If I wasn't here for a day,
How would you feel?
Would it be no different?
No affection?
Imagine me not here,
Would you still hurt me?

Some things are better left unsaid,
Unknown.
As I wish I didn't know,
What I know about you and her.
It's not a secret no more,
Since the story has been told,
Kept behind closed doors,
Thought you was being faithful,
Lately you've been lying,
Dragging my heart around the floor.
I'm not as important,
As I once was to you before.
Should of kept it to yourself,
But these deadly secrets will be discovered on its own.

He lost the attraction,
So he found it with another.

Feeling like you don't belong,
Lately it's been so hectic.
Wanting nothing but some affection,
But lately it's been so busy.
You have priorities,
Promises you made.
But you're tired,
You need a hug.
You're body is dying,
You feel is suffering.
You're becoming ill,
The food you have consumed,
Went down the drains.
Can I just go?
Take the next train?
You desperately need a break.
And you miss him.
And you're fighting,
No clue on his end,
But you're fighting.
To stay healthy,
You are fighting.
Promise to never let go.

Just a girl with insecurities,
Wanted to be told she's beautiful.
Doesn't matter if you don't mean it, just say it.
And she'll believe it.

I hope to see you one day,
So I could tell you how much I hate you.
Or should I be thanking you?
For making me realize my self worth.
You inconsiderate human being.

Wish some things were different,
Like the way my body aching.
Doing permanent damage.
If I keep this up,
The thoughts of becoming a mother,
Something that i might not be able to be.
Due to stress,
Maybe depression,
Or a little bit of both.
Fighting to keep those around you,
Not realizing,
That you need them the most.  
The body becoming ill,
And you hide it it,
So you can go through a few days,
Without having to spill.
May this night be better,
May this pain go away,
May my body heal,
Let the ache go away.