why do i keep going back to you knowing that its a bad idea?

why do i allow myself to talk to you over and over again knowing that ill fall for you?

why do i KNOW that i still love you even after you broke my heart?

why am i such a mess?

why am i only a mess without you?

my thoughts are eating me from the inside out
my mind is screaming and its hurting me
i hear people.
they tell me to **** myself so why dont i?
i deserve it and my mind..
my mind is such a dark place and im tired.
not sleep tired though and thats my problem
im going insane,
and i need you.

it is so hard to be myself without you.

you were the only person i had.

you were my best friend.

you were my rock.

you were my world.

and now you're gone.

you're the reason
i keep going

you're the reason
i continue to ignore people

you're the reason
i feel beautiful

its just you,
you're the reason