place for hero's  
Hell loves sorrow
Sinners in an
Inferno

Heaven or Hell
I guess time will tell

Heaven will never leave you out in the cold
Hell, hot, so I have been told

Heaven or Hell
I guess time will tell

Heaven will sooth the soul
Hell, nothing but a big burning hole

Heaven or Hell
I guess time will tell

Heaven will set you free
Hell you will want to  flee

Heaven or Hell
I guess time will tell

Heaven, the pearly white gates
Hell, nothing but charcoal awaits

Heaven or Hell
I guess time will tell

Heaven full of Christians
Hell full of people that would not listen

Heaven or Hell
I guess time will tell

Heaven a  place I would stay

Hell a plaice I will stay away

I guess time will tell
!!

I have a loving side
I have a kind side
I have a mean side
I have a silent side
I have a loud side

I had a straight side
I had a gay side
I had a bi side

Poor, been on that side
Rich, been on that side
Homeless, I have seen that side

Single I had that side
Relationships I have had all sides

Bad boy one of my sides
Country boy loved that side
City boy another side

I had a healthy side
I have had my sick side
I have had an alcoholic side
Some drugs on the bad side  

I have had a smart side
a
Dumb side

Know me
and all of my sides
I have only been
me
myself
and
I
!!

It's your soul letting you know
!!

I have some questions
I want take much of your time

What is up with this world ??
Why can't man see others needs ??
When did it become about me, me, me ??
When did mankind become so blind ??
With such closed minds
When did they become so unkind ??
When did they become disinclined ??
Why did they start leaving so many people behind ??
When did they stop listening to you ??
And
Start listening to the so called masterminds
When was the exact moment they started
their decline ??
When did they fall from your grace ??
At such a fast pace
When did they lose face ??
How did they become such a disgrace ??
Have you been watching this crazy political race ??
Are you ashamed of this place
It was once your showplace
When did they decide it's not worth fighting for ??
When did they forget you are Lord
Do they not realize after this
there is so much more
It's our reward
Maybe not
Because they are so inclined
to destroy
this
World
??

No other place near

No other place so dear

Year after year

Somewhere we both appear

Here

In it's atmosphere

We stay

Not based on fear'

and  

without tears

Right here

Nothing disappears

Here

Where our love premiered

Born the love affair  

One life we share

Not making it on a prayer

Somewhere
Where ever
Is

HERE
!!

In my sleep
In my dream
Heavens team
I could plainly see
they came to me
Daddy was there
Grandpa and Grandma
Aunts and uncles to
To give me a preview
Of heavens realm
They grab my soul
and off we go
Weaving through the clouds
high and low
Then we slow
There for me to view
The pearly white gates
Streets of gold
Must have been one heck of a look
on my face
In his full grace
There God stood
It's all good
Guess what
He is not dead
He was greeting everyone
No one fled
Next thing I knew
I was laying, wide awake, in my bed
was I asleep
was it in my dream
Smiling
No matter
I found out
God is not dead

Last night
!!

This I own
I choose to be
I have chosen to be
It is sad, now, that I have no one
to call my own
No one living in my home
Have I been lonely
sure-years
Non without tears
No one to comfort my fears
Nor to hear my cheers
No one waiting for me
upstairs
Laying here still alone
No one laying next to me
For some reason, I did not think,
someone I would ever need
Now  becoming  more needy
Really need some one next to me
Yes I have family
They are so busy actually
Reality

Now that my death is even more near
I fear
So many more tears
There are no more cheers
No one waiting upstairs for me
No one living in my home

I guess I will fulfill my destiny
and will die
Alone
!!

That I would kneel and pray.....As I knelt I thought what will I pray.....For my family? I do that anyway......I know, I will pray that all men will be brave and learn how to behave and stop blowing each other away.....Then I thought I should pray for the lonely that love will come their way.....Maybe I will pray for all the faces that I have seen covered in pain to stop the blame .....I should, pray for the kids that have to runaway and loose their way.....That mothers will be mothers, fathers will be fathers and will teach their kids the right way......I will pray for the men and women that fight our wars and that there will be no more......I need to pray for the hungry  that their hunger will go away, for the poor that they suffer no more.....I will pray for people with addictions that their addiction will disappear and go away......For the sick and dying that they feel no more pain , in God's name.....That these dark times come and go and we will see more rainbows .....

That everyone is treated the same

Today I decided that
I would kneel and pray
As I knelt
I thought what would I pray

After all my thoughts
It dawned on me
I just prayed
!!

