She done gave too much,
To a man who didn't love her.

Must feel ashamed,
When you're only doing it,
You know,
Hurting yourself.
You lost so much weight,
How did that come about?
Oh you won't say?
I catch the clue,
As you make your way through the doors,
To let go of the food,
That you have consumed.

I cry myself to sleep every night,
Because lord knows I’m breaking inside.

I still feel the pain, inside of my heart.
scared of getting hurt once again,
why is it coming back?
why am I crying,
god is it me?
is my heart really allowing me to love this great man,
that I have?
reassuring me,
when I'm feeling low.
"Baby I'm yours"
but is he really?
is he really not like the last man,
I gave myself all too.
Is he worth giving my heart too,
giving my body too?
if I'm feeling like this, is for a reason..
yes?
no?
or maybe I am just overthinking.
but..

Wish I never loved you.

I need strength,
Give me strength.
I cannot take this.
I cannot do this.
My words are screaming,
My chest is pounding.
I need strength.
I need it the most.

Because talking in person is so hard for me, being in front of the only person who makes me feel so proud of ME. So when I speak I rather cry, try to hide the thoughts I hold inside, as he fills with rage and red starts to fill his eyes with anger, I try so hard, I cannot lie, but the words won't leave from the tip of my weak tongue from which I have spoken the words I love you from.

If i take these ******* pills,
I won’t feel this pain anymore..

People will love you and support you when it's beneficial.

Dark nights,
Fighting your sleep,
Fighting to see his face,
Body getting nervous,
It starts to breaks down,
Anxiety getting worst,
Eyes start to water,
Body starts to shake,
Trying to relax,
How long will this take!

Hiding in a dark room,
Reminding her body hurts.

Ever been so angry and not know why?
To the point where you pushed everyone aside?

her smile so sweet,
like the sun rising by the beach.

You took the good in me,
And destroyed me.
Broke me down into pieces,
That cannot be put together.
You took my mending soul for granted,
And left it in the cold,
You took me for granted,
When you spoke the words,
I love you.
Knowing you didn't love me so.

She gives you all of her trust,
And you're abusing it right now.

She had *** three times this week,
Because she is feeling weak.
It felt sweet,
Each time she felt loved,
Even though she knew,
It was for the moment,
She felt loved,
So it was okay,
Until she laid in bed,
In disgust,
Red drips across her wrist.

If I wasn't here for a day,
How would you feel?
Would it be no different?
No affection?
Imagine me not here,
Would you still hurt me?

Insecurities will **** and is going to **** me.

When everything comes back to you, like a crash,
Is when you wish you didn't have to remember such painful memories that lasted longer than you wished it had.

And if you must go, just know.
I gave you my whole world..

I wish I could wake up too you.
Wake up in your arms, as I crawl up in a ball and lay on my favorite spot.
Your chest.
I wish I can lay my legs in between yours, as you hold me real close,
and fall asleep to a movie that we wanted to see last night.
I wish I could hear you say goodnight,
Not through mobile.
But Rather to my face,
So I can kiss you goodnight, and fall asleep until the sunrise,
Because with you everything is alright.

I haven't smiled like this,
In so long,
Maybe weeks,
I can feel the love,
The happiness,
No sign of weak.
No pain inside of me.
I finally know the true meaning of
gods does listens.

Don't give up on us,
I just want you to hear this
Don't give up on us
I love you til your last breath
Til your last breath.
Til forever and ever
I won't stop loving you ever
I won't give up on you ever.
Please just hear this
Sometimes you got to walk to through the darkness to get to the light
Sometimes you got to get through the wrong **** to get to the right
No matter how hard life gets,
You still have to fight.

Fight for me.


And if love is real than love can heal
And on the real I would die for you

I know you hear this

What if she's not doing it for attention? What if she's doing it, because she's crying out for help? ..

She learned to cry in silence,
That even when she’s near you,
You can’t hesr her. .

She's feeling so weak.
She just wants to feel beautiful, in her own skin.
Once again.
She's falling deep,
As each puff she takes,
She lets that smoke take away her tears,
That she's been trying so hard to hold in.
Feeling so unwanted,
She searches for another,
To make her feel pretty again.
Knowing that person,
That she's been going too,
Wants nothing but one thing,
She's weak.
So she gives it up anyways.
Only time she feels wanted,
Is it wrong?
She knows it.
But she's hurting.
So she lets him abuse her,
Abuse her in ways she rather not say.
The cuts, the blades,
The ***,
No feelings,
He doesn't love her,
He doesn't care.
She doesn't seem to care, she's letting her self go.
"I'm so sorry"
She says to herself,
As she takes another puff,
As he enter the fragile body.

Like you better from a distance,
Where you couldn't know me.
Where I couldn't love you.
Where you couldn't have cheated,
Where I couldn't have been misleaded

When you're so angry,
That you just want to cry.

You are nothing like the last.
Scratch that.
You are everything like the last.


-M&J

he took the man i loved,
without knowing i am growing another person inside of me,
how dare he pulled the trigger,
hit the man i love.
rip my insides,
gave me nothing,
and took the life inside of me.
gone.

Who have you become? I see a change. You're becoming so care less, not coming around more. I'm upset, I hit you up, and you're not there. Who have you become? This isn't the person I fell in love with me, that made me believe that you could of been my number one.

What if I told you I was ill?
What if this pain I am complaining about is more than just pain.
But rather cancer..
What if I kept it a secret ?
What if I had a few months left,
What if there was no more of me,
In me,
Wanting to rest,
But what if I rest and never wake up ever again?

I was never worth it,
As to him,
I felt  worthless.

The way that blade felt against her body,
She did it,
she was hurting.
She's sorry.

When you have nobody to vent too,
So you go to the one person who knows you like the back of there own hands.
It had to be you.

Maybe I was foolish to fall in love with someone like you.
To let you take part of my body,
To let you see the whole me.
Or maybe I was blind?
Maybe I knew, but didn't want to believe the truth..

Fighting her insecurities,
So she could feel beautiful,
Once again.
She doesn't know that she's perfect,
She thinks she's not worth it.
But she's perfect,
In my eyes she's perfect,
She doesn't know it,
Because I don't say it.
Maybe if i tell her,
She wouldn't feel so weak,
Or try to be like them. .'

She asked "what's it's like to be in love?"
She said she doesn't know,
That all she men she gave her world too,
Broke her heart.

Don't leave her in a dark room
She'll let herself go.

Don't wake me up, I'm in love with the thoughts of you.

He told me everything was going to be okay,
Even though I knew it wasn't,
I believed him anyway.

Laying on his chest seems to work to help the stress.

I miss him.
Where are you.