Marisa Lu Makil

Marisa Lu Makil Oct 2019

The difference is
When I stopped talking first
She noticed right away

My dad always told me to stop talking to you first, and let you message me instead, and when I did, you never even noticed. When I do the same to her, within a short time, she messages me first. She's everything you never were.

Marisa Lu Makil Oct 2019

Country roads take me home

Sometimes
I'll drive down
Country roads
With the tall trees
Dips and curves in the pavement
Wind reaching through my hair
And the sun warm on my face
And
I can almost imagine
I'm home

It's so peaceful here. I still have many struggles, but God has granted me so much more peace in the last 3 months than I've had in a long time.

Marisa Lu Makil Sep 2019

Jericho

No,
Things didn't turn out
Like we thought they would,
But that's okay,
We make
New cities
From the ashes
Of the old

August 4 marked the 1-year anniversary of my moving here. Things...are so wildly and completely different than I thought they would be. I've lost old friends, gained new ones, and learned to trust that God knows what He's doing and that He does it for my good, and for His glory. Nothing here is what I thought, but it's pretty **** good.

Marisa Lu Makil Sep 2019

Life Without End (all we are pt. 9; finale )

I always wanted
To believe
That there were only good things in my future
That life would be smooth
Like an ocean
After a storm
But You ******* me up
You broke me down
In my heart
And my bones
And I spent so long
Waking up
Inhaling sobs
And exhaling
Misery
And being alive
And not wanting to be
But
It's peaceful now
And I wake up
And I can imagine
Good things happening
Again

Inspired by the series Unbelievable. But these words are so much understood by thousands in different situations. Good things do happen. But you'll only see them if you look.

Marisa Lu Makil Sep 2019

I Dream of Sunshine

The dark returns
I know someday
The sun will shine again

I write the best when in misery

Marisa Lu Makil Sep 2019

God Bless

It hurt at first
It hurt so much
All I could think of
Was pain
And you
And I thought
That the rest of my life
Would be
A rollercoaster
A typhoon
A hurricane
Of never being over you
I never thought
I'd be here
Typing these words
But it's a cool September night
There is a warm breeze in the air
Whispering of the coming fall
And pulling red leaves from their branches
I live in my own home
I love in my own way
And I can finally say
We don't belong to each other
And that's okay
And it doesn't hurt anymore.

I never thought I'd be able to say that I'm over you, because it hurt so much when you left. Time after time. But I am. I am happy, I am never alone, and I surround myself with people who would never make me feel as low as you did. I can finally say that I wish you the best of luck, but we don't belong to each other anymore. I'm over you. I'm finally free.

Marisa Lu Makil Aug 2019

Now and Later

Trust
That He will give you
Great blessings
In His own time.

Waiting on blessings is hard, but it's worth it. I need that reminder more than anyone.