Torn
Without color we all should be born
Because of, all we do now is mourn
As untimely deaths come to our
First born
Second born
Third born
Just because of their skin color
Our brothers
It's time we lay the weapons down
We all come together
Stand altogether
To stop loss of lives because of someone's skin color
(Black skin is not a sin)

This world
Torn
Now all we do is mourn
Terrorist
Evokes, fear across the world
Your neighbor?
Yes, they could be that near
Watch the news
It's something new every morning
They **** with no warning
Then our world goes into mourning
It's time
They lay their weapons down
For us all to come together
Stand altogether
To stop them from going into any town
Let us not back down

This world
Torn
Now again we are mourning
Caused by mass shootings
Because someone thought it was their duty
Not being choosy
In their shooting
Execution
Afterwards people standing behind
( the second amendment )
Of an aged constitution
It's time
For us all to come together
Stand altogether
To change the
Constitution
There is no other solution

It's time
For us all to come together
Stand altogether
To stop
The pollution  
of  minds
!!

When people use to pray
When the bible showed us the way
Them were the good 'O days
When people did not stray
From them good ways
When every Sunday was the Lord's day
When you feared the end of days
When people walked the good pathways
When people wanted to climb heavens stairway
When we did not with everyone lay
When we married to stay
When we knelt down to pray
Them were the good 'O ways
When our days were not gray
When our neighbors were in trouble
we did not turn our backs and turn away
When sinners were welcomed in church
everyday
When the American Flag was always on display
When all men were brave
And knew how to behave
When you were on the roadway
Everyone nodded and waved

When everyone was treated the same way

What happened
to
Them good 'o days
The good 'o ways
!!

Come from expecting

You expect your husband to do laundry on his day off
Instead he plays golf
Disappointed

You expect to get the promotion
There was never a notion
Disappointed

You expect a raise
All you hear is nay's
Disappointed

You expect an I love you
Because you thought it was due
It does not happen
Never just in passing
Disappointed

You expect an A on the test
Because you did your best
Instead an F
Disappointed

You expect the kids to clean their mess
You pick up the rest
Disappointed

You expect flowers
You wait for hours
None
Disappointed

You expect great ***
You leave perplexed
Disappointed

You expect your date to be on time
All you can hear is the clock chime
Disappointed

Expectations
Lead
to
Disappointments

Lots, A Ton  
Having a taste of a sweet bun
Don't know the meaning of none
Can't stop once it has begun
I am never done
With having fun
I am not to old
I have no grandsons
You will not see me with a shotgun
I will always have a water gun
How fun !!
I am free
You should come hang with me
The fun will proceed
Trust me !!
You see!!
I do not give a **** !!
Always doing what I want
Fun, I flaunt
***
My house on the lake front
Lets just say I do not  bunt
But sure the hell can grunt...WINK
Not over with, at a blink
I will bring you to the brink
**** straight I am the missing link
Drink !
Drink !
Drink !
While those champagne glasses clink  
Oh yes it is exactly what you think
Believe me you will not rethink

LIFE DOES NOT STINK
HAVE SOME FUN
!!!

You warned me
It was close to the end
There is nothing left to mend
No, we will not be friends
Got to let it go
Thought our love was strong
I guess I was wrong
How long
No reason to prolong
Not lasting one more day
No more dues to pay
Going to miss our play
Be on your way
You will never find anyone that
makes love like me
You will see
I am sure you will agree
While your searching for someone like me
I am telling you
After you get through a few
You will want to come back to me
You say please
I will remind you
You told me
Now I am telling you
!!

That I caused
No reason really
Maybe just because
I broke all the love laws
No heart for me from my visit to OZ
Now I have to take pause
To all the pain that I caused
I am sorry for that pain
Looking back, I can see how lame
For all, I was to blame
******* my middle name
Referring to you as nothing more than a dame
Now feeling so much shame
I never treated you as my equal
or the same
My M O and my game
A bad boy was my claim to fame
All that *******, I have overcame
Being a man is to lay claim
"****"
What a foolish man
No wonder her and everyone else has ran
and
Avoided jumping back into the frying pan

Now I have a different plan
!!

Standing on my own two feet
Nothing I have to beat
Only life, I have to, I need, to cheat
Lessons learned

I am a simple man
Unfortunately, so many not a fan  
Judging me
Because I am a different man
Because I am who I am
Called me so many different names
It is not who I am
In return not calling them
I would never abuse them
I am just that kind of man

It is not in me
or
I do not have a need to
Please

Society
Does not define me
I do not need it's pity

I am a man
A **** good man
Standing on my own two feet
Doing the best I can
!!

With our families and our friends
Never Enough Time To Spend
Just letting our lives blend
Never Enough Time To Spend
Seems to be a normal trend
Never Enough Time To Spend
The words, I intend
Maybe this weekend
Regret, we will in the end

Time is of the essence
Family and friends
Becoming more of a quintessence's

Here today and gone tomorrow
Then feeling so much sorrow
Time, you cannot borrow

!!

