It's hard sometimes
You can't relive you past
And you're trapped by a future that won't listen
It's not that you're lost, it's just that
The road hasn't been paved yet
Waiting is like one of those blank mind moments
Nothing to forget
Nothing to remember
Just a feeling that nothing matters as much to you
You're not hurt
You're not inspired
You're not even trying to figure anything out
Existence turns to the sun
Watching it everyday
It's enough for me while my children play

YES!
That's what they want
Tell them
The depths of your despair
How your darkness will eclipse the world
How the light of day will become a memory
How the stars will disappear
Becoming black holes
Imploding within themselves
Drawn inward by your heart
So desperate for light
YES!
Tell them
So they know how hard a smile can be
How hard to hold back the tears of yesterday
But also how beauty can carry itself gracefully
Like you my love
And then they will know what I know
Because it was I who put the darkness in there

I don't know if you can tell
The way I came to you is not how I'm gonna' leave
There is nothing in my conscience left
The emptiness is not a fire burning
It's just a match that doesn't need to be lit
It's only there if I need the help
But I can take it from here
Sometimes you just know you are right
Even if you can't prove it
I grew up when stating my case didn't matter anymore
This time I know I'm right
And waiting for you to agree is not gonna' happen

If I climbed a mountain
But turned back before dawn
If I climbed a mountain
But it was the wrong one
Would it mean I didn’t try hard enough?

I had a doctor give me some bad news
But it wasn’t as sad as when I made you mad
Then there was a traffic jam the other day
Something about a stalled Ford and a light gone bad
And all I can do is talk about something I once had

If I told you that I know you
But ordered the wrong drink
If I told you that I know you
But don’t know what to think
Would it mean I didn’t listen to you enough?

There’s a door next to some peeling paint
The hinges know the glory and the most of the story
We don’t know how to understand the right language
We say the wrong things when love gets too gory
But the worst part is it took this long to say I’m sorry

I have not faced the hardships of life
Not starvation or the humiliation of my soul
Only the war of my idealistic love of self
What a disease could not destroy
Was stubborn pride only a candle could tame
As I became a believer in my special place
Where an angel would always remember me
Not as my lover but as my voice in God's ear
But the silence of my pride feels like surrender
And what faith in my angel once was became
The delusion that I was God's favorite son
I felt all the air in between the words I spoke
Like a lone cloud mingling with a blue sky
An univited stranger pointing at his watch
I turned to my angel but I only saw faded ink
It said time ends when you know you are alone

I keep pushing the walls back
I might be in prison
But it's not going to be something I notice
There's room for a steer's skeleton head
Birds that scatter the wind before them
And a windmill that forgot how to draw water

Everthing in my head is just a backtrack
I need a new rhythm
Everbody says so but then they lose focus
They talk but end up complaining instead
A prison yard that I invent won't condemn
I'm not gonna' be the one despair will conquer

Whatever you are
You meet something else
Part of you is the border
The other part is a long stretch of difference
Will you let them cross
They have to walk on your soul
But the other side you also know
The collision is what knocks down the fence
Nothing stops the wind
Or the birds flying south
If you let it happen that way
A stone becomes a river bed of conscience