When I see you and my heart drops
and it almost stops
Is it Love
When I can not wait to see you
and I do not ask, is this really true
Is it Love
When I have made my mind up
and I do not think it over
Is it Love
When you are enough
And I want to give everyone else up
Is it Love
When it is not just another hookup
and I do not want to ***** it up
Is it Love
When we smile
While looking at each other face to face
Is it Love
When we do not mind sharing the same space
no matter the someplace
Is it Love
When we embrace
and we do not go to first base
Is it Love
When I knew in one moment
and I stop hoping
Is it Love
When I do not ask for more
and it's you I adore

Is it love
When I do not ask anymore

Tears shed for our peers
Yes, our peers
Human as they appear
June 13th 2016

Just out for a beer
At the start everything was unclear
A man is shooting dressed in his terroristic gear  
In an instant
It turned into unimaginable fear
Shooting people  
that were held dear
Fear with tears
Begging the man not to shoot
He knew is route
And continued to shoot
Hiding they could only see
the pacing of  his boots
Him again getting ready to shoot
His victims no time to dispute
One after the other he continued and
continued and continued to shoot
More then hundred times
He does his crimes
Dead are
FORTY NINE
Brothers and sisters
of
Yours and mine  
!!

Why
Do people judge
And
Think it is their job
To
Presume
And
Judge
And
Someone's life
They
Do not care to
Smudge
Those people who
Judge
To me
Are nothing but
Sludge
If you judge
I will
Hold a grudge
Judging
To me
Is hatred
It's no one's
Job to
Judge
Because there is
Only one
Judge

It's been such a long time
It seems like, my whole life time
It's been a long time since everything was alright
And the sun shined bright  
Hell !!
No one ringing my bells
Not under anyone's spell

Hotel after hotel
Oh well !!
So many different girls
Fake blonds and died brunettes
Bad girls
You know the kind, that would never ware pearls  
Even some guys along the way
Please do not tell
Now do you understand my hell
Those **** pills
Waking up in landfills

I have changed my ways

Waking up in a ****** hotel
His picture was staring at me
It was meant to be
As I stared back at  him
I ask, where have you been
I have been asking for you, for a long time
I am at my end
I am worn thin

I started looking within
He promised me better days
I promised him I would change my ways
He whispered in my ear, " I am hear to stay"
The very next day
No more ****** hotels
No more pills
No more waking up in landfills
No more bad girls
Only the one's that ware pearls

That picture of our lord
Pulled me out of my

LIVING HELL

That word
That name
So many definitions it entertains
Purity  
Dignity
Honesty
Modesty
Flawlessly
Prophecy
Prodigy
A representation of man
What he wanted us to be  
I question
What happened to his plan
What happened to man
From now to the start with Adam and Eve
We have lost our faith and what we should believe
I  greave
For man while we are still in this world
Up until the time we have to leave
Man
That word
That name
So many definitions it entertains
Greedy
Needy
Seedy
Cheesy
So easy
******
Restore our faith and start to believe
Before we leave
!!

Not defined by:
By a car
That we drive a Mercedes instead of a ford  
Nor a golden credit card
Or if we are the chair of a board
By all the awards
Or how we serve our lord
By how big our front door
Or from how much more
Nor by winning a war
Or by our décor
Nor what we can buy in a store
Or by our address
By that fancy dress
Nor because we can live on the highest floor
Or because we are good looking and adored
Nor by the big diamonds locked in a drawer
By that we have money galore

A class war??

We should be defined by:
So much more
!!

What makes you feel that you would want to
That you would like to
That you need to
So strong
It nags
Until you
Give in
To something new
Which could be way over due
What it is ,I am sure you have a clue
***
*******
Drugs
Getting a tattoo
The urge
For something taboo
To paint yourself blue
To pursue
Someone to *****
Or that is equal to
The urge
Drives you to do what is not good for you
Makes you do the wrong things
Almost everything
The urge
Can definitely make you sin  
When it takes control of you
That is when it begins
With
The Urge
!!

We both know
This as nowhere to go
Us both
The love stopped
There will be no more growth
Regardless of our oath
Of not giving each other up
It's time to wake up
Break up
Our fears has replaced
Our cheers
I guess it's true
Nothing is ever what it appears
So true were the things that we here
Heard from our peers
I was not for you
You were not right for me
It's a shame we did not realize
But time flies by
Unfortunately love dies
Our love had so many tries
But there were
The lies after lies
We have to drop the disguise
We have to give each other up
Break up
!!

The will to thrive
Trying to survive
It is not a test-drive
It's about living and being alive
Maybe you just need to be revived
Staying alive
While taking a nose dive
You need drive
When needed, taking five
Living and being alive
You owe no one an alibi
I hope you realize
Never no need to apologize
Do not be terrified
You should not be deprived
Living and being alive
Then wait for the surprise
You will not be denied
Just satisfied
Living and being alive
Willingly it will provide
Even in your demise
While living and being alive
Your rules, you only need to abide by
Live
While
Living
Then
You
Will
Be
Alive
!!

"So here goes"

Did you know I have a crush on you
I have nothing to loose
Unless it starts
I don't  know why I am protecting my heart
I have nothing to loose

I often think of you  
If I happen to run into you
Often acting shy
I will hide from you
Don't ask me why
I have nothing to loose

When I am talking to you
My tongue becomes tide
I cannot lie
Kind of hard to hide
Don't ask me why
I have nothing to loose

Your so **** fine
This is not a pick up line
It's pretty much defined
The crush I have on you
Once in a lifetime
I have nothing to loose

Do you have a clue
About this crush I have on you
I will give you a clue
That it is you
Today I ran into you
Soon I will not be able to see you
If this clue helps you
And you think it's you
It's true
It is you
I have nothing to loose

I hope you picked up on the clue
I am ready
If you want to
Letting this start
I think it would be smart
Why not
I have nothing to loose

I have nothing to loose
Yes I do
It's
Loosing you
!!

My fear
Of no one ever loving me again
Love is something everyone needs
Including me
This is not a poor me
Just something about me
You see, there is no difference in me
My heart as well bleeds
I should take the lead
Then vulnerable I would be
Something I cannot be
I have been there you see
And
It just about destroyed me
That need
That is what stops me, to proceed
I have learned how and became content with
it just being me
Caused by my one true love leaving me
Because there was something else that they needed
Unfortunately that need was not me
Believe me I did not agree  
I have no trust left in me
Nor love to give from me
So my fear has become my reality
I am lying here in bed
With no one next to me
Of course I have the fly byes
But
No one that I can look deep into their eyes
No prize
Maybe I should try
But then why should I lie
I have never been able to forget
or forgive

My fear
Is really not being able to love
again
!!

At the first hello
I do not know
Is that when it starts to grow
Or
When you start to feel alone
When there is an empty space
When you cannot see the others face
When you stumble and fall
When you announce it to all
When you are away
When you decide to stay
When you kiss goodbye
When eyes meet eyes
When you know there are no lies
and
No one cries
When you both watch the sunrise
When there are no more goodbyes
Or
When there is no end
When two souls blend
When you do not pretend
Or
When they become your best friend
!!
Love begins

Looking at a blank screen
With a cigarette hanging from my mouth
As I inhale
I am hoping for the words
or a subject to write
Trying to keep it lite
Wanting something to trend
With words that will blend
Nothing about a girlfriend
Nothing about a boyfriend
Nothing that I would have to amend
Nothing that will offend
Something that everyone can comprehend
I don't think I should write about my wild weekend
or
My girlfriends tight end
I guess it will depend
If the words come
And
From where,
my dark side or my light side or my funny side
or my **** side, or my deep side , or from my romantic side
Maybe from my perverted side  
Poet's, how do we decide ?

Where do our words and  subjects come from??
We all have so many different sides

!!

Why do you not share  
Out of fear ?
Scared?
Your fantasy
Of
*******
or of
Big *****
The touch of a whip
Your fantasy
of
Women to women
Men to men
A *******
A foursome
One or more
Walking naked through
someone's door
Your fantasy
Of
Dressing like a man
Dressing like woman
Playing doctor and nurse
Your Fantasy
does not have to be
rehearsed
It is not a curse
your
just quenching your thirst
Go ahead let it be the first
Let your hair down
and
Be submersed
In your fantasy
Get out of your agony
It's not insanity
It is a fantasy
of
Sensuality
Sexuality  
There is no shame
in a little pain
You have nothing to lose
Why would you let it be
such a recluse
Let  loose
be seductive
and
corrupted
In
Your fantasy

You have to be able to feel it
Beat after beat
Be a strong
SONG
Nothing about it can be discreet  
It just has to beat
It has to be alive
"Jive"
It cannot deprive
Needs to
"Thrive"
Drive you crazy
It cannot be lazy
Needs to make your head bounce !!
Every word heavily pronounced
Loudly announced
Make you want to hit the floor
and
"Dance"
"Prance"
Not stand with that I am a model stance
It's got to make you want to take a chance
Make you jump
Put you into a trance
Your senses it has to enhance
!!

Regardless
I have to be me
I am not going to flee
from me
There is not three
of me
just one of me
Not a rich me
Not a poor me
Some where in between is me
That is just fine with me
On all different levels
and
at different degrees
It's me
I was me  
At twenty
At thirty
And at forty
I will be me
I do not and will not
make apologies
for me being me
I will never make excuses
or
ask for forgiveness
It's just me
I answer to only me
Conceded, nah !
That's not me
I am just proud of me

We all should be
Because there is only one of
you and me

